Knicks and Knacks of My LIfe..<3

May I Please Have Your Attention Puh-Lease??

2009-12-04T15:49:00.002+08:00

hey people,
This Blog will be closed from now on.
I have decided To move to a happier place..

karlisyle.blogspot.com

DO RE-Link me please!do not abandon me..wtf!:)

:)

2009-11-26T22:08:00.002+08:00

hey people,
Today's been a Good day..thank God!haha..because i saw my Bf in New Moon.
This will just be a short update..juts got back from having Jap dinner which was Awesome!:)had dinner with the Cullens(OK scratch that..in my dreams)had it with the kongs..haha..it proves to show that having kids during dinner in a restaurant can be a task!haha:)
Fyi,I SAW new moon today!Edward Cullen is still so hot!

i sort of pissed BB off by whinning about wanting to go HK disneyland..haha..Duh,Mickey is my second Love affair in my life..haha..ok maybe im being a lil dramatic!:)

to Beffie,it's not that i don't want to be back but i am happy here in KL..i dON'T WANT TO GO BACK AND caused trouble to u know who..hehe.things are fine like that when im not around that person!u come kl..stay with me a day or two la!hehe..:)i Missie u!

OK I'M SIGNING OFF now..*crosses fingers that i'll be able to got HK disneyland soon!*

oh,did i mention i saw my Bf eDWARD Cullen today?ok this is starting to scare u..i sont know why i have this sudden love sick on a celebrity..this is not good..time to grow up Kar!or some might say Kar Kar..haha..

with love,
karlisyle lum

havent done this in a while:)

2009-11-25T15:18:00.007+08:00

A dedication Post to Those that Play a Huge part in my life..
to the rest of you that arent mention.i still love you guys too k!hehe:)

**To my college mates that made the more interesting..(sorry but i dont seem to have pic of u guys in my lappy yet!hehe)
Terence,kavitha,Siew fan and Genise To name a few..thanks for being so nice to me!hehe..though we only known for a year now but i'm glad we had the chance to be friends!
Terence,thanks for always being there especially when things was really bad!you stood by me and those random SMS i send to u!thanks so much!lovie ya!
**THE newest addition to my fam!:)hehe..thanks you guys for making my life in KL a better one!:)You guys always make me smile and sorry for all the akward moments i have caused!thanks for making me open to new things!hehe...like daytona,Left4dead..and thanks for always tolerating me being fussy!:)thanks for taking care of me like a baby sis!haha

** BB,kONG sze min..:)You are my definition of LOve..haha..damn cheesy..but i cant find any non cheesy way of doing these..:p
BB i love YOU MORE THAN Anything in this world..you made me understand the meaning of two is better than one..thanks for always loving me and caring for me..u do a good job taking care of me..you made me a better person..you are the reason why i have the courage to fight the battles of the world..hehe..:)
i'm sorry for always having doubts about our realationship..thanks for never leaving me although there were moments i almost have wronged you..thanks for always catching me and picking me up whenever pieces of me crumble.I hope that we can be like this Forever through the good and bad times!i Love you,BB!:)Hopefully,we'll make it to 3 years!:)

**Kerryn my twin sis..i always deny that i catre and i dont show show u how i feel often because im just shy..haha..you know i <3 u dont you?well,you have been the best to me in the fam all this years..you understand me and everytime something bad happens to me,you were always there to be my crying shoulder..you see me suffer all this years and you atre the only 1 that truly understands my pain..thanks so much fopr being my own personal diary!thanks for hearing me out!
i'll never forget all the good memories we had..we aer connected somehow..maybe cause we have been sharing everything even when we were in mummy's stomach!:) sorry for always being the tougher one and bully u!hehe..im sorry for being such an arse sometimes but thanks for accompanying me!you said that we have distant since coming to KL but i feel it's the other day round!i feel so much closer to u although we seee each other less!i'm glad that i have a twin Jie like u!:)couldnt have ask for a better one!

**Beffie dear!we have been Friends for almost 13 years,BFF for 6 years..you are like a sister to me and you know how much i treasure you..im willing to fight with anyone incl capik for u!hahaha..ok not to that extent..too lesbo vibey~:)
well there's so much to be said to u..but i have to start 1st with a Big THANK you..
when no one believe the good in me,you were there..thanks for never judging me and caring for me.Even though i abandon you during F2 for my BF you were there..remember the after school talks on the phone?we can gayut for hours and hours..sometimes till ur dad balik and then tiba2 u'll get akward on the phone?haha:)i miss all those good 'OL times..we were so young and innocent..i remember how u always had so much boy trouble..and how when i was Fat in F1,you were always being so nice lying to me that maybe my crush would like me back just to make me smile!:)
I remember Pn.Sharmala always said that we two were like siamese twins cause we cant be apart.though the last few years in high school,our friendhip suffred alil but im glad that we got so close when we both started college..

i love you and i know u love me..:p..thanks for always being there!you are the closest anyone has ever gotten with me..sometimes i think even Kong's jealous of you..haha..

**ALL of my Good Friends!i miss you people so much.Thanks for all the times that you had to put up with all of my nonesense.
Ju,thanks for always being there when i and ker organise something.You have beeen truly a good friend to me..:)Though we barely talk now but our friendship has always been more done than said!i <3 u..

TO the rest of you,although time and location have split us all up..im glad i had my fair chance to have been close with each one of you!I have never regretted knowing each one of you because of you guys i am who i am today!thanks so much!:)
WANtheng,wei lynn and Jia li,i miss you 3 always being the trio,during PRS,we gotten to know each other very well..3 of u are crazy people and really fun to be with!:)
Caroline and June,thanks so much for being there..especially during F4 for being close to me..the Girl dramas and school trouble that we all had to go through together..you guys have always been like an elder sis to me although u guys are younger..wtf..haha..

with loads of love,
karlisyle lum

According to you

2009-11-25T14:47:00.002+08:00

the song above is by Orianthi-AN AMAZING FEMALE GUITARIST!:)
Hey people,
back here aH-gain,I know that i have been posting post that are Dry and boring but well i have nothing else to do!Grrh..home alone ah-gain..uGLY BETTY DVD'S FINISHED..JUST WAITING for GG dvds..haha..i was catching it in You tube..up to episode 8 i gave up because i have to watch it in 5 parts..Grrh..GG is worth the wait..hehe..

well.official countdown to NEW MOON:23 hours!hehe

well here's an update on my life:
1.I am currently hooked up with Orianthi-According to you!hehe..yeah,i have been singing this in the shower!:p

2.I am still nowhere accomplishing my study routine.

3.I am still the girl who is always in a Long term relationship but chickens out when it is nearing to 3 years.

4.I wanna be Love..

5.I still make my life complicated!grrh..

Life's so cynical.It can be like a circus sometimes.It's funny how it's so hard to find trustworthy people these days.even the ones you think that are family bite you in the back.i just want a peaceful life.that is why i never go home or let my family invade my life.i want 100% total privacy.If there was a daughter in the world who is a total stranger to the family,it had to be me only.they judge me in a light that not even normal people would.I'm always the bitch and the evil one.Giving u people a chance to know me is like giving a dog $$ Because you would have no idea what to do with it.I am very secretive from my family..maybe that's why i tend to be so open to others!haha..

im so tired of carrying this grudge.i wanna forget and forgive but somehow i cant.why am I like that?i also wish i knew.Who in this world would introduce themselves during orientation as a physco who thinks her fam doesnt love her?

You ask me which family would openly criticise about their own family members in tne internet.you ask me why am I like that.You think that I'M doing the wrong things all the time.ASK yourself,Have you ever bothered seating down with me and listening to me?You rather take others judgement about me then know me by yourself.

If you come closer,You'll find that i dont bite,i might even be loveable to you.

oh GAWD,im so sorry that i wrote this..an Emotional vomit again..I just wish that my life never would have started this way..the grudge im carrying is heavy.i wanna erase all the pain.what would it take for you to understand me?

i miss the Good 'OL times!:)

with love,
karlisyle lum

it's so quiet here at night

2009-11-24T19:04:00.002+08:00

hey people,
back for a short update.haven't been studying though i should start on it.grrh i am damn pissed that my holidays are coming to an end but so many KUANTAN-ians are only beggining to have their hols.Grrrh..jeles much?

well,nothing much except that i finish UGLY BETTY season3 Dvds with ker.haha..so im left with nothing else to watch except ASTRO.well,finally book New Moon tix for this thurs..2pm movie..the good seats are almost sold out + i didnt know that it was 18SG..the movie will be so good!haha..EDWARD..i love you!and yes,Nadia i know that you dont understand why anyone can like him!but just look at him.so mysterios and handsome!haha..:)

I really dont feel like studying.Manage to spring clean my room today!yipee!so dusty after 2 weeks being vacant!haha..what else..well basically bunch of rants..haha..dont bother wasting your time!:x

hurmxx this is some the things bothering me lately:
1.what if i dont manage to get 4a's for my alevel.where will i go next.haish
2.why cant i have my cake in two?why do we always have to choose?haish..

well,AS INSPIRED by beffie's post
these are some of the things i fear about:
-Losing the people close to me now
-Having people mmisunderstand about me
-Putting on weight!:p

ok that's all for now..

with love,
karlisyle lum

why is Two is Better than One?

2009-11-23T14:22:00.002+08:00

hey people,
back with a short update..feeling a lil mellow..home alone right now..ker went for classes..bb started classes too.hurmxx..the tv's On so that i wont feel so alone,i am so jealous of the people having hols now..how come mine so diff with the rest?now ny every1 free..so unfair..well i guess that is fact no1 bout life,it is unfair.

1.Beth's recent post about Fat really hit me.well i am too currently facing that problem myself.well having a pear shape body when you are only 4ft11 will do harm to ur image.people often classify me as fat.i agree with beth,it doesnt mean just cause i have more flesh than others in certain areas makes me fat.

2.i hate having trust issues with people.In my opinion in any relationships,trust is the most important key.If there is no trust then why bother carrying on.I hate the fact i make u sad and insecure because i have more Guy friends now than before but that's how it is with me now.i know if it were the other way round i would be really sad and jealous but i don't know how to make it up to you.

3.I don't want to always be the one that care.why can't you take the initiative and find me 1st?why do i always have to be the one who misses you 1st?Am i NOt important in your life as you are in mine?

4.i wanna watch new moon twice!:)Edward is mine!

5.I hate Politics.The ones with the power are the one in favour.Just because i don't like sucking up to you but the other person does then why does that person deserves better treatment?

6.I hate snitches.it is even worst when you have one living right under your nose..breathing down on you on your every breath.Fuck off and get a life..oops i forgot you dont have one!

7.i am so lazy to study already!holiday too long!:x..i wanna play daytona and left4dead again!:p

8.The 4 of us had nothing better to do..we decided to all wear black last sunday.you can see in the pic below!:)

9.i miss you as i always had.sometimes i wish we could have been closer.haish

10.Why can't i have my cake in two?

pictures of the moment:

with love,
karlisyle lum

You took away part of me when you took my heart away~

2009-11-20T11:49:00.013+08:00

hey people,
so sorry for tha lack of updates.BB's last week of hols so it's been pretty hectic..been out and about!hehe..29th nov marks the end of my freedom!:)
as promised,updates on my penang trip!
My To do List whenever i am in PEnang/Ipoh:

1.if u ever are headed to Penang,you can drop by Ipoh which is on the way to penang or if you are crazy enough to stay another night last minute do have the famous dim sum for breakfast or the famous kai si hor fun.oohh..do remember do grab a cup of coffee in the original Oldtown kopitiam!:)

2.Do not hesitate on walking around looking for tidbits and their delicasies.hehe..sometimes the best thing are the hardest to find so walk around the town..you'll get to see the sceneries..there a + point for u!;)

3.Do drop by the KFC and the Ship.Although it can be found nationwide but this two outlets in penang are rather interesting.the KFC is situated in an authenthic building while the ship well as you can see is literally the ship..haha..

4.I know you are thinking why go to a KOPITIAM when there is countless of it in KL and everywhere.But this particular GEORGETOWN kopitiam is a must eat at for me.the TEOCHEW cHENDUL WAS ah-mazing.haha..if you are afraid of putting on weight,there is a healthier option for you that is the soyabean with the brown sugar and cendol.haha and then of course you can have the skyjuice there which u can see me drinking..haha..dont ask me why there's a pic of the cup of water..chan insisted on taking the pic..haha..:)

5.Go to the beach and Camwhore!:)

MY 5 things to never DO/GO when you are in penang/ipoh
1.Never Ever travel in the car after you got drench wet by the rain.we had to travel back to KL after we got drench from visiting Kellies castle.:)the next day,no Voice and Flu..grrh..but those Good times was worth it!:)

2.Do not become crazy and stupid as us to decide at 8.30pm that you suddenly want to stay another night when you have a friend who's working the next day!haha,yes,we stayed another night at Ipoh because there were 3 crappy people who didnt want to go back to Kl.haha..you are looking at one of them!:x

3.Don't bring Your fave toy Pig if u have a friend who IS IN LOVE with it.my pig became a victim of sodomy..wtf..haha..:p

4.it is better not to Have Bak kut teh at this shop in Penang.The service was rather good but the soup and yau char kueh tasted weird.other than that,their dry bak kut teh was delicious!:)
plus it wouldnt kill for the fact that there were Ah-dorable dog pets Lurking around the shop!:)hehe

5.Never Ever step foot into this shop as u'll regret it..as you can see,there is only a picture of a pathethic plate of fried 'Lo Bak Koh' because we waited for bloody30 mins and that was the only thing served to us.This shop service was a disgracement towards humankind.No sytematic order of doing tasks.THe worst thing is people that ordered and came later than us got served before us.That plate of thing served to us tasted terrible pulak tu.Grrh..thinking abot it also sets me on fire..

last but not least,always remember to camwhore camwhore camwhore!camwhore pics,you can see in my FB album!:)

with love,
karlisyle lum!

satellite heart!:)

2009-11-14T13:43:00.005+08:00

hey people,
blog still in trouble..grrh~ pictures show up as encrypted codes and font still unchangeable!ggrhhh..
besides that,i think my blogging mojojo is back?haha..the blogging bug has come back?haha..crap..i am being crappy huh?

"the party don't start till i walk in" Guess where was the lyrics from?Hint:the song i am super into now..haha!

1.Found this in Kong's camera and i asked B who did this and he answered:
"You lah..i where got so childish.."
ok so now im childish..WTF..haha..guess somehow i always like to do lame stuff..wahaha..the bear was a pass on from me and meor's r/ship..maybe that's why kong doesnt care about it..but now worries..i have both of em now!:)

2.i realised that i have more confidence when i am FAT..haha..i use to be a debater when i was in primary school..haish..i wish that sometimes i can be less paraniod..i wanna change for the better but why is it so hard?haish..

3.i have to work harder for my law a2 papers cause i got a B for paper 2 AS law..screw law!grrh..

4.Currently rockin to kesha cole-tic toc.you know how it's like my ring tone,my alarm tone will usually be the song.haha..i know i always get bored of it cause i make it a routine to hear the songs im currently into atleast twice a day!hehe..

5.i am watching 2012 TONINGHT!keke..i read it in FB that the ending sucked?well i'll have to see for myself then!:p

6.Christmas is coming so that we leave me Broke again!:(haha but i will endure the pain as the spirit of giving is much more crucial..

7.I am sort of scared to start classes in 2 weeks time!new classmates again!haish..hopefully i can charm my way in!:x

8.i miss the good times we use to have..well personally,things havent been great for us..i am determine to work it out..haha..well,somehow it'll never be how it used to be but thanks for always being there!:)

9.i was browsing through Kong's old camera and i found tons of our after SPM hang outs..remember how Relax use to be our almost weekly YC spot?we even ponteng +maths tuition during mooncake festival and went there?the good times..i miss u people!:(

10.i really want this soundtrack CD!haha..did u know the movie's not even out yet this soundtrack have made it to no1# in the billboard 200?grrh..a so must have!i want..hehe:)

with love,
karlisyle lum

Nyonya ABC + Chicken rice ball=Good times:)

2009-11-10T15:55:00.007+08:00

hey people,
after Beffie's birthday,the next mrning i and BB were headed to Melaka..B and our friend Chan haven't been to Melaka before so what better reason for us not to go there?haha..

ok as i said in my last couple of posts,i am currently facing probs with my blogger posting functions..even when i upload the pics,all of the pics are like the just words..haha..so sorry for boring pics with no captions k?hehe..but do look at the pics and narate your own caption..so there at least something for u to do besides reading this boring blog..;p..haha..

10 facts of the Day:
1.BB is having 2weeks sem break..wee~
2.My sore eyes are getting worst..
3.i am using SKIN FOOD's pomegranate whitening night serum and it's working very well..haha..:)i know i have suddenly become damn vain about being fair!stupid i have join the cult of those typical girls!ish
4.i have an overexcessive oily scalp!using KIEHL'S shampoo now but any suggestion on bertter shampoo?
5.i am watching 2012 this sat!
6.i am going penang this sun..so any DVD request people?
7.i sold my 1st dress at thrifty-bunnie.blogspot.com!wee~
8.i love my life now!so carefree.no need rush for classes..but not for long..:(
9.I am glad that i met Capik the other day!:)
10.i hope that my kuantan mates will be going genting for new year's countdown too!cause i'll be there from 31st to the 3rd..

p.s:does any1 have any ideas whether there are cheap and nice clothes in penang and where i can get em?pretty please!im going with 3 guys so u pretty much can figure out..haha..thanks!

with love,
karlisyle lum!

p.s:watch out for next week for penang pics pulak!:)

Sing to me a Love song:)

2009-11-06T17:14:00.002+08:00

hey people,
looks like this time is for real i am stuck with this ugly font..anyone knows what kind of default problem am i facing?grrh..please do help me..hehe..

well,i am bored..as usual..i have OFFICIALLY run out blogs to hop around..haha..yup u can count on me..you name the blog i have read it..:p..
is anyone still reading this rant of mine?well sometimes i wish those of you that are still are,just drop by a message..it wouldn't kill you gto do so..you will make me feel happy..haha..

well this post was inspired by one of my favourite blogger..er..well i guess mostly every1's favourite blogger..Fourfeetnine?Princess aud?ring a bell yet?hehe..

fro now on,im gonna try and make it easier for you people to read this blog by doing simple posts like this..hehe:x

well here it goes,
here is the lists of some things i really love and adore:

1.People who are confident and Do not give a shit of what others think.
you know i have always envied people who can just walk right in the room thinking they are the best looking one.i can never walk into a room with a sea of people with my head up..haha

2.People who actually Do and not only talk shit.
this kind of people always succeed in whatever they do.

3.Someone who thinks they are great but never greater than others.
In other words means humble la.haha..it's so sad that we earthlings are running short of this type of people.

4.Someone who loves himself/herself.
this is the main key one has to have before loving another person.i'm barely there yet but im trying!:)

5.Someone who dares to speak up.
In this world full of deceit and lies we are in,it's nice to have some honesty.:)

well,on another note..here's goes the list of what i dislike and hate(oh,Boy i know in the back of your head this sure is gonna be a long list..haha..:p..well dont hate me for being a hater!)

1.People who belittle others to feel better.
this is especially within us girls..haha..we are all special in our own way!keep that in mind!making others feel bad will only make u a DICK.

2.People who compare.
i grew up in a family of four girls..this sucks the most..whether be it if you are the one getting the compliments or you are the one getting the insults..either way it sucks.unless you are enough of a bitch to look in the mirror and believe that you are actually better than the other..haha:p

3.People who backstabs.
it's rather funny how life works.you will never be able to steer clear from this type of people.wherever you go,there is bound to be someone there who just cant be true to others and themselves..

4.People who have no manners.
Dont push when lining up and do not talk rudely or show a stupid face unless you really know the person and you know that person is an ARSE-hole.

5.People who judge a book by its cover.
Cut some slack and every1 deserves a chance.don't let you judgement be influence by others.you know what's the best.

6.Being put in the middle.
i am not some kind of person that you can use whenever a problem arises.deal your own proble.face your fear.

7.being left hanging after a fight.
i just wanna talk things out.

8.the feeling of sweating in the inside.
i wish there was some kind of pill that i can take to reduce my sweat.Ewww..i know..haha

9.Humans that act like they care but they don't actually.
Ok to be truthful i been here..i was like listening and then in the back of mind,i'm like can you just shut teh F up already.i don't effing care..haha..sorry k people!i guess i am a better talker than a listener.

10.Being Alone.
I am afraid of loneliness.that is one main reason i am never out of a relationship.i love being loved.i am always afraid that someday when i wake up i'll be all alone..

11.the DARK!
my worst fear!haha

here are some things that will make you hate me more:
i hate myself because:
1.i can't find it in my heart to ever forgive and forget.
2.i always remember the most painful pain you inflict in me rather than the good memories.
3.i am short and bad tempered.
4.i hate someone so much that i wanna get her out of my life so badly!
5.i never appreciate anyone and anytjing and when i do,i always end up being unappreciated.
6.i had random and wild mood swings that might actually be depression.
7.i feel like there is no one in this world that can understand me.
8.i am damn Muthafucking negative..haish..
9.i am so resentful.
10.i always make everything so complicated.

okay i know that was a Truckload of emotional vomit that i just spilled..i just been really very disturbed with all this negative thoughts..i hope i can just chuck it here..grrh..

ok:FACT OF THE DAY FOR you:I rather you lied to me than telll me the truth if the truth will hurt me!keep that in mind people!hehe..

i'm happy peoplee.i know i might be alil crazy and emotionally disturbed but im sure i'll be fine!

help me stay postive!i know i can and i will try!tee=hee!

with love,
karlisyle lum

love toxic

2009-11-02T14:48:00.002+08:00

hey people,
there is seriously something wrong with my bloogspot.i cant seem to be able to change my font..grrh..stuck with this ugly font..i hate this font because it's so round-ish..haha..okay im being crappy..

had one hell of a day yesterday..literally!:p..haha..went and watch 2 movies..once in KLCC and the other in Tropicana city mall..on a sunday night,if you wanna suprise me,just come to tropicana city mall GSC,you will bound to see me there..maybe in a couple of weeks maybe months,they will even roll out a red carpet for me when i am enetering..hehe*i wish*:p

it's been raining here every evening..sometimes it makes me feel so emo..makes me miss home..but sometimes i feel so cozy snuggling in bed..hehe..it's one of those time i wish i had a hot chocolate in my hand and BB to snuggle to..*winks*

well some randomness now,

5facts you should know about me if you are truly a friend:
1.i LOVE pink.
2.my most fay cartoon character is Snow White and Mickey mouse.
3.i hate eating fish to the gut.
4.i am always in a long term relationship.
5.i appreciate all the freindships i have.That's you im talking about!:)

Things that you might not know:
1.i love to stare off when people are talking to me about something serious.:x
2.i love thriller movies!
3.i love nibbling my nails when i am studying or on the internet.
4.i want a Coach handbaga for christmas.
5.ANNABETH LEE wants to just spend time with you people for her birhday!that's all..so do come this sat ok!!
6.i love playing daytona now!hehe
7.i already reach the highest level for restauarnt city!level 32!:)

a picture of me playing the kids game(talk about being a craddle snatcher!:p and Chilli LOVE!HEHE

with love,
karlisyle lum

i miss you

2009-10-30T18:09:00.003+08:00

hey people,
loads on my mind..so much happening in my life..sometimes i feel so tired of battling all this feelings on my own..i wish someone could understand me..then again i guess im the one who always make things so complicated for others to understand..grrh..

okay let me feed you with 10 random facts bout me:
1.i am PMS-ing damn badly so stay away!:p
2.i still dont know what i wanna be..maybe that's why i am so cool about finishing my alevels on next year may.
3.i want a BLACKBERRy curve 8520.
4.i am official Broke..no cash at all.
5.i am in dire need of an outfit reinvention..
6.i still hearts MAXI dress.
7.i am officially declaring my LOVE to annabeth lee..:)haha..
8.i want a black puppy..
9.i wanna lose weight..
10.i am starting to hate the fact that i am so EFFING short.

hehe..tell me ten random facts of yourselves any day..i would love to know...:)

with love,
karlisyle lum

i touch dog poo twice and step on dog poo once

2009-10-29T11:54:00.006+08:00

hey people,
back with an update on SPCA trip the other day with the SEGI-ans..hehe..(CATCH club commitee)
well,i had a blast that day(thanks ker) but i learnt that i can take care of one puppy or dog but definitely not 2000..i almost died of shock when david told me there are 200 stray dogs/puppies.despite my love for dogs,i just couldn't be sacrificial enough especially upon arrival to the dogs section,a punguent smell draw my smelling senses and immediately i knew i am going to die.haha..

okay i know im being over dramatic(as always) but hell yeah the smell was crazily smelly and even if you tried to ignore the smell,it comes right back poking your nostrils..haha..
well,all i know is i might not be able to help out as a permanent volunteer there but i can surely help by adopting a puppy there someday.

to you people who are thinking of getting a pet,think twice before going to a pet store and buying a pet which will cost u over rm1000..i know that the strays in spca mignt not be of pure breed but they offer the same kind of love and fun as the puppies you get in the store..besides think of it this way,the spca puppies/dogs are desperately in need of care n love..imagine you being abandon and left to survive on your own on the streets,you surely want to find a new home fast right?hepl the dogs,puppies and cats there!there have all kinds of breed!they even offer a few pure breeds i assure you..i still didnt convince you enough?well,just pay a visit to the spca and look around..no harm and you got nothing to lose,if nothing catches your attention,then leave and go ahead and get a puppy from the pet store!just make sure the puppy you buy dont end up on the streets or the SPCA..

and for those of you who have lost a dog or a cat,you may contact them because they will be ever willing to return them to you!:)

besides giving the strays hope and love,you will definitely be able to save tons of $$$ and save you a trip to the pet store..if you are adopting a stray,a small donation is only needed while the dogs or puppies which are of pure breed is about rm150-200.cheap,eh?plus they are already train not to bite!hehe..

okayla,if you are still not convince that getting a puppy from SPCA(like my BB-some people just tend to be so negative about strays),then you are just plain heartless..hehe..
i'll leave you to the pics now!

of course la must camwhore..we took the pics after we were done with our work

i just had to take the pic of this..the dog named chanel..cant afford a chanel handbag?no worries,get this dog instead!:p

the puppies that i am so gonna get!hehe..

the reception counter where all the paper works are done!:)

the so called library..but then more like a store room..

the cats in their cribs

some of the work we had to do as volunteer

p.s:if you wanna see kerryn's pic of holding a puppy real life,come view my facebook..she really carried a puppy..she sort of overcome her fear to dogs a lil and is thinking of joining over to the dog people side..

im always more of a dog person..what about u?:)

with love,

karlisyle lum

i need a new phone BADLY..

2009-10-23T17:31:00.004+08:00

hey people,
between judging my time for studies,facebook and going out with friends,now i gotta take time smsin too..haha..i am currently using a 'samsung' phone..touchscreen infact..haha..well i am not sure whether as to not to say this aloud but i guess it is not as samsung as u think..haha..'samsung'..see it as quoted..

well,all i can say is as compared to the last time i replied someone less than a minute or 2..now i take up as long as 5mins for a full page sms..aargh..i guess it's a way of god telling me touch screen is so not my thing..haha..

well,i am weighing my options on the PINK LG ice cream phone and a Blackberry..haha..im not sure as to when i am getting either phones yet as i am still in debt for my camera..haven't finish paying my installment for it..yupiess..my parents love me to learn the hard way..whatever i want,i either have to earn it or pay thru my nostrils for it..hehe..yes,i get the message,money doesn't come by easily..will you buy me a new phoney for me?puh-leaseeeee??haha..

well i am contemplating on the blackberry cause i scared i might then abandon my baby ipod touch cause it already covers all the function an ipod has..haha..then that will just put my ipod to waste..but i guess carrying along my ipod,a phone and camera ain't exactly the most convenient thing either..haha..

OR should i get the LG ice cream?it is so pretty but its function is rather basic..i don't think it is even WIFI enabled..haha..but then i have an ipod touch which i do carry around to substitue that needs..hehe..

a simple phone or a blackberry?

with love,

karlisyle lum

evacuate the dancefloor-cascada

2009-10-20T14:50:00.005+08:00

hey people,
it has been one hell of a week..with kat leaving this morning,things feel so quiet again..missing her like crazy..did a lot of sister bonding with her..i shall beat you in daytona soon!rematch next time!
when i was uploading pics from the halloween party,i was figuring out what this post shall be about..i wanna make it a happy one but i am afraid i might be unable to do so..feeling a lil blue..it's like there's an emptiness and quietness again in my heart..
i never really open up to my family..i am always afraid of being hurt..it's like if you ever got too close to one person and one day when that certain person walks out of ur life,there will be a large void that need to be refill..i was always the blacksheep of the family because i act a lil different..i am always the bossy,picky and demanding one..yes i am always complaining about this and that..but that's who i am..

i never knew that i and Kat had so much in common..had a blast with her for a week while she was here..one thing i admire about her is her capability of not takingsome things so seriously..that's why she's always happy even something's bothering her in the back of her mind..i miss you,NGOK NGOK!can't wait for u to be here again!:)

on another total unrelated topic,i really am missing my friends..all of you..it's funny how people always tell me in everything i do,i am always the one that puts the most effort..thinking about it,it may be somehow true..i keep reminscing cack in highschool where ker and I were always planning suprise parties for people..for a while back then ,i always felt so use like i was alwyas taken for granted..i always thought was it because i wasn'tpretty enough that's why i always had to work harder taht others to keep my friends..
now i realise there will always be someone who has to be the one who takes the extra mile..if not nothing will ever be done..

you told me nothing would change or come between us
i hate this gap that is coming between us
it feels so funny becasue somehow you are like a stranger to me now
we were once so close
now i barely can remember the image of u in my head
i don't wanna lose what we have or had

some picas for u people,

"kill the devilish pumpkin!"

"surrender or die..muahahaha"

"example of 'nudge and threaten' skills that suck";p

"flyaway.."

"classic..Rambo and Devillish pumpkin"

".....,phua chu kang went blonde,star wars gone wrong,spartan missing head gear and rambo"

"darth vader..(rocker style!)"

"failed attempt of flying to heaven..banished from heaven only pure angels allowed.."

"cantik,kan?:p"hehe

"dark angel with her french maid with two drunk pirates couple"

"mismatch from hell"

"dark angel gone good.."BAD GIRLS GONE GOOD!:P

WITH <3,

more pictures in FB soon!

karlisyle lum ern ai!<3

titleless

2009-10-17T17:32:00.002+08:00

hey people,
just got back home..it has been a long day..finally done with the halloween/birthday party..
my mood's sort of spoiled..had a fight again with u know who..haish..anyhow,i just wanted to pen a few words and go sleep for a while after this..

pics will be uploaded soon in facebook so do watch out k!

with love,
karlisyle lum

what you doing this halloween?

2009-10-05T14:20:00.002+08:00

hey people,

well let's hope that i won't start going all crappy in this post because i am seriously high right now..okay maybe partially high..WTH..it's that time of the month again and i just pop in painkiller which was given to me for my minor operation last year.yes,i dashed it somewhere in the cupboard and it's the only painkiller i could find.haha.but at least it's holding up the pain for now but i am feeling super sleeepy which results me in being not able to hold a book..Gawd,another unproductive day..i guess i juts have to wave goodbye to another day.haha..

as you people now,Halloween's on oct 31st and for my 18years of life,this day was just another ordinary day.well you can say i am for one not big on this day of celebration..haha..but well,this year,oct 17th or 18th,i'll be attending a costume birthday party..a birthday and halloween party..sort of a 2 in 1.haha..so i decided to go as a dark angel,i know so predictable kan?but who cares..i for one you should know takut malu so i'll definitely not go as something if i don't feel pretty..like what Kong likes to say,control cantik sangat.haha..

i wanted some of your opinion on whether i should do heavy emo make up or go natural..i just wanna play my part right as a dark angel ok?hehe..there are two pics as an example..well my dress is a straight cut with jagged ends and it's pretty short..should i wear leggings or flaunt my huge thighs..wtf..haha..

okay i am not making sense with my words..well if any of you do read this,do leave me your opinions ok?
hehe..and do tell me if any of you going for some costume/halloween celebration too..

p.s:i am not lying but i bet you people would love to see what Kong's gonna wear..typical of him..always embarassing himself..well if he has the guts,go ahead then.wahhaha..
i'll post up pics of the party k?hehe..

go natural like option 1

or..

option 2?

with love,

karlisyle lum..

p.s:who's going to the gathering at sunway this sat?can't wait to see u guys..and wear my maxi dress!camwhore time!:)

i wish

2009-10-03T11:01:00.002+08:00

hey people,
yup as promise i'll try to be back more often to pen some silly crappy stuff on this blog of mine..well oh well,the purpose of me posting this post is..because i had a dream of us again..
it's silly of me but i am going to admit it..i miss him..terribly alot.i hate myself so much sometimes because i am Kong's 1st Gf so he doesn't have any memories of another girl that use to be part of his life unlike me.Gawd sometimes i wish things would have be the opposite then maybe i don't always have this thoughts that i can't share with my BF.i hate so much when i am keeping my feelings from him or hiding something on my mind.

i dreamt of us again being what we use to be but only at the end part,i realise that what i did was stupid that i hurt her.some part of me long to be back to what we used to be.i miss being a part of your life and i miss you being part of my life.i know this post is bit too emo and wrong but i have to let it out.i miss all our memories.the way you used to make me laugh and smile.oh,how i wish things didn't change between us..

if there was 1 wish i could have is to erase the memories of us.i know it's stupid but the good memories we use to share is hurting me.i keep reminiscing on them and when i miss them,i feel os vulnerable.i wanna block out all the memories of what we use to be.maybe that way i can be a better friend to you.i admit i always try to avoid keeping in touch bacuse i fear i may like you again.i fear that maybe some feelings that i have for u underneath will grow stronger.i even hid all our pictures because i couldn't find the courage to see them.i know to be strong,i have to confront the problem and not run away.

i hate the fact that maybe some part of me insside still loves and longs for you.i feel so naked saying all this aloud.i feel like a fucking cheater.how isit possible for me to even think about you when i am in love with Kong and you in love with her.

i wanna grow stronger and defeat this feelings because i know i have a responsibility towards him , myself and to you.i will try my best.i miss you...there's nothing more to that.

with love,
karlisyle lum

do not kill me

2009-09-28T17:18:00.002+08:00

i decided to:
a.not apply for UK universities:p
b.curl my hair soon!!
c.get a puppy!(10 years more!)

i want:
a.to go the the nuffnang regional award thing(any free tickets?)
b.be a happier and more positive person
c.live life for the moment
d.not plan ahead of anything and go with the flow
e.make my life a great one..:)

Rain

2009-09-28T16:55:00.003+08:00

hey people,
i know i have abandon this blog and i am somewhat sure that even this post won't be read by anyone but it doesn't matter cause the sole purpose of my blog is suppose to be something i can pen about on my life..well it's ok i understand if you people have given up on waiting for me to update..

well this post is random..maybe out of boredom..Gawd i don't know how much longer i can take this home schooling..hehe..2months to go..
life's been really great in fact..i am becoming more and more positive..i know negative thoughts will kill you..hehe..
well let me get to the point,
it's funny now i think back that when i and meor broke up,i didn't shed a tear at all..after 3 years we went through all sorts of circumstances,i myself couldn't believe it..i felt so numb that moment..
A lot of rumours circulated around about me having Kong as my Bf that time before i broke off with meor..i won't even wanna bother denying cause no 1 will believe me..so as long as me,meor and God knows that's all that matters..

i keep asking myself why didn't i cry on the spot when we broke up?
was it because:
a.i always knew the day will come
b.i had someone else to be there when meor's gone
c.i simply didn't love him anymore
d.was i in denial
e.was i just pretending to be strong

For most people that know me,there see me as a strong willed person..i never liked to be the dumb blonde..i always wanted to be the best in everything..it's funny how we never stop learning from life..
i admit at the age of 18,i only manage to find myself..i was so lost at that time in high school..i was living a life full of hatred and resentment..well i'm glad im a better person Today..:)

well back to the real issue here,i still can't figure out why i didn't cry on the spot..maybe i don't wanna know..well i do believe some things are best left known..i cried after like a month of the break up then i realised i truly have lost him for good..it's funny i think i have a slow or retarded brain that maybe inteprets break up way too slow..haha:)

ok i know you people are definitely wondering why did i decide to bring this up,well the truth is...........
well before i tell,you must promise not to laugh and hate me ok?
i went to view his girlfriend FB page and i can't help envy his new gf..
it's not that i am not happy for him for moving on like i did..it's just i hate the thought that NOW..my Meor..well my past MEOR belongs to someone else..i know i am being so selfish but i can't help but wish that he would be mine forever no matter as what..stupid right?

well,don't get me wrong,i and my BB are still going stronger than ever..it's just that like i said the too much time on my hands is the one..

i aint going to lie..there are times i wish so hard that we had an ugly break up..the type that will make us hate each other to the gut so that we don't have to be friends anymore..sometimes it just hurt so much to be post break up friends..haha..but again everything happens for a reason and im glad that until today we still do keep in touch..haha..well i miss him..if you're reading this..i miss You,Meor!:)

well to Hanan,don't get me wrong ok?i'm just saying all this out so that i can get it out of my system..no harm intended..he's all yours k?:)

to BB,thanks for always being so supportive of me and understanding!love ya!:)

well i gtg for now,
i'll try to be back more often,
with love,
karlisyle

call it whatever u want

2009-09-10T10:18:00.005+08:00

hey people,
finally back with a post with some pictures..
well for starters,
i smeelll that today will be a good day ahead..
haha..like how the girl in mean girls can sense rain coming with her boobs..
i know lame attempt of being funny..hahaha..

well haven't been updating my blog because i find that time is racing against me and nothing much in my life..
well.but emotionally i am a wreck..sometimes i wonder why do i often overthink..why can't i just live life and accept it as it is..

been contemplating alot with myself lately..undecided on whether i should apply to UK universities..half hearted applying..deadline's so near already..some great person in my life told me to just apply for just in case if i don't get into anything else..
well,i doubt that i'll get into the UK universities that i am appyling but then one can hope right?
somehow my heart's set on staying in Malaysia for 3 years but then again i want new experiences..maybe i should just jet off to AUs cause it's definitely cheaper for my parents to care for me..
oh,i forgot to mention..if i get a scholarship only will i be going overseas k?(again one can hope right?)..it's not like suddenly my family hit jackpot and i can simply fly off to the other end of the world for fun to study..

well,the 2nd thing i am effing regretting it now that i chose to add another subject for my Alevel..well another influential person in my life told me that i can do it cause i love home studying and independant..haha..sometimes i wonder whether these people know me better than i know myself..ok..since i amde that decision,i guess i just have to stick to it cause im NO quitter!oops..better nt talk or say too loud..

3rd,my love life is facing a turbulence cause of me..i don't know why i have to be the wet blanket in everything i do..i spoil everything i touch..sometimes i really wish i hadn't jump straight into the relationship with Kong after Meor cause it feels like for 5 years now i haven't been single..i find it suffocating and naseuting to me..sometimes i just wanna run away from reality..but there's 2 of us in the game..if i run,there's bound to be 1 of us left there to hurt or worst both..i wanna stay strong and fight..but i guess im tired..i am so sorry b,I THINK U HAVE TO FIGHT FOR IT now..i still Love u so much in ways u can't even imagine..why oh why do i have to be this unappreciative?why do i always take for granted things i have in my life esp the good stuff and people in my life?

i wonder if any of u ever feel this way before..do u ever feel like ur never good enough for anything?well i certainly feel like that now..i beat myself up..it's not like i want to be a perfectionist but i can't help feeling like a sore pathethic loser..i wanna be a better person,girlfriend,daughther,sister,best friend and friend to everyone but everytime it seems like when i try to hardi end up failing miserably..

well before i wrap up,as promise some pictures..(finally!i know:p):

people who never fails to make me happy

psst...not forgetting those of u that have left us to overseas!u guys are an important part in my life too!get ur asses back faster!u know who u are!:)

i just love how make me feel so secure!

reflection of my trueself

p.s despite the emotional vomit i just typed above,i am perfectly fine..i hope..ok i know i will because like some wise person said before:

tough times don't last

but tough people do!

well,hopefully u guys have a good life!:p live a good one cause life's short!enjoy!

luvvv u people..

toodles,

with love,

karlislye lum

bopbop

2009-09-08T18:46:00.003+08:00

hey people,
i am bit in a good mood..
i don't know why though i had a rather unproductive day and the fact that i am not seeing B tonight but yet i am still bopping my head to jay sean feat lil wayne new single-down..haha..
lame i know..
well life's have been a bitch..trip back to kuantan was rather boring..
i want DRAMAS in my life..gah..boring..

well im glad i got to play at GAMBANG waterpark and SUNWAY lagoon..thanks fellas..u know who you are..:p

karma

2009-08-21T14:16:00.002+08:00

hey people,
today have not been what i would like to call ospicious day..
beauty sleep was interupted with the sound of kong's nephew screaming
then later called from mum..
and then fight with the BF...

i think i have lost some sense in me when i decided to throw away the old me..
today i did the 2nd worst mistake in my life..ok maybe 3rd..
1st was forgetting to take bus tickets back to kuantan and that time were rushing back to take spm results the next day..:p
2nd was i left my handphone in nasi kandar kayu,ss2 branch(which i later recovered because they called my mum to inform that they intend to return the hp!:p)
3rd is today..i literally gave the cashier to keep the change of my rm50 after purchasing only rm8 worth of goods unintentionally..

thank God the cashier was an honest guy..when i went back there bout 20 mins later(ya when i was taking out cash to pay for my 17 mag only i realised i didn't take my change),he rememberd me and said that that ya u walk off without ur change..thank god if not i would have lost rm41.40..kaka..

an uneventful day..came to college to settle my scholarship extension..expected it to be done in an hor or two so0 i did not bring any books to revise on..the thing was done in a matter of minutes and now so here i am using the college com lab..

and stupid thing is i can't log on to facebool\k..the url is apparently blocked..idiot!

have another 4 hours to go!haish..

with love,
karlisyle lum

self preservation

2009-08-17T13:29:00.002+08:00

i know no doubt i'll be question for doing what i decided to do..
i know it means i'll be graduating a year later at the age of 24 but i think this is the path i should take..what's a year salary if i have the probality of getting a FULL SCHOLARSHIP for my degree..i know i am taking a really wild chance but hey the provalities are 50% so why not?plus if things work out for me and kong,i'll already save more than a year finding new guys!haha...okay..this is just something to make myself feel better about my decision..

moving on to what's new in my life..hehe..i'll be getting my ass back in kuantan next monday abd will be back by sept1..i need this break seriously plus now that i have another 6months to study a2 and buss so why not..hehe..a week won't kill me..

nothing much except that life's been really good..been hanging out with the same people since i met em..well guess it's difficult to get people that can tolerate the crazy in me..haha..

with love,
karlisyle lum

whisper to me these words

2009-08-12T17:57:00.003+08:00

everything will be fine
all of these will end someday
you'll grow out of it
we belong
im yours forever
everything lasts..

whwn i am most lost,i now know i have you

2009-08-11T13:48:00.005+08:00

enjoy the cute sakais pic by us!;p

hey people,

results are all in on alevel exams..

as for me half the battle is only done..

i still have to face my a2 exams so the battle's begin..

one thing i hate about is the expectations i now face..

Gah..let's just try my best and hope for the best but again i am not going to put high expectations on myself so that i'll be contented with whatever i get..

well,

i really wanna run away from reality again..

somehow i now feel like going to the us for a week of shopping..

when will this dream be fulfilled?

hehe..

"it's funny how much can change in one day"..

but at the end of it i know i can always count on you on being there..:p

with love,

karlisyle lum

colbie cailat-battle

2009-08-07T16:04:00.002+08:00

hey there,

no one has ever made me smile this way
my palms have never sweat this much
i have never felt this way before
i battle with myself everysingle day
i question myself
why did you choose me
why did i choose you
i know someday this might end for us
but i know i was even lucky to have had you in my life
even if all of this ends now,
part of me will always be there with you..:p

waking up in malaysia :p

2009-08-07T15:09:00.002+08:00

hey people,
i have been away..blog's been abandon and i think some people really have given up on me posting..maybe that's why my number or people coming to visit is falling drastically..anyhow i am much more active at twitter so people please do koin twitter and let's all tweet together..hehe..

this is going to be one of those desperate attempt post..i am literally bored to death..had yet another unproductive week..maybe it's the butterflies of getting results this mon that's keeping me in this state of laziness..:p

don't worry,i'll start crash studying soon!:p..well i am pretty much fine and happy..hehe..period's about to end,what's there not to be happy about..oh now u say,trials and exams in the october!well i guess i'll chuck that at the back of my mind for now and remain happy!

"whisper to me in my sleep,
tell me it will all be fine,
kiss me in the cheek before night dawn upon us,
let me have it for the last time,
until time allows us again."

with love,
karlisyle lum

sweet escape

2009-07-29T16:15:00.002+08:00

hey people,
decided to write a whole new post..i really hope that that last post will really be the last of all the pain and emoness in me..
well as i said in the below post,last saturday after dinner,i persuaded my 4other friends and B to drive up to genting cause i need to take a break and KL have been really hot so needed some chilling air..
went up there,reach at 12pm like that..my GOD,all the LALAs were out..as usual all heading to SAFARI..didn't go in because the boys were all wearing shorts..instead we lepak outside of highland hotel..i was the only one damn syok sendiri camwhoring with my 1 bar battery babysony..haha..there was 1 group pic only..

somehow it has been 1 month i kept how i feel about him..i finally told himyesterday night and i hope that things will get better between us..hate to see something so prefect put to waste..:p

and as i was saying at 2am we can back and i slept at 3am..the next day i couldn't breathe..finish 3packets of tissue in an hour..worried people brought me to the doc..he ws almost certain it was H1N1 because i been having it for a week but got worst after the night at genting..kaka but thank God for those sleeping flu drugs he gave me,i feel much better..

me trying to look like an idiot..Kong was on candid though..he didn't want to take pic cause self conscious..

"i'll never forget that public piggyback we had that night.thanks for plastering a smile on my face when i was down"L.o.v.e you

with love,
karlisyle

finally

2009-07-29T15:47:00.003+08:00

hey people,
finally am back after a long long break..however i can't promise if this time i'll be back for long..i have loads of things to deal with..if any of you haven't figure out yet,the last post was super emo because i had a huge fight with miss annabeth but everything's fine right now..:p

well nothing much in my life that i am allowed to talk about here..somehow loads of shit happening but somehow i have turn out to be pretty positive..i guess realising i am 19 after all made me more carefree..am proud of myself..i know in life there have to be people like i was before..the one that take all matters into their hands..

warning:this post might offend some parties,i apologise beforehand!it's justthat i want to pen it down for the last time and lock it out of my heart and mind..
last time i use to be so negative about everything..growing up with 3 sisters was hell(so i swore to myself not to get more that 1 girl as my kid!):pi always question why i have to be the one treated with less care and i can remember mum being so controlling towards me..i had my fair share of bad past with her..daddy was always there and he always told me there's a reason for all the sadness..i was always more independant..i learn to do things by myself..i never depended emotionally on anyone..

i know those endless nights of tears i went through last time,i remember swearing to never forgive you..now i know all your intention of you doing that..
you wanted to make out the best of the person i was
you wanted me to succeed
you wanted me to be strong emotionally and mentally

i never understood and till today there are still times i cry thinking why can't i be the apple of your eye..
But don't worry,i am 19 now..
i know if you were given a chance to have it all over again,you would still chose to treat me that way because today because of that;
-i rarely get homesick
-i become so independant
-i try to be the best in anything i do
-i am like you..strong women..

okay enough of the emoness..somehow out of all these negativity,it brought out the positivity of me..
i am done being the one who plans their life..i am going to live life more carefreely and positive..
i feel so happy..

psst.am going out later to try and find some wall deco for my room
ppst2.you will never believe it!last saturday me and my new found friends drove up to genting to runaway from reality though itwas just a shortwhile..seriously genting is damn near so am going there as my sweet escape ocassionally..

with love,
karlisyle lum

only hope

2009-07-11T13:08:00.004+08:00

hey people,
i sense grievances in the air today..or maybe it's just me..
i hate myself so much sometimes for being who i am..
i remember i asked someone this before..
"Do you think i am such a bad person?"
they answered me,"you can't be that bad because the guys that you dated seem to love you very much as they last long with you"
i told myself that was just a white lie told in hope to plaster a smile on my face..

growing up i didn't had that many people i could turn to
besides my boyfriend and kerryn and annabeth,ju vin,okay they were all the people i had to turn to whenever something happen..
i know that sometimes or maybe most of the time i am a pain in the ass and can be a biatch
but i realised this and i swear i have change
in 2007,i managed to make a whole club against me..
in 2008,i only mange to make 1 person hate me so much and that person now became my goodfriend in college..
in 2009,i have yet to make anyone pissed
i know it's hard to believe i change since the words are coming out from someone who is cynical about people being able to change
but believe me,i changed..
Kong sees it,ker sees it even my dad who sees me once in a while said i changed..

i know i used to live in a life full of hatred and jealousy..
i admit that i haven't fully outgrown it but atleast i have improved..
i am much closer to my jie Kirst now
i learn to accept that i am pretty on my own
i am done walking in the shadow of someone who i keep thinking is better than me when i know i too can be that good..

i know maybe people may still talk about me being that girl from highschool
i'll just let them talk because only dumb people will judge others because of what others think..

a very very good friend of mine once told me that although everyone hated me,she still like me cause she believed that i am a good person from her own judgement..
i know i did a mistake there judging him who is someone important in your life just cause people around me were saying not nice things about him..
i apologosed and here i am again apologising..
i know nothing is ever going to be the same again with us but i am willing to take baby steps again..

psst.See ju vin,thank you so much for understanding me as i am going through this difficult phase..

with love,
toodles,
karlisyle lum

new moon

2009-07-02T08:50:00.002+08:00

back again..
just saw the new moon trailer..
GOD,edward is smoking hot..hehe..
hate bella for being able to be so simple yet so hot..
sudden tinge of emoness..
i remember trying to finish readin the four books..
i disliked the 2nd book out of the bunch cause the story mainly focus on bella's and jake's friendship/r/ship..
so i figured there should be less EDWARD which is a big NO-NO..
anyhow i am a die hard fan so i am still going to watch that damn movie..

anyway before i leave.
listen to
blue foundation-eyes on fire
my most favourite soundtrack from the 1st twilight movie..

toodles,
karlisyle

....

2009-07-02T08:30:00.002+08:00

hey people,
as you can see have been MIA..
loads happen..had fun,had tears..
but i guess watching transformers twice made my week..:p
official announcement:to all u people out there,i am going lesbo just to be with megan Fox!:p
hehe..am so bored with the capital B..so are classes..
new people,new environment,same old boring lectures..
God,i should be studying or sleeping..
the weather is so God damn perfect to snooze but here i am..
studying is not an option for me at this time:p
i miss him..though it's odd for me to say it cause i see him everyday
but i seriously miss him
he have been real busy with his mates the whole week..

the usual:put on weight as i went back to Kuantan..i'm a kg away from being overweight..haha..ok ok i know i exxagerate too much sometimes..
i should just scroll around the webpages until i find something interesting..
God,will i resort to triple x videos out of this boredom?i hope not..
god save me..haha..

with love,
toodles!,
karlisyle lum

bored to death

2009-06-19T11:02:00.003+08:00

hey people,

i am so effin bored..

till i feel like pulling all of my hair out or even scratching out my eyeballs

desperate much?

that's one thing i hate about KL..

we are separated so far,it's so hard to meet up with anyone..

psst.i am so scared i'll be a fat ass living this boring life cause i eat when im bored!gah..die!
psst2.isit just me or american manufactured food are often oversalty or over sweet?the burger king onion rings and krispy kreme donuts sure prove me right!

with heaps of love,
karlisyle lum..

psst3.im going home..soon!

worse things in life

2009-06-18T17:42:00.002+08:00

hey people,
another random posts
i was bloghopping and i went to find ker in her room
she was in tears and i thought it was cause of me..
but thank God,it wasn't me..

for all of you interested.
read annabeth's friend's blog.
memoriesofchocolate.blogspot.com
it's a like a real life love tragic love story novel..

i text beth straight away..
with tears choked in my throat as i read word by word written by her in her blog..
she pen her feelings in the blog
she pen words she wish that he can read from whereever he is now..
and i thought breaking up was pain..

i text beth and i told her that if i were in her shoes,
i would have killed myself believing i'll meet him in afterlife
i know that you are not suppose to take your own life because it's God to decide
but i salute YANA for having so much courage
she even manage to pen her grief through words in her blog
i have never known anyone so strong..

although i don't know both of them,
but yana i hope and i know from afar he is watching you and he is super proud that you are so strong..

death really is an eye-opener
it teaches us not to take anything or anyone for granted
sometimes we always take for granted simple stuff
because we always have the thought of next time
but what if you were given a chance and you took it for granted and not realising that was your one and only chance?

Mum and DAD,
i never been a good daughter..
i know i was one of the toughest to bring up
because i was a handful
being so stubborn all the time and always learning from the hard way
i know both of you love me
sometimes i don't get the way you show me you guys care
but deep down..
i know..
thanks for taking care of me
despite me being so difficult at times..
i love you two too..
though i often find it difficult to express it..

with sadness in the air,
karlisyle lum

time machine

2009-06-18T16:54:00.003+08:00

hey people,
i am so in the mood to blog all of a sudden
maybe cause i am feeling abit down
i know i made her sad and down
because for no reason i am feeling down too!
yes people twins are telepathic..what more us identical twins..
please cheer up k?i am willing to accept anything as long as you are happy..
you will always be my only twin sis and GOD how many people in the world has a twin so no matter how hard it is,i'll learn to accept him as someone important in your life..

okay now moving to the real issue..
if there's one thing i hope is that someday scientists will be able to create a time machine
i know for you all haters out there,no point of a time machine cause it's better to live life for the moment right?

but this is just a random wish..
i had a chat with one of my good friend..
that person told me that as you grow older
you'll find yourself making friends with someone for a reason intentionally or unintentionally..
as i think about it,it is actually true..
even when he was befriending me,he had an intention..
but thank God,we clicked so well,he actually sayang me as a good friend now..

now i understand why some guys seem interested to friend me but half way leave me hanging
after i tell them i have a boyfriend..
i really wish life can be so much simpler like when we were young
back then,we were naive but life was much more fun.,,
i made friends with someone because i want to..
i didn't need a reason to befriend anyone

like what he told me,
when you were little,
your bestfriends could be the one who has the most difference from you
but because you love them unconditionally,you accept them
and there's no reason why you are bestfriends with that person..

that little theory of him seems to be so true
because as far as i check,me and ANNABETH have the most difference but yet we are still best friends and it has been like what?6years?since form1..
even when she steps on my tail and i step on hers,
at the end we find a way to forgive each other or tolerate one another..

it's so different now
growing up everywhere i go,
there's a clique
as long as they think you fit in,you are consider their friends
if not you are just some bitch or asshole that is left friendless..
i remember at one point in my life during f4 i was so damn desperate to be friends with the popular girls till i became a person i hated the most..
a hypocrite..

but thank God,out of that experience,i actually gained true friends
until the day i die,even if i don't keep in touch with you people.
i will remember you people k?
all the people in the pic are some of them..
not forgetting caroline,june,sarmila.michelle anusha,siew fan,terence..

with heaps of L.O.V.E,

karlsiyle lum

came clean

2009-06-18T16:40:00.002+08:00

hey people,
i officially lost my blogging bug because nowadays i am either too busy with the tv or i am glued to my ipod..
sims 3 and jojo fashion show!*i know i am a typical girly girl*but i do miss my DOTA-in time except for the fact i totally forget how to play it already..
if ever*in my dreams*you apple people read this,please please try to get the distribution rights and have DOTA as a game i can play on my ipod!thank you..

i finally had bonding session with her
i told her the truth..
i feel relieved telling her how i really feel about him
but also bad because i left someone sad and hurt

i been lying to people faces for the past year because i was avoiding hurting people
but i am done lying
the truth will come out
even if you want me to tell a lil white lie in order to make someone happy,i am not going to do it anymore
i am frank this is who i am..
i'll learn to tell what i should and not
so next time unless you want the truth,don't come running asking me questions..

to her*u know who you are*,
you love him and i can see the happiness he is capable of giving you,
go ahead and be with him forever if that makes you happy
i'll learn to accept him
i know that i am mean spirited at times
but believe me as long as you are happy,
i am fine with it..
i am sorry that i made you sad for tellin g you the truth
but here's a soory note to you
and i am 100% ok with you being with him if you believe he's the 1...

people constantly question me
why am i so mean spirited
well apart from the fact of me not being a physcology student,
i believe that every1 behaves the way they do for a reason..

mine is because i am defensive over myself and the people i love
i say things i don't mean just to show people i am stronger than em
i may seem so strong and will powered on the outside but the truth is inside,
i am weak and i break down easily..
there i said it..with no regrets..

i been misunderstood simply too many times
that i couldn't care less anymore because in the midst of the mess,i finally saw who are my true friends..
thank you to you people who stood by me
God,i miss you guys!

with heaps of love,
karlisyle lum

hush hush

2009-06-12T09:04:00.002+08:00

hey people,
i am finally half way through with my alevels..somehow it doesn't seem as exciting as i expected..haha..maybe cause every1 else is either busy or gone..
anyhow i been watching the volume 3 of gossip girl 2nd season..ya the finale chapters
i personally hate the ending and i hope there is going to be gossip girl II..i am so not happy that my favourite couple did not end up together..
i am not gonna burst the bubble for those of you who haven't watch it..

psst.i really miss you people..can't wait to get back to Kuantan

with love,
karlisyle lum

sadistic

2009-06-03T15:33:00.002+08:00

hey people,
have been real moody for this past couple of weeks..
exam stresses i blame..
anyhow 4 papers down 2 more to go..
finally freedom here i come..
byw beth yes annabeth is coming for a day to kl on the 6 of june
anyone interested in meeting up with her and of course with the rest of us too,please reach me through my cell..

stop telling me all this lies
i know what's the truth
i am no longer your puppet for you to toy around
cut me loose and give me my space
let me determine my own life and let me the person i am happiest to be
just get out of my life

stop telling me you will be there for me when all you gonna do is leave without a word at the end
i know you..cause i am human like u
humans are liars
stop deceiving me with all the sweet words
give me the truth straight to my face..

with love,
karlisyle lum

to the both of us

2009-05-28T11:23:00.014+08:00

hey people,
this is how i am going to share with you guys how i celebrated my birthday..i had a awesome one this year..*thanks to B!*

event:cupcakes(birthday song)
location:B's room
theme:pyjamas

EVENT:my 19th birthday

location:Fullhouse restaurant at ara damansara

theme:pretty and white(korean based restaurant)

Event:Elson(Kong's super adorable nephew) 1st birthday

theme:ELMO

location:Hometown kopitiam

the party pack included photo frame containing pictures of the guests with retro or lame happy birthday sunglasses..i found them rather adorable and interesting..something fresh..

me and B in the super cute sunglasses

shameless camwhore!;p

with love,

karlisyle lum

be with you

2009-05-26T12:17:00.002+08:00

hey people,
finally have a break of 1 week before the next paper..manage to compose myself yesterday..despite the fact that i was faced with tough questions but i manage to held my composure and did my best*hopefully*well i am not terryfyingly confident but it should be ok..

anyhow the title is as such because i am not sure if you guys have the same opinion with me..but i don't usually like mandarin wannabe songs that are half sang in chinese and half in mandarin..but this 1 particular song really draw my attention..wilber pan feat Akon-be with you..

anyhow..yaeh finally 3 papers down 3 more to go!

can't wait till i'll be a year older tomorrow..19..haha..culup tua!wakaka..another quiet year of celebration where it'll just be me and him..kinda pathethic huh but well i guess everyone's pretty busy with exams..

p.s he said he has suprises for me..can't wait..

with love,
karlisyle lum

the three letter word

2009-05-15T12:45:00.002+08:00

hey people,
okay so far what i did today:
1.woke up effing early and get my ass to college for exam
2.Had terrible stomach ache due to exam stress..
3.didn't even want to finish a piece of bread cause i was really scared(but i had to to write 3 essays)
4.ended up only finishing 1 essay.
5.embarassed myself in the lrt by having teary puff eyes.

okay it all started like this..i felt pretty confident and prepared..come on i even studied the effing criminal topics..
so everything went well then boom i saw the stupid tribunal question but i had to choose 3 so no choice..i didn't want to do Human rights nor Law reform..
i write 3 and a half pages for common law and equity..studied it like a bible because i was so sure in my gut it will one of the questions..tribunal i only manage to cover the intro and 3points then hang..i panic..(1st time i actually froze when i was writting!nothing came into my mind!)

the saddest wwas the last question..i knew it in my heart all the points..after i was done with the intro,mr Sara announced you have your last five mins..adrenaline rush to my head and i told myself to just write all the facts that i know in point form..started going back to the 2nd and 3rd essay scribbling all the points i know..
dead:no conclusion..

so they took the paper away from me and i happily told Kavitha i think i can get a B or a C and she told me hers a C or D cause she didn't finish 1 essay..then i was like wth?! she straight forwardly (thanks for your honesty ya!)tell me i should expect the worst cause i didn't finish two frigging essay then only reality hit me and i started to think back..God,i need at least 16 marks for each essay for a B..knowing that i didn't finish means definitely i can only get a max of 11 each essay cause of poor presentation..

so i went up to the 4th floor to find siew fan..yup got separated from my good friend..i went on and on bout 30 mins bout how i did not manage to finish the essays..she was in disbelieve and shocked..i guess everyone was..haish even myself until now still think it's a dream..

i am so dissapointed in myself for dissapointing so many people..
guess i just have to move on and try my best for accounts and econs!
maybe law just isn't my forte..

psst.i really need strength and support from u guys..i never felt so dumb and i really feel that i have fallen to the bottom pit..
with love,
karlisyle lum

this is why

2009-05-08T14:36:00.002+08:00

hey people,
today has been okay..hopefully it will be an even more evntful day once i get my ass to one u..need to go Clinique and get another product as my blackheads has only reduced alil in this 2months..*stubborn blackheads*

so okay..people always asked me why i don't read the newspaper..apparently in college i appear to be like a bimbo because i sometimes appear to be living until a nutshell..well i admit that i don't read much of the newspaper last time mainly cause i hate the smell of the cheap paper and how your fingers get black..other than that,the size of the newspaper is rather huge i would say..so it is not convenient to read it inside of the public transports unless you wanna get some lizard sound from the people sitting around you..you know the sound that goes Ccicck..haha..compare my favourite reader's digest which is rather small and compatible..yey i do read alot ok!

so today's newspaper..the metro section..if you guys read it and those who haven't,the DBKL apparently wants to clear out all foreign workers in Chinatown..situated near my college..it seems that the only Chinatown that is is MALAYSIA apart from the other chinatown in the world,we are the only country who has the highestnumber of foreign workers..well first of all what i feel is DBKL is taking an overly drastic action here..if any of you ever step into petaling street,you will notice there are like 3foreign workers per shop..so the DBKL actions,this would mean higher rate of unemployment of f.workers in malaysia..

did they ever thought of the social consequences of their action?the number of crimes will soar as desperation has been proven to push someone off their limits..who knows that maybe the cases of snatch thieves will be even be more gruesome after this..God,what is MALAYSIA going to become of?

anyhow,i just wanted to pen off my frustration here..i know you are thinking who the hell i am to judge but somehow i don't think this is an appropriate solution for this matter..in order to solve this problem is find the root and take one step at a time..rushing into solutions has never done anyone good..

with love,
karlisyle lum

a dose of this and that

2009-05-07T14:52:00.003+08:00

hey people,
God,i just wish that i can continue my streak of positivity on this blog..
welll,i am upset with myself..
yet another unproductive day..
exams in a week time and somehow reality hasn't hit me yet...
i am suppose to be burning the midnight candle instead i am blowing the midnight candle off..

read carol's blog and she said that she feels uncertain about what to do next..
well i can relate to her..i am totally lost once again at deciding the next path of my future
well part of me wants to do accounting but part of me seriously think it's time i do something more relaxing and ME..

i really feel like just not showing up for my alevels exam and start taking up diploma courses..
this is what happens when i overestimate my abilty to study..
i thought i would be smart enough for alevels but i guessed wrong..

anyhow my condolences to miss beth on her GUESS watch..
*don't worry i am sure a new one is on its way!*:p
thursday's usually my favourite day but i guess wrong AGAIN..

anyhow
i am still staying positive..
i hope that in a year's time,it will all be clear to me..
to all victims of the may/june 09 cambridge alevel exams,break a leg or whatever they say that means all the best!

TOODLES!*

with love,

karlisyle lum

the time has come

2009-05-05T15:11:00.003+08:00

hey people,

warning:emo post up ahead...don't say i didn't warn you..

well i am pretty F***ed up right now..spent the whole of last week studying LAW LAW and more LAW..didn't even touch the books for econs or ACCOUNTS
the main reason is because law is the 1st paper and i have like a week interval between my econs and accounts..

somehow something inside of me is eating me up today..feel abit down..maybe it's that time of the month but i am not sure..i been reading the law facts but sadly none of it seems to stay inside..i don't know how to answer qustions relating to the topics i have read..it's effing annoying..i wish i could have turn back time and chosen something easier..aaargh..

anyhow,
that's all..
got to get my ass back to work..
toodles,
karlisyle lum

take a step back

2009-05-04T12:14:00.002+08:00

hey people,
been trying to stay positive nowadays and it seems to be working a lil..
well i have all this things in my mind..
just cross pathing with one another..
exams in 2 weeks..at least half of it..AS level..
well i am pretty darn stressed up about it..
i was asking myself..am i studying so hard for my self-satusfaction or is it for the sake of me getting a scohlarship..
i know it's sad but i knew the answer was B..it wasn't for my self-satisfaction..
for me,i always thought as long as i put in all my effort and tried my best,i am satisfied..
for eg,when i got my SPM results,i was satisfy with myself because i knew i did my best and not push myself to an extreme to get those results..
but i was dissapointed when i knew i could not apply for most scolarships due to the fact i was short of an a1..
somehow until today i told myself never to push myself to sleepless nights,migrains or even mental exhaustion just for an A to be printed on the exam results slip..
i rememember someone told me that the A doesn't matter but rather the effort.

i really wish Malaysian parents can see past all this and not pressure their kids for an A..
unless the kids are doing it for self-satisfaction then let em be..

well got nothing much to scribble anymore except for the fact that i am going to try my best and see how it goes..

psst.just can't wait to move on to the next chapter of my life..UNI..

with love,
karlisyle lum!

another pinky baby to my addition!

2009-05-04T11:28:00.002+08:00

hey people,
had one hell of a weekend this week...
did not manage to hit the books as i plan but it was all worth it..
spend loads time with the 'rents while they were here..didn't get to spend much with Bb THOUGH cause his parents were also here..

well nothing much in my life has change..except for the newest baby pinky to my pink family!yes..thanks mum for buying it for me 1st..i'll pay u back..
yes,my parents for one are not the type that pampers me terus2 and buy the camera for me..somehow it's better this way..they teach us to earn things we want ourselves..

so i am a lil spoilt but i still know the fine qualities of life..
speaking of that,when is the SABS prom?
and why isn't anyone blogging about it?hello,advertising skills mana?well if any of you need any help,i'll be more that happy to blog about it..*not in any way implying that i have a famoublog that can reach out to many people but atleast it's the thought kan?*

exams in 2 weeks
HIM in 7weeks..:p
birthday in 23 days..yes beffie and Ju vin 27th MAY...u heard me!:p

i miss all of my KUANTAN friends especially those who are abroad..Caroline,le june and...the list will be longer soon..
well ANNABETH LEE,bila nak datang?my hunger for LOP needs to be satisfied and Bb is only willing to drive there when u get ur ass here!:p

baby pinkysony!
psst.pray for my exams!thanks dady for that talk u had with me when u were here last weekend..i'll try my best and see how it goes!

until then,
toodles,
with love,
karlisyle lum

come back to me

2009-04-28T13:38:00.002+08:00

hey people,
been really drifted from my goals..
i wanna lose weight but i did not manage..
i wanna study but somehow it feels that the spirit of working hard have left me..
i hate being push to do something i don't want to..

with love,
toodles..
karlisyle lum

psst.X-men:The Origins is out tomorrow!:p..can't wait ponder upon Wolverine!aargh..Hugh jackman is such a hottie!

yet another 27th baby

2009-04-28T12:58:00.006+08:00

250409-the day we went and celebrate her birthday..(2days befor her birthday,270409)
i had been hanging out with them..every week since i came back from Genting with them..somehow i have not much pictures to post up here everytime we are out because they are not that comfortable with the thought of having their pictures up on my blog..

anyhow here goes another picture post:

couples of the night:
Gan and Cindy..seriously the best boyfriend award goes to Gan..:p

me and B..i am looking a lil pale these days everysince i been using Clinique..even B said i definitely have to start using make up..any tips people?it's rather sad that my sifu carol has gone so far:p..anyhow Ju and beth teach me ya?:)

anither QAWAII picture of me..u be the judge me or Hong Lung cuter?:p

let me bite you!aaarh...

peekaboo..stealing the limelight from me..

'Hong Lung' has become the newest addition to my toys family..B won it for me when we were playing some luck games..

psst.don't ask me why his name is like that because it was the sakais that name him..

upclose view of the very pretty cupcakes..

credits to wondermilk..
aren't they pretty?

the whole 36 pieces of cupcakes

Chan up to his tricks again..my thoughts were alil misleaded seeing the design of that cupcake..:p

me and B with the pretty flower cupcake..don't ask me why our eyes are swollen..:x..

cindy the bday girl with her 'birthday cake'

her exhausted face trying to blow out the last candle..

psst2.we actually played a trick on her..we bought the type of candles that rekindles once u blow it out..she spent almost 10mins trying to blow out the candles..God you don't even have to imagine how wet the cupcakes were..:p

psst3.i have the video of her trying to blow it out as proof!

the two sick people having their pleasures met seeing poor cindy trying so hard blowing out the candles...

the other photographer..Kuantan boy too..his phone has plenty of stupid videos..

he claims that the birthday girl needs to get smudge by the cream..

his poor attempt on doing it..
psst3.he manage to smudge but just a small part..guess he was worried of making her piss..she wipe it off to quickly i couldn't steal a pic..

her sucessful attempt of revenge!

the lady of the night with her Man BY her side!

happy 19th belated birthday,Cindy!

with love,

karlisyle lum

2009-04-24T08:42:00.002+08:00

hey people,
finally it's the weekend
lots of things were told to me and some really shocked me but this how the diversity of life is..
we all play a diffrent part in life and that's what makes life so special..
well got not much to say..
gtg do my bail and sentencing notes before going for accounts..
this pretty sums up my mood..

Do You Remember-Aaron Carter
You ask me do I love you
butDo you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered whyI gave three wishes to you
You asked a question
But the answer liesIn you,
Remember we used to laugh and
sayNo one understood our way
And there were times
When you would cryand come knockingOn my door ,
I was thereTo shelter your pain..

with love,
karlisyle lum

the truth

2009-04-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

things will never remain the same forever
the feelings we share will not last
the life we build together will change
the memories will fade
the good times will vanish
the bad times will kick in every now and then

life's good now
i have been told love is not forever
after a certain stage everything will just turn into responsiblity

despite being told or warned
heck life's more than that so i will just kindly learn it my way..
no matter what even if the flame of our love fades
i know one thing is for sure,i am gonna be my ur side until the end of time:p

with love,
karlisyle lum

time will tell

2009-04-23T12:27:00.003+08:00

hey people,
another unproductive day..
i am just lazing my ass moping around the house
somehow everytime the exam stress gets to me,i'll end up becomind lazier than usual..

enough of that..
i am somehow glad that i am starting to be my oldself again..
the happy talkative me..
i just realise life is too short for me to mop around
i'll open my eyes and see the beauty of life..

to my parents:
i really am trying my best for this war..
even ker says i study very hard at home..
so whatever results shall be showered upon me please accept!
i'll do my best and leave the rest to God!:p

psst:only time will tell when we can be finally be together again...8weeks..i'll wait :p
psst2:somebody with the name Kar is having her birthday up pretty soon!save up people!:p
psst3:miss ANNABETH ,can't wait till u get that ass of urs to KL!

with love,
karlisyle lum

take my breath away

2009-04-21T10:00:00.003+08:00

hey people,
been out the wholeof last week..
didn't manage to study much but i had loads of FUN..
i am seriously missing the good times and also bad akward times..
but i really miss my B..
8weeks till we will be together again..
2weeks++ till my AS Level exam!

went to look out point..one of the many good points of having young adventorous friends..they will take me anywhere as long as i just name it..

next stop:SUNWAY lagoon and paintball!

p.s:can't wait till June 20th is over..then finally KUANTAN here i come!

with love,
karlisyle..

will be MIA too!

i wish time would stop

2009-04-16T16:07:00.007+08:00

hey people,

as you can see i am taking full advantage on the rm4 minxx is about to pay the CC fella..

Mom,i know u are reading this don't worry i studied alot this morning..for 4 hours!i promise..

psst:i am actually feeling a lil guilty hanging out too often with these sakais :p but what to do they make me happy..so i decided i must learn how to balance my time..as i staed in FB i wanna enjoy every minute of the day and not only study

heck speaking of study i just checked i am suppose to get like 25/30 at least for paper 1 econs to get an A!wTf?!seriously i think i done 4 to 5 past year questions and most of the time i only manage to get 23 or 24 /30..wth kan?guess the CAMBRIDGE styles just damn diff..last time u get paper1 20 or 18 but paper 2 get damn high sure A but not according to Cambridge..*it's times like this i really ask myself what did i got myself into!*

anyhow i was super excited to blog about my genting trip last 2weeks but somehow the internet connection got to me first and pissed the hell out of me so i have not much to narrate except that i had the best 3 days for this past year..2008 hasn't exactly been much of a favourite year..u notice?

the main thing i learn this time..is too never judge anyone too early..somehow i hurt minxx a lil in the beginning giving all sorts of hurtful reasons to excuse myself..in the beginning i made myself believe that we are of different level of maturity..cause truthfully normally they are not the type of people i'll hang out with..they talk loud and rudely not caring about what others think of them..so hell yeah i was wrong to judge the book by its cover..i apologise sincerely..they might turn up to be abit rough and the bad words they taught me*u don't even wanna go there* but at the end they are still nice people and super care-free!

psst2: sometimes i am glad i am not the master of all trades but merely the jack of all trades so that i'll always room for improvement..life's is all about learning new things so i guess when you are a Noob like me,u actually enjoy life more..jeles not?;p

up next are the piCCAS:

1.me and my B!

2.THE COUPLES(ME AND b,GAN and Cindy) for the antique car ride
3.effects of swinger on me and jOhn and go kart
4.group pics

the people in the pic:jia he,Ah chan,me,B

back row:John,ah kit,gan and cindy

energizer battery wannabes

with love,

karlisyle lum

sweet memories

2009-04-13T19:45:00.011+08:00

hey people or should i say WOIT!

yup that's my newest way to greet people that i am close too..

well you can see through my desperation of just getting this effing pictures up my blog till i have lost all my mood to actly narrate it...

yes i follow B,AH chan,Gan,John and ah Kit to the CC..they are practically high on the game "Left4Dead"..what can i say..cheap ectasy...

well it's times like this i really wish i was back home where everthing is quiet...but i guess i just have to bare with it because next week i'll be alone..no more B..

SOMETIMES i still secretly wish that he doesn't have to go...

well i'll leave you hungry picture people for now..talk to it eh?

1.group picture

from left to right:Money,kimberly,jane,terence,genise,ash,siew fan

the sitting ass-es:yin thong,and KARLISYLE:p
2.the romeos for that day..apparently one of them went out for a while to have a puff but instead he gotmore than he wanted..effing lucky guy!:p
3.yin thong,kimberly and money and I
4.Poyo poser!:pmiss u la ngok!
5.taikar jie jane and I...
6.two hotties:p

7.another pair of hotties:p

8.stupid drink made my tongue effin blue!retarded looking karlisyle
9.Genise and me~

10.me and FAN..siew fan..one of my closest friend in college..shopping no1 like me!:p

finnally it's here..

enjoy it,

with love,

karlisyle lum

titleless

2009-04-13T08:55:00.002+08:00

i left my laptop at min's so i guess there still won't be any updates soon..
internet connection at his place is terrible..
now i am using one of the sis's lappy..

anyhow so sorry but i'll upload loads pics soon!

APRIL the second

2009-04-02T09:33:00.003+08:00

God isit just me or isit the same for everyone else?
i feel like there's isn't enough hours of the day..
time's really flying high and leaving me behind..
it's like a speed marathon which obviously my short legs can't catch up..

i just finish packing my stuff for Genting trip..
Hopefully i can find a bunch of camwhorers to camwhore with..

aargh speaking of camwhoring,i am super sorry terence..
i am pretty sure plans this weekend won't jadi..*somehow i have a hunch*
i forgot to mention in the last post..
i went ICE skating for the first time*if you call hooking on the wall allthe time skating* with the brood..
ya the brood now has expanded..adding a new member that is Voon hui sen..
unfortunately Kor and Jie couldn't be there..
anyhow my B hated it after going into the rink one time
so i played with KAT..not really also cause i keep pushing her*damn mean la me but i kiasu!*;p
so i had fun..seriously i am up for it again..anyone who knows how to ice skate ask me out k?
wanna learn somemore instead of just depending on the wall..

didn't camwhore in the ice rink cause my hands were pretty occupied on the ice rink ends..hehe
anyhow i am so determine to study today before going the management to settle bills
so i better leave here now!

p.s:i pranked kerryn and min yesterday!haha..they really bought the lie..
i almost got prank by a friend who told me she was pregnant!thanks God i remember it's april fool!:p
with love,
karlisyle lum

APRIL the first

2009-04-01T13:57:00.002+08:00

hey peeps,
again i am not suppose to be here
but after studying a chapter of accounting
i was bored to hell..

well
just a short post
i have not been in touch with many of my freinds after i left SABS..
i was never one of those that is good in expressing my care towards others

i just found out lots my peeps keep in touch with me through this blog
some of you guys reading this never let it known to me that you guys actually read..
please do tell me
so that i can link you guys and blog hop..

let me make a change and be a better freind before it's too late aite?

with love,
karlisyle lum

NEW york Deli with a guy name terence!!

2009-03-31T18:17:00.010+08:00

i used to love pic post..those caption blogs but now i hate doing it..
anyhow i am going to jump to the point..

to be truthful,i have stop studying this 2weeks..
i keep questioning myself..do i really want to be one of those that end up doing nothing i like in my life?
mum didn't choose to be a teacher..she had no choice because she was poor..but she ended up loving her job..
dad didn't had a chance to further his education as yeh yeh passed away too soon and he had to take our the responsiblity and work for the family..

will i want to end up being stuck doing something i don't like?or should i take the risk and chance like daddy and mum and just wait till i start enjoying the job?
or a job is just a job?
i have to admit that just telling people that your plans are accountancy,people are immediately impressed by you..

i read blogs by blogs..i see people fail and struggle just to study something that can bring pride and a big fat cheque home..

what's the point really?shouldn't we be given a decision to do what we want to?
my parents are one of those parents where we are allowed to choose our own career path as oppossed to some parents that force their kids to study something they can't even manage to pass..

jie chose fashion marketing..ker chose early childhood...

what do i really want?i can't decide but what i want is something fresh and exiciting..i don't want to be stuck in a dead end job with no leeways..
i guess i still have months to think..i shall just make the best out of my alevels..*positive*

pictures at new york deli with him name terence..i am gonna miss you so much..remember never forget me!:p

both of us ordered the same dish.

me waiting for him at zero hour..he was trying on a top..

his shaolin head!:p..gonna miss those lame times we have and of course our heart to heart conversations..;p

take care ya!enjoy that GG life while you can!always stay positive and i want free flights!hehe

ratings:

terence:super yummy..haha;p

Food:better than the gardens..

deco:gives you the laidback kind of environment..good for old pals to sit and catch up!

with love,

karlisyle lum

life goes on...

2009-03-31T17:15:00.012+08:00

Life moves on..be it a death of someone close,the departure of your loved ones,the final

point of one's life as a student..

life has to move on whether we like it or not.it leaves us no choice but to be strong.Even how hard we pray that for one second,the clock will stop it never will.Life pushes us to be strong as quoted"what doesn't kill you only make you stronger."

i was contemplating with myself whether i should post this because the timing doesn't seem right but i don't have any other time to do it and i know from where he is watching,he would understand.

as promised by me,i shall begin the post of Kirst's graduation..Congratulations again.now i shall leave the rest to the pictures doing the talking as pictures potrays thousand or even millions of words.

1.me and the main person of the night..LOVE how the colours of our dresses contrast..the dark angel and the devil...

2.me and the pretty princess..she was as usual texting her 'baobei'.

3.princess waiting in her carriage..(look how plain i look w/o makeup compared to the both hotties)

4.please just tell a white lie and say my dress looks GG inspired..:p

5.the stage..all the graduates had to walk down the runway to receive their graduation cert.damn chun ler!compared to the normal square stage!life in the fab lane..

6.still don't think it's pretty on me and GG inspired?then just telll a big fat lie for once in your life k?hehe:P

7.my most favourite design..there was a competition for best design and this is my favourite..very modern..

the pumpkin one won under the architatural design*spelling mistake*

the other two pics were up against each other for the fashion marketing prize.the yellow banana 1 won..group of hotties..the pink pretty one unfortunately only had one hottie:p slap me i am a bitch..sue me..

some more pics..

p.s i didn't take much pictures..you can keep an eye on ker's blog..she might have more than me..i was too busy eating the food*the very delicious pastries!*

p.s2the fashion show rocks..super love it..might try to go again for the fashion show next year for exposure..

with love,

take this and enjoy.

until then,

i shall try to enjoy myself in genting with a group of hunks

karlisyle lum

Rest in Peace,rashid hidayat!

2009-03-30T13:47:00.004+08:00

death's overrated i believe..
or isit not?
isit just something i want myself to believe?

28th march..a day where so many things were happening all over the world..
60 hour earth day..
people celebrating their love
new life coming to earth..
death..

the death of a guy i once knew
though we weren't that close
but somehow i knew him
i keep trying to remember the times i used to have with him
there are a bit of a blur because it's been a long time since i spent any time with him..

though our time was short,i'll always remember being the person you were to me
the cheeky,funny,lame and clown of the class
i still remember that face of yours..
behind those cheeky smiles of yours there was mystery in u..
u never let anyone dig that deep into your life..

eventhough God has decided to take you away from us
i know that he has a plan..

inilah suratan takdir Tuhan
kita sebagai hamba Nya hanya mampu menuruti

with love,
karlisyle lum

p.s Rest in peace,mohd rashid..

p.s2:it's not fair but there's nothing that can be done..
may God bless your soul..
you are dearly missed and love!

another pic-post

2009-03-25T13:37:00.005+08:00

hey people,
have a happy aftternoon!yesterday i was bit moody..the reason was because i was possessed by an angry ghost..i know crappy reason..i can't help but give you crappy answers if you ask me crappy questions..i didn't choose to be this moody..it just so happens that i have more hormones that makes me pissed all the time..don't ask me..for one i am not the one with the science brains..

been busy the past couple of days..been going out with jie,kirst..rather shocking for some people..but yes we went out..credits to her for taking me to bangsar to shop..i heartxx theclothes there..i got me a GG inspired dress there which i'll be wearing tomorrow for her graduation..

makes me think time really flies..first is her to graduate then ker,then kong..wow..we are all growing up so fast but like beth said this are supposed to be the best age of our life..

well i am going to move on with the pictures now as words are restricted to my lips at this very moment..

p.s:i miss him..

the shopping stuff i got..spent rm400 worth of stuff for two days..

these is a fast food joint which apparently is quite well known in the us but not here..there is only 1 franchise in malaysia if i am not mistaken..in taman tun area..snopp dogg mention about this fast food place in his reality series before..it's good..i mean it is as good as KFC for me..i heartss the salty biscuit they serve..

two below:our main dishes(fish and chips&chicken frittles)

two above:drinks(soda green apple and passion fruit& our appetizer..mango chic salad)

the deco of the place is so pretty..anyone who is rich..book these whole place to celebrate any occassion with your loved ones..it is worth it.the deco is very very pretty and not forgetting the smooth chilling songs played by the piaonist there..

food:7.5/10

deco:9/10

waiters:8.5/10

the only thing they need to change is the location but since there are already there then just beat it..it's near an escalator thus less privacy..the food is mild tasting thus not everyone will particularly like it..

p.s:will update soon with graduation pics!

p.s2:need to start hitting the books again!

with love,

karlisyle lum

mood:naesous

2009-03-21T12:21:00.003+08:00

hey people,
am suppose to be going for the econs exam but i decided not to..
yesterday paper 2 accounts was rather okay because i did the whole past year questions and apparently my dear teacher took the whole may june paper so when i was doing it,i felt like a cheater..so what is the whole point of going anyway...

that is why i didn't go for economics..apparently many people did not go for mocks either..the parents think i am screwing up my future but i'll shoe em when i flaunt my real results that time..muahahaha..being lame..anyhow it is so not me for skipping exams but i so do not want to go through the guilt i went through yesterday..i'll study myself..don't worry too much..

been down with the viral flu for almost 4 weeks now..i really need an expert to check me..went to the doc twice and the nose is still running..the parents will be coming this wednesday midnight and i can definitely count on the antipication of getting screwed by em for skipping the exam..but i know what i am doing and believe me i will not screw up my future..i have envisions big plans in my life aite...

with love,
gtg now as i am having the migrain again..
toodles,
karlisyle lum

you're still you

2009-03-19T08:58:00.002+08:00

hey morning people,
i am up so early to get my ass to work on accounts and economics but sad for me again i don't feel like studying.,it feels like i already screwed up paper1 so what's the point..

anyhow this is going to be a short post cause i want to play the yahoo game..sally's spa..
girls should try it..i'm so gonna aski minx to download the DOTA in my laptop for me..i know lapuk!

yesterday jie met with an accident..seriously i was shock at first but after that when all feelings are settled.i realise i'm worried for her so i text her(since she was in the police station lodging a report),whether eveything's fine and whether she need to go for a check up..sadly no repplies..

anyhow it was yesterday i knew despite all the grudges and jealousy i have in her,i still sayand her as my eldest sis..
p.s:i know u are reading this,pease drive carefully and try to hiit a non ah beng car..hehe joking..have fun in aussie for weeks..

p.s2:jie's graduation next thursday..what to wear?aargh..

with love,
karlisyle lum

God,help me

2009-03-17T21:41:00.003+08:00

can you tell me a secret place where there will only be me and only me?
can you give me a place where i can be more ignorant?
can you show me who truly loves me?
can you show me the plan of my life?
can you please please just tell me what is my purpose in this life..

i admit i am out of ways in searching the answers above..

hurting

2009-03-17T21:09:00.002+08:00

hey people

got back home just now from ikano and tesco with my twin sis..i love spending bonding time with her though at times i feel like i am the bis sis babysitting her..

but when it comes to me driving,u should see the look on her face..when she is driving,me pulak willl have on the stupid face..

i don't know why when everytime she tells me she has a bf,i'll get pretty upset..sometimes i feel so selfish that i just want her for myself..despite all the disagreements we constantly have or in fact how college have drifted us,i still have this twin bond that i share with her..

let's skip to the main topic..somehow i hope you are reading this..i am so tired of being misunderstood..i always overhear the hurtful things they say..doesn't mean they don't see doesn't mean i didn't do..i am always trying my best to keep the place clean..the main reason my synus got worse in KL is because i am constantly around dust..in college,in lrt,in the bus and the worse is at home..

i am not in any way insulting or trying to bring down any reputation but enough is enough..i had enough of this shit..i tried being patient and be the only sakai doing the cleaning but if they don't maintain it,the place will eventually be fucking dirty again..then what is the whole fucking point of me cleaning it every week..

nowadays i find myself praying that i will get to Nottingham next year so that i don't have to face with this shit anymore..

i know i am not perfect also...myplace is messed up with books but try looking at the clearer view..i try my best..that is just what i want..even if you guys don't want to clean,i'll do it..just maintain it..

biggest lesson learnt here in my life is to never never effing pamper your kids..we are so blessed to be bless with a maid since infancy till adoloscence...

i feel so stupid crying in front the laptop just cause the place can never be clean...so fucking dumb of me..i wanna be strong but sometimes enough is enough..i try my best keeping the place all u guys need is just maintain it..please..i beg you on my knees..

it's funny how people who are rather closely knitted to you end up not understanding your needs the most..i freaking live on hand sanitizers so you can imagine how hygienic freak i am..i just want a cleaner environment..go ahead and be messy all you want..just don't be dirty..

God,sorry for the cursings..thanks for cherishing me with all the patience i more than i ever could have for this past year..i am already misunderstood so heck it,let it be clear how i feel...thanks for being the only one who truly understands and never judging me..

p.sthis time it is not exam stresses..if anyone gets offended this time,i don't care..if i am the problem,i'll leave..but clearly all i want and am asking for is not something impossible..

i know how much she will defend her but this time,it's enough..i am not taking any more of this...laugh all you want at this dumb girl weeping in front of her laptop wanting a better environment..

p.s2 i still love you guys and my intentions are sincerely good..talk bad how much you want about how messy and dirty i am but at least i try my best..if it's not enough,it's Not up to us anymore..i am not in anyway implying any of you having bad characteristics as i know you guys have more work than me but at least work with me and maintain it...

with love,
only God can understand the sadness and disapointment in me,
karlisyle lum

p.s3..it doesn't help as the same spot where i previously performed the corn operation starting to have side effects and it is hurting me..-

beats

2009-03-17T15:27:00.003+08:00

hey there people,
in the mood to sleep but since my dear sis said i like to FFK i have to prove her wrong..i'll go to tesco Mutiara damansara and ikano with her..sambil itu i can go vincci..yey!

well don't have exams tomorrow and thursday..i screwed up my paper 1 accounts..beats to be overconfident..haish..i thought i could score at least 24/30..

anyhow the past is the past,i'll do better..i'll stop complaining..

carol,i am going to miss u..time really flies..
one by one they are leaving my life..
i can only count till they are all gone..

p.s can't wait for exams to be over..

the confession of a shopaholic anyone?i read the novel ard and it's effing good...let's not hope that the movie sucks..credits to kirst for introducing the book to me when i was 15?

with love,
karlisyle lum

why am i here

2009-03-11T12:57:00.005+08:00

don't mind the crappy editing..but i am kinda in a hurry..need to satrt getting my ass to studying..realise my pictures look the same and are taken from the same angle only..another thing i need to work on..the pictures are in the events of my beloved daddy 54th bday..

this picture was taken when i went to be a lamp post in sungai wang with my sis and hui sen..ate at sushi station..food sucks and the place has cockroach running around..aargh..yuck...but see how cute the sushi's go around the tables..with trains..inspired by our very own KTM..

i should be off studying my ass off but i am here instead.i really don't feel like studying..although mock is just 4days away?anyhow i don't even wanna go there..felt piss this morning cause i have to clean the condo..haish..

anyhow i'll just let u enjoy the pics above there...toodles..

with love,

karlisyle lum

dang

2009-03-04T15:23:00.002+08:00

i am suppose to be studying but i just can't focus..just got back from the doc an hour ago.the stupid medicine's making me drozy but i don't wanna sleep cause tonight i'll not be able to sleep and i have to wake up early for class tomorrow.aargh..i wish somehow i can be ignorant about my studies.i keep thinking about finishing my God damn AS syllabus.Sorry for using your name again in vain.

i miss him..really alot..yesterday he told me a friend of his girlfriend can communicate very well with their group of friends and she hangs out alot with them too.okay b listen here,it's not that i am anti social or choosy with friends but how the hell am i to communicate with them?they prefer speaking chinese which is not my fault.i want to be able to be as sociable as her with your friends but then see again the circumstances.i still Love you and wish you don't put pressure on me..i am really doing my best.your friends are nice lads and i really don't mind hanging out with their lameness.

i feel really sick..in my head..i feel like crying which is so stupid cause i am not angry..i wanna be more ignorant about what others say..it's the only way to live life happily..i wanna be my old self..the loud me..the one that is not afraid to express herself..people esp in my college sees me as the uptight person..sort of a perfectionist but in reality i am just waiting to be unleash..like beth said..when will i be able to unleash?

when is he going to unleash me?i know he loves me and all..i had having this conversation with him cause we always end up fighting.he's what some say over protective which i think is quite a turn on but somehow now i wonder is he the one supressing me too much and changing me into this petite timid Karlisyle?

with love,
karlisyle lum

simple

2009-03-03T13:47:00.002+08:00

i wish life's more simple...
now only it has occur to me that finally everyone will be finishing their a-level while only me,kavi and mona will be left..
but i am not sad that i have to do extra time for my alevels cause it was my decision..it's just that now i realise it's all coming to an end..
people gonna leave my life again but hopefully new ones will come pouring in too..
though i don;t have much memories frozen into pictures but it's in my head
the hardships and good times we share at our Advance Tuition Centre.
i am gonna miss you guys in ATC..
especially you people:
genise
siu fan
dalvin
kavitha
ashley
sing hang
titan

and more..(sorry if i lupa your name)

and of course the first one to left us:Terence..i miss you too.when u coming again?

with love,
karlisyle lum

blunt

2009-03-03T13:02:00.002+08:00

the title was due to this conversation i had with a friend from college:

Him:
eh,Did u see his Gf anot?she's from Taylors.
ME:
ya,Not bad looking.the guy's kinda cute that's why he got gf from taylors.
Him:
huh are you sure anot?she's so ugly la.no taylor Girl standard also.
Me:
what?what Taylor Girl standard?
Him:
erm..well the minimum taylor girl standard is like ying tong.
Me:
Minimum?oh means you like ying tong looks la?
Him:
no ler..all the guys in college also feel she is the prettiest but only thing is she don't know how to be popular.
Me:
ok(still a lil shock about the standard)
Him:
(thought i was offended)but we don't mean that you all not pretty la but at least you all still can look at.
me:
(inside myself:rather not have jerks like u look at me)

first off i gotta admit that my self confidence have not been radiating much for the past few months.have been really conscious about my stupid hair,face and of course weight,though i manage to shed 2 kgs last year,i am still in denial that i look good.i feel fat.

2ndly,every girl would love to think that they are pretty at least secretly and all girls even those that deny of caring what others think about them are very consious about their looks.

so from that conversation i had,yes you can pretty much say that my self esteem is F***ED up.i never felt worse in my life.i know i am not that extremely pr extraordinarily pretty but GOD,do they have to kutuk the rest of us like that during their guy tea hours?

who the F*** invented this taylor's standard?what if there are pretty girls out there who simply can't afford to go to taylors?and just because they have richer parents who are they to say that they deserve to overshadow girls with normal income parents?

i am angry.yes because everytime when i am about to get a lil self esteem again,someone has to come and f*** around with my mind and make me feel so low about myself.i can't help but feel so helpless.God,i rather not know if he thinks i am the ugliset.sue me but i rather live in denial thatn the truth.sometimes some things are not meant to be find out.i guess this is just one of that occassions.

so enough with the cursings..sorry Lord but i just feel so fed up..i wanna be able to feel good about the way i look..aargh..

i am not gonna let it get to me..i am happy..don;t worry..had a great time v b this few days..thanks for always making me feel like i am the best,b!there at least i have someone who can appreciate me.

the tag by genise is up next:
The rules are simple..
- do not copy the answers
- the tag questions must be 100% same
- tag ppl after doing the tag
- no tagging the same ppl back

People I tag:
1.Kerryn Lum
2.Kong sze min
3.see ju vin
4.caroline
5.annabeth lee
6.roy hee
7.hui fern
8.hui sen
9.eva
10.le june

now the questions are:

how do u noe number 1?
erm in my num's womb..she's my twin jie.

what'll u do if u never met number 2?
i'll have no life cause he's the one that brings meaning to mine.

what would u do if 3 & 4 dated u?
we'll have one hell of a date.

would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
for me ya but for them i don't think so.never try never know!:P

do u think number 10 is attractive?
what do u think?small and petite sure la attractive.

do you noe anything bout number 8 family?
yup.erm he's mum is super cool.and he'll be family someday to me.bro in law

tell me something about number 9?
last time i check..i think she bites.:)

what language does number 2 speaks?
mostly body language with me.haha

who is number 3 going out with?
Poh Elton.

how old is number 4?
just turn 18 3 months ago..19 in 9 months!

when was the last time u talked to number 5?
texting counts as talking?last saturday.

who is number 6 favourite singer?
i really don't know but laid back songs i think!

would u date number 7?
sure why not.date as friends.

is number 8 single?
nope.twin sis's one.

what do u think about number 3?
my Good friend that will soon give a me a cute souvenir!haha

with love,
karlisyle lum.

p.s:don't have to reply the tag guys..i think we did it before!

wish the world would be better place

2009-02-25T12:27:00.003+08:00

give me a 5 minutes break to break down

well i guess i screwed up my new motto..
woke up this morning with the heavy feeling in me
so i took it out on him
i am so sorry,B..
anyhow i am so fed up with studying i wanna go out for once
instead of locking myself up in the room and study or on9..
God,even movies which weren't and aren't out yet
all also i watch
cheap productions movie pun i dah sapu..
what's left?

well am a lil down
don't feel like going for class anymore
so that i don't have to be so fake and pretentious
God,what's wrong with me..

peek

2009-02-23T16:10:00.002+08:00

hey there people thanks so much for the comments..life's pretty much the same except for a new shocking fact that i discovered due to my busy bodiness..well as usual i have been skipping class...not sure if it is the weather..have not been so pink in health..guess it's the rain that makes me really like this..it's weird but i been missing home so much lately..especially kat,mummy and daddy.i remember baack last 2 years(God i am getting old) where daddy would drive me crazy everynight asking me how was my studies.

dad and mum,if you are reading this i miss you guys!kat.Double miss ya!

well move on,i wanna be positive..still keeping to that motto of mine.well i think it did us good..me and min only fight 3 times last week.well i know we might have a very tight relationship but really we fight alot but somehow at the end we both will find a way out.

i wanna be able to cry,scream and scold in front of people..let em see the real me..

fliping through the pages of my life
i learnt what's best for me now
i finally see through the other side
i now know who are the ones i love
i now see the truth
i tasted your pain
i ain't giving in to this conspiracy of yours

someone please help me
i want to be someone stronger
i want to be sure around this uncertainty
draw me closer
i wanna be able to feel u..
i want you to see me through
carry on
love me
hold me

with love,
karlisyle lum

p.s:i forgot how sweet it is to be love...

lalalala

2009-02-18T14:43:00.002+08:00

i wanna be happy.nothing is going to come my way..even you..you..you..i am going to be happy..screw you guys..i wanna be able to see the sunshine everyday not darkness and negativity..i wanna make a change..

i wanna be the author to my own life
i wanna believe in happy endings
i wanna learn to handle my stress
i wanna be independent..
i want to be who i want to be.
i don't wanna care what people say anymore.

i love him
so what you guys wanna do about it?
if you think that i am not good enough i don't care.
it's what he thinks that matters

my teacher thinks i am monotonous cause i don't show much facial expression..that's not me..i am not able to show people anymore who i am..if i don't even know myself how should others know me?

resolution:
1.i must learn to love myself and be more positive!

with love,

karlisyle lum

the past events..good times

2009-02-18T14:01:00.007+08:00

hey people.i am feeling much better today.when over to min's yesterday..had lots akward moments with the sis and grandma.i guess time will heal..so in the mean time there's nothing much i can say about..as i promised,pictures on Vday,Yuens and his bday.

First up,Valentine's day.
the flower was a gift from him.somehow it's like a tradition he gives me 3roses a year except last year as he was in NS.well,i like the roses and the thought and effort he put into buying it but God i hate the colour combination done by the shop..it is too much colour..well i guess they say little is alot sometimes.anyhow,thanks B i had the best day of my life this Valentine.oh ya thanks for the hagendaz chocolate cookie ice cream too..and of course the very pretty wondermilk cupcakes.

the dinner on valentine was rather a unique one.it ws his idea.i ain't taking credit for it.he had a small bbq session at his sis backyard.it was rather quiet cause it was only the 4 of us including the sis and hubby but somehow i guess it beats those pack restaurant.u know how much i hate crowded places.thanks b!love you..

PRE VALENTINE'S.Pn Nyon joined us for dinner with her super cool and MU fanatic friend in YUENS.she asked us whether she was disturbing us as it was pre valentine and guess what my big mouth had to say?it was ok because everyday is valentine for us..haha..of course her friend said she would asked me the same question in 10 years and the answer would be diff.hehe

those of you that weren't aware..jia li ,wan theng and TIM came down to kl for two nights to lepak2..hope you guys enjoyed your stay here.

well 7 february is his Birthday as some you know..as well as katricia and siu fan's bday..this year siu fan celebrated with chic pox*kesian:P* while kat had a bday bash with friends on feb 14..guess she had a blast cause ker said she super enjoyed it..i am glad you had fun kat!

pictures before we left for dinner at the apartment in the curve:

btw,we celebrated earlier cause on saturday his whole family came down from kuantan to celebrate with him therefore we wanted a romantic celebration before they came

after he blew the candles,candid by hui sen and ker.thanks.

two birthday cakes cause another of the eldest sis friend bday too.

the apartment interior.give you a very homely feeling.including the part of getting your ass bit by mosquito..guess they really wanted to give u the real malaysia homelife style.

the food and me.courtesy of min.

our drinks.min's drink was nice.mine suck.

that's all..haha..guess i still haven't got the hang of picture caption blogging.anyhow just enjoy yourself with the pictures.pictures say a thousand words.

toodles

with love,

karlisyle lum.

p.s:Lord,please help me deal and carry on with all this drama and misunderstandings.let the truth prevail.thanks.Amen.

tagged by mrs alex(genise)&terence

2009-02-16T15:29:00.004+08:00

Start with something random, then start the next line with the last one from the first line.

sometimes i wish that life would treat me better

better as in more hapiness and smiles

smiles curved on his lips

lips that i wanna kiss and caress so bad

bad is what i will never have the courage to be

be the one he loves forever

forever is made impossible by them

them who brought sorrows into my life

life is define by the way you look at it

it may bring contrary perspectives from each individual

individual means each and every one

one life one goal one mission

mission is to make the world a better place

place me in your alter of joy

joy is something i thirst for now

now or never

never betray one's trust and love

love is so beautiful and yet evil.

stupidity

2009-02-16T14:30:00.003+08:00

hey i was so hyped about blogging about our steamboat night and of course valentine's DAY..seriously had a blast with wan theng,jia li and tim..even more was valentine..it's a wonder how you manage to make me smile so hard and long the whole day,b..i love you..always will always have..

am going to be bit emo..ohya first off i decided to split my exams so i extended it till oct/nov this year and will only be joining the jan/feb intake next year for the degree..

secondly i never cried so hard till yesterday..until now i can feel my heart torn..i was hurt really bad..don't really want to say names..yesterday make me realise despite all the times my family made me cry,i am thankful i have them cause at the end of the day they would still be there for me..

B,i really love you but the pain i am enduring for loving you is too great..i really wish someday time will tell me why are they doing this and tearing me apart..breaking my spirit and strength to be with you..loving you is the greteset prize God has given me but the package you carry doesn't seem to allow me to carry on..i dont know how long more i can endure this pain..but if ever time split us or draw us apart or someday when i really can't take any more shit from them.i want you to know i will and have never stop loving and caring for you..

thanks for making me smile so hard..i was happiest in my life last 2days..14 feb 2009..i'll carry the memories with me forever..

p.s:better go before tears start pouring out...
p.s2:the pics below are 2008 pics.
p.s3:valentine andd steamboat pics this wednesday!

i love the way you bit your lower lip when you are deciding..

pictures from some new mall:lanterns of cartoon icons..
the mall sucks but there;s a very pretty cafe called FULLHOUSE there

with love,

karlisyle lum

lovegame

2009-02-11T17:45:00.002+08:00

not in the mood..seriouly i am drowning in my own pool of stress..i hate myself for being like that..i am negative..i left valentine plans with minxx but i am super worried that this year valentine will be scerwed..i am not sure whether it's the pre exam stress or mesntrual symptoms..i guess it's both..

i am suppose to be studying cause i'll be having my Mock aka trials in two weeks but i am so stress that i want to go out..no really i wanna cry..aargh..

i just made min piss for no reason..i was whinning that i am tired..whinning about his valentine plans..i hate myself..why am i like that?

seriously this is not an emo post..i am spitting all of this out in anger..i don't know why exam stresses make me angry and doubly bad tempered..that is why i never had much people that like me..it's some kind os aura of the exam that makes me an ugly person..

i find myself turning into the same old me that i left in 2007..it's coming back..

Terence:i'll reply the tag when i am in a better mood cause definitely i'll describe myself in negtivity only..

p.s:i can hope that i'll get better..exams!aargh

with love,
karlisyle lum

feel me

2009-02-08T00:12:00.002+08:00

hey there people,
i guess that now i know why beth's blog is so popular..most probally cause she's hot..no no..hehe..cause she's always so positive in her blog and she doesn't fret much in her blog as compared to the rest of us 1990 children..well i wish someday i can be like her..not releasin all her anger and sadness on the keyboard..

today's or should i say yday since it's past 12..was of course his birthday..well did nothing special as we celebrated on the 4th already..so to round it off i had a pretty much normal day until at night..*thanks ker and kor sen for coming* if not i would have bore to death..

well i ain't gonna whine much..felt pretty lonely and still feels a lil alone now..he's gambling with fam downstairs while i am up here..well i guess it's his birthday so it's up to him who he wanna spends it with..

someone told me that everytime we fight ure won't break up one..i guess people are pretty fed up with me..well these days i pretty much have no one to talk ot turn to when i am having lots in my mind..that's why i am so pathethic i talk to a laptop about how i feel..

these days things aren't the same anymore
he used to be the one..
i am not certain of that fact anymore
we started off too young
i wish i could skip time
i wish i had the guts to mean what i say..

with love,
karlisyle lum

she says

2009-02-05T13:07:00.001+08:00

my twin sis says that we have astrayed from one another after coming to kl but i say the opposite.the amount of calls and sms we have are more than what we usually do back in kuantan plus we fight more in kuantan.

anyhow this post is gonna be a short one.everyone's leaving to overseas to further their education..when they ask me,i truthfully wish i have a place to tell em too but sadly no i don't cause one of us might be leaving for US while the other one Australia/new zealand.so it;s just down to me.dad wants me to get scholarship or loan which is unfair to put so much burden on me.i know it was my own choice choosing one of the toughest course.the truth is i really wish god will let daddy hit jackpot someday so dad i don't have to always worry about getting a scholarship.i guess it's all in God's plan.

p.s:had dinner with minxx at the apartment as an early bday dinner.will upload pics soon!
p.s2:someone drop the bomb at me that law exams tomorrow!aargh..what a life!

irritated

2009-02-01T17:26:00.002+08:00

hey people,
i must say my last post created a scene and God this blog is starting to feel like a baggage to me.i can no longer express anything here cause it'll leak out.Effing iritating i must say.

anyhow i'll won't be updating frequently as i said it a thousand times due to exams and his upcoming birthday and VALENTINE'S day.have lots of preparation to do yet so lil time..

anyhow friends out there continue rocking your life and have fun and thanks for the good 2009 CNY!had a blast catching up with loads of you!hugs!

with love,
the girl you love to hate,
karlisyle lum

p.s:i'll try to update on his bday dinner and VALENTINE!

token of appreciation

2009-01-21T09:41:00.002+08:00

someone told me i have to earn to appreciate.yes i have a roblem with appreciating things.i just dump my phone after buying it a month and whine about getting a new phone everytime.i whine that i want to be able to choose and change lives with people.But am i the one being selfish?

i know that sometimes my lives or better yet most of the time i have downs in my life but somehow i'll always survive through.okay maybe what he said is true.he said i speak out of jealousy.even min seems to think it's true.

so here goes.if Mom or jie is reading this,yes i have grow up living in jealousy that why you always treat her better.you being a teacher i thought that you will always love the smartest or the most sucessful academically but you still choose to love the laziset.i know she is the smartest but i can be equally smart like her if u want me to.i spend all my life trying to impress you and get the slightest attention so i screwed up my life during f4.i hated studying and all i did was enjoyed my life.i gave so much effing effort during f2 and 3 that iw as almost the top in the first class but yet i saw no appreciation.

again i admit i am JEALOUS and i'll always be so as long as i don't see a reason why she should be treated better off than any of us.at least i have the guts to say it out loud.i love you and never had stop because somehow i am bonded to you.we are two of a kind that is why.so as long as this goes on i am going to distant myself like now because i can't live my life in jealosuy.it turns me to became an ugly person.sorry if i hurt your feelings but this is how i feel!

p.s:this post is not emo..a lil piss off byt seriuosly i'm fine.
p.s2:me and min are really ok d..infacxt will be going sg wang and klcc in abit
ps3:thanks for those people that cared!

with love,
karlisyle

tagged by my GENISE!

2009-01-18T11:12:00.002+08:00

Instructions :
*Strike out the NO's or Underline/Colour/Bold the YES's
* Tag 6 people after you've done!

1. Coffee / Tea

2. Noodle / Rice

3. Ocean /Lake

4. Phone / Computer

5. Smsing / Calling

6. Durians / Fried Worms

7. Coke / Sprite

8. Cold weather / Hot Weather

9. PanCakes / Waffles

10. Sand / Grass

11. Vanilla / Chocolate

12. Coughing / Sneezing

13. Paper / Plastic

14. W hite Gold / Silver

15. Watermelon / Strawberry

16. Slippers / Shoe

17. Early Bird / Night Owl

18. Books / Magazine

19. Tall / Short

20. Heaven Above / Paradise on Earth

Person I Tag are:
-annabeth
-caroline
-kerryn
-ju vin
-hui fern
-aimi

good times gone

2009-01-18T10:58:00.003+08:00

life hasn't been good to me..i guess all those hype about 2009 being better was all just an illusion.somehow i did manage to talk things out with my B but yet things aren't still looking at the bright side.i feel so utterly useless because i don't know what to do.i love him but yet somehow i think he deserves someone much better than me.sometimes i don't get him and vice versa that makes us fight.i want to be with him.we were suppose to be meant to be.i used to think he's the one i'll have forever with but now it all seems do vague.

all our memories flahing through my mind.i am happy with him but at times the pain is too much to bear.i rather see him smile everyday than tears when he is with me.maybe i ought to be a il least selfish and let him go.will i ever get that sense of courage to do such a noble thing?No, cause i love him so much that it hurts.i long for him all the time.he is never out of my mind.i wanna be around him all the time.i love that sense of security he provides me.i love how he kisses my forehead.i love everthing that we share but somehow those bad times we have are getting out of hand and ugly.i hate to see the tears i brought in your eyes.i don't deserve it.you deserve someone better.

p.s i love you but isi it time's up?

with love,
emoness in the air,
karlisyle lum

broken strings-james morrison

2009-01-14T15:34:00.002+08:00

hey,short update alert.at least i tried to warn.just read carol's blog.i get how she feels..F***ERS leave her alone.have a life and stop picking on hers.okay back to my part of the story or you would prefer to call ranting.yes i want my God Damn Long hair back although i look good in short*winks*but thou shall not fret upon the past or so they say.i am FAT.god damn it..why did i have to have all this flaws?i know i am emo but guess what?i am not the worst.anyway i am under lots pressure.i am suppose to be studying but here i ended up.went blogshopping a while and been watching a couple of dvds.ain't going to be like some kisau and say i didn't study.i did touch law but god damn it did it burnt the inside of my brains.Gah..aargh..

well i want to say that i want to get past with all this now and start something new already.yes i am bored.play me another song will ya?or play another game.i can't take or bare another second of this.take me away.or beeter yet take my breath away.something i really wish life will not suck out all the fun and fire of something.i guess it's time that kills it all.GAh..i really desperately need new things and happening.a life changing or turning event.the games in my life are getting old.

the new cute still short edgy new me*perasan i know*but a girl can only ask for more

and my..HAISH..super pretty long hair!aargh

with love,

toodles,

karlisyle lum

gone with the wind

2009-01-10T13:33:00.002+08:00

finnally found some spare time to update..have been really caught up with the exam blues..iseriously have to start studying already because my parents nag that i son't spend enough time studying whish is so true..but i juts don't havethe semanagat to study..daddy wants to me to split my a-levels paper and extend another 6months in college..he doesn't even mind paying the fees..aargh..but the fact is i just wanna move on already with my degree..i am confident i'll pass my a-levels but not so sure about going higher than that margin..dad and mum wants me to get 3a so that i can get a scholarship..but seriously at this point i really don't mind taking loan..

yesterday i had a sudden flashback where i remembered during may ,mum asked me to do ACCA in sunway but i told her i am not intelectually capable of doing that course like ju vin..but somehow i regret now cause if there's a will,there's away..if i want to do well in anything as long as i work hard i should be able to do it kan?

haish..no point and time for regrets now..just going to move on with my a-levels and do my best..hopefully i'll get to university that is good and affordable..

p.s:this blog will be abndon and not so frequently updated anymore because of exams...have only about 3months to master my subjects!

p.s2:i find it rather ironic for people who wears coloured contact lens to despise people who wear fake eyelashes cause aren't coloured contact lens as fake as fake long eye lashes?maybe that's what i think..i don't mind wearing both!:p

with love.
will try to be back soon,
toodles
karlisyle lum

away again

2008-12-23T21:37:00.002+08:00

i'll be leaving for kuantan tomorrow night and i shall leave my baby lapppie and focus on studying..exams after the hols..

well me and my BB gonna be back in kuantan so anyone?

until then,
merry christmas and happy new year people!
toodles..have a great finale of 08 aite!
love,
karlisyle lum!

paramore-my heart

2008-12-19T10:22:00.004+08:00

hey,i apologised to people that reads this blog that i been away..have been really caught up with twilight books and shopping..i been slacking so much..these days it is almost predictable as to where to find me..i am either in one utama or at my b's place reading..i am finally down to the last book,breaking dawn..

i super love eclipse
but super duper love twilight and breaking dawn..
was quite disturbed by how new moon failed my interest..

i guess how proven the sayings are where:first is always a charm and saves the best for the last..seriously the first and last book was the best...

i been so drawn into fantasy that i wish someone will suck me back to reality..
i am still going strong with my b..i love him..

a love note for my b,
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
that I've fallen down
and I can't do this alone
Stay with me
this is what I need
Please
i am nothing now
and it's been so long
since I've heard a sound
the sound of my only hope
this timeI will be listening
This heart it beats
beats for only you
Oh this heart it beats beats for only you
my heart is yours
my heart is yours

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY 19 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY,B!luv ya!

boredom

with love,

karlisyle lum

tagged by hui fern(bella's lullaby)

2008-12-13T09:33:00.003+08:00

Instructions:
a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"> miley cyrus-7things

2. How would you describe yourself?> katy perry-i am still breathing

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?> one republic-say all i need

4. How do you feel today?> sum41-with me

5. What is your life's purpose?> jay chou-kai bu liao kou(what does this even mean?)

6. What is your motto?> flo rida ft will.iam-in the ayer

7. What do your friends think of you?> sixpence none the richer-kiss me(i know beth feels this way bout me)

8. What do you think of your parents?> secondhande serenade-stranger(yup sometimes i feel that i am always being misunderstood by them!)

9. What do you think about very often?> leona lewis-the best you never had

10. What is 2+2?> kenny g-endless love(yup i agree a family of 4 always is the most balance)

11. What do you think of your best friends?> secondhand serenade-maybe(lol)

12. What do you think of the person you like?> jay chou-love before time

13. What is your life?> neyo-go on girl(so true cause i am pushing myself daily to go through and be stronger!)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?> katy perry-hot and cold(seriously?)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?> neyo-closer(wakaka..so hit jackpot!)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?>shontelle-t shirt(so not true cause it'll be thanks for the memories by fall out boys-me and minxx first kiss song!)

17. What will they play at your funeral?> stacie orrico-strong enough(wow,people gonna cry their eys out then!)

18. What is your hobby/interest?> avril lavigne-innocence(?)

19. What is your biggest fear?>fall out boy-i don't care(yey!)

20. What is your biggest secret?> paramore-decode

21. What do you think of your friends?> neyo-miss independant(quite accurate)

22. What will you post this as?> cartes's burwell-bella's lullaby

it's quite an interesting and simple tag so,
I tag:
-caroline
-annabeth
-genise
-ju vin
-aimi

help

2008-12-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

this is gonna be a super short post..as i am still unfamiliar with the new blogskin that i had my friend uploading for me..i don't know how to play around with it yet so all i have to do is ask her tomorrow at college then ny i'll edit back everything!

toodles,
with love,
karlisyle lum..

p.s..special thanks to GENISE who did this blogskin fo rme..love ya much!

running away

2008-12-07T13:41:00.002+08:00

i guess i have to kkep up with my promise..i knew i said i will not be emoing anymore..and let me mind you that this post is not really that emo..

something happen today..

i wonder if she will ever do the same if the person wasn't her but me..

i felt that despite the years of unhappiness she gave me,it was just a way of her showing me how to be better in life..

i finally saw today to what extent love can go..

i sw the tears and dissapointment in her eyes but yet she still defended abd protected..

she rather believes in lies that to know the truthful truth..

she rather force herself to accept what she has been against for her life..

she rather help than see lives being screwed up..

how many years left we have together till death separates us..

how many more years should i hold her against for all the sadness she brought into my life..

i finally learn today the true meaning of forgiveness..

is going against your will and accepting..

with love,

appreciate who and what you have in life before it is gone..
karlisyle lum:p

p.s:being positive in life brings about more meaning to live..:)

stole(just realised carol tag me once i was done with the post!)

2008-12-07T13:06:00.004+08:00

well i pretty much stole this tag from beth since it is quite interesting and simple to do...so i am pretty much gonna end this week's posts with this tag..

p.s-the parents are here...

here it goes:
Instructions
**************************************************
Bold the statements that are true to you.Italicize the statements that you wish were true.( green )Leave the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.
**************************************************
I’m 170cm++ tall.

I don’t know what I want at the moment.

I’m not happy.

I hate my friends.

I hate my life.

I hate my grades.

He drives.

I’m bored of driving.

I have a white handbag.

I love dancing.

I go clubbing every week.

Shopping is bullshit.

I have a tattoo of a star !

I got my navel pierced.

I have friends that take drugs.

90% of my friends smoke.

I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up is rather nasty.

I am studying fashion.

I have a business running.

I hate cartoons.

I love chick flicks.

I hate someone.

I'm going out at least three times this week.

I have 10 Guess handbags.

I love my sister.

I buy CLEO every month.

My parents don’t know about my blog.

I have an iPod.

I don’t have faith in the current “one”.

My school mates know about my blog.

I wanted to be a fashion designer.

I love rock emo bands.

I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.

I’m a rebel.

I’m starting to ♥ wearing dresses.

I don’t believe in love.

High school’s filled with drama.

My parents have faith in me.

A blogger bitched about me before.

I have bought a pair of shoes this month.

I hate sports.

I heart Italian food.

I hate meeting new people.

I hate nail polish.

The mother bear gives me hugs.

People should start appreciating me.

High school was the worst time of my life.

I have red hair.

Mid Valley is my second home.

I have my own car.

I’m a guy.

I’m scared of my Biology exam.

I hate vacations.

We’ll last.

I believe in long distance relationships.

I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.

I’ve robbed an old lady.

I’m starting to like applying make-up.

I was a tomboy.

At times I think I still am a tomboy.

I love bitching about people behind their backs.

I still have a best friend.

I have a cat.

I hate surprise parties.

I hate planning parties.

I’m hot. (xD)

I’m a sinner.

I like attention.

I’ve got a DS light.I have a Wii.

I cannot live without musicVideo games are a waste of time.

I miss the father bear.

I love being in love.

I know how to cook.

I have 100% freedom.

Boys are assholes.

I hate Math.

I love horror films.

I love my brother.

I’m happy with what I have.

I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.

My old friends keep in touch with me.

I don’t read newspapers.

The news is such a waste of time.

Blogging is a waste of time.

I hate animals.

I've traveled to over 6 different countries.

I can’t live without make-up.

I'm satisfied.

I curse like a pirate.

I’m happy with my 11 year old car.

I hate people that are smart.

I love GREEN Apple Juice.

I can’t drink for nuts.

I’ve got a new phone.

I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.

I love swimming.

I haven’t worked out since March.

I think I’m fat.

I love my friends and family.
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Tagging:
Kerryn Lum ern Hsing,my Twin
Kong sze Min,My B
and GENISE,My college babe.

with love,
karlisyle lum

guess

2008-12-06T10:11:00.002+08:00

i am feeling a lil grumpy..i wanna be happy for those people around me who can be so positive and so lucky to have so many good people around their life..but at the same time i can't help but feel a lil twinge of jealousy..

i am not being a bad person or what but it's just tht sometimes i can help but ponder and wonder why i can't get the exact good things in life?

but this year i learnt to be stronger..i don't show my emotions easily to people..i just rant it out here for my sake and people think i am not strong enough..i felt betrayed by two most closest people this year but yet i told myself to stay strong..i face with my problem and move on..

i no longer wanna dwell in the past where i'll only get hurt..i learnt that in this world never trust anyone 100% except yourself..the most important thing is accepting people..that's all..

so i know i been too amo and ungrateful towards my life this whole year..been complaining since the beggining of college..well guess what i am going to try to be more positive and share with you the happy times..

p.s:should i FINALLY get the SKINNY t BABY pink camera?

with love,
karlisyle lum..

edward cullen,be mine?

2008-12-02T13:13:00.004+08:00

i am seriously crushing on him..feel so guitly towards min..i dreamt of edward cullen two nights in a row when i was sleeping next to min..felt so guilty..haha..but i really think he is so charming..the funniest thing was i kutuk him when i foirst saw him in E!..i told jie, why they chose someone so not good looking but at the end i was charmed by him too..but for now i am only enjoying him as edward cullen not as robert pattinson.
he somehow manage to look like chuck bass at certain angle in the movie...

i seriously don;t like to be dissapointed that is hwy somehow i always do things around..i watch the movie first and then only read..emily was dissapointed with the movie and jie also..guess it beats to read the novel first huh?

well some girls hated the show as they said that it was too u nrealistic but i somehow disagree cause aren't movies then only place where we can only place all our wildest imagination..falling in love with a vampire..that is not somewhat crazy to me..he is like human only thing is he craves for blood..but u can see how he himself finds it hard to accept himself as a vampire cause he looks at himelf as a monster..

i find the movie to be awesome and to everyone who is not so open minded about a ove should seriously watch it..i'm up for a second round of twilight so feel free to tag me along with u..

the moral of the story about love is that it has no barriers..we should not be ashame to show who we love even we are different..no matter how fiffernt we are,the fact is how different one can get from another..

like ie. if a black and a white falls in love,what is so different besides our culture and skin color/
someone from a rich and poor background?
someone who is known for his bad past and someone with good reputation?
someone who doesn't speak mandarin and someone who is mandarin educated?
someone who loves pink and someone who loves black?

love should not be diffrentiate by this means..love is such a beautiful and simple thing that was made complicated by us humans..love should be genuine and not be take account for any diffrences..we should accept and love them for who they are..

though my b and i grew up in differnt backgrounds and we might not even communicate in the same languages at home but isn't all this just a small hiccup that can be overcome?

i'll let Kong sze min be my edward cullen..i am satisfied at this point..he can drain every drip of blood in me for all i care..haha..i know so cheesy kan?

i wish to draw this closeto him and show him how much i love him..

i wish that he'll look me in the eye ans tell me how important i am in his life..hold me tight and never let go..

with loads and heaps of love,

karlisyle lum..

p.s..your edward cullen might be just round the corner..it's the spirit of giving month so take note!

she says i need anger management and i agree so

2008-11-30T11:40:00.002+08:00

well i guess the last post create a havoc but i akkready settke it with her and things are fine..
well i am at a point at my life where i feel like no one is really true to me..
i often wonder whether minxx will leave..

it feels like it s just a matter of time when everyone will leave me...
yes i am emo and insecure...
i admit it...
i never try to be positive in a negative situation..

i wish sometimes i can just read people's minds and know how they really feel..

i wish life could be so much simpler..

with love,
karlisyle

p.s apology again for that unwantd post yesterday..it was written out of anger..

anger managemt anyone?

BEFFIE dear,u know what i mean!

2008-11-29T11:20:00.002+08:00

damn benggang!really really really supre duper benggang!
why does she always have to do it to him?
she repeatedly does it and not have a single feeling of guilt?
treating him like a spare tyre...
i mean u think love is a game where u can off and on?
doesn't mean every guy that try to get you though you have a boyfriend is so brave and worthy of a chance to be with you..
if like that then what the F*** you want a steady realationship?
the worst thing is the other half does nothing but wait!aaargh.

i mean who am i to sibuk right?it's their life..
i know i'll be hated but the thing is something is wrong and i have to say it out..

what is the purpose if doing so?
attention?love?
love?if u tell me this is Love then i got nothing to say cause love is not an on and off game for you to play with..

love needs nurturing..
not when u feel like off-ing it u off it and the on it back once you are done playing with games..

if i were to take love the way you do..i would have dump my B a million times but why i didn't?
cause you have to make a stand in life and know aht you wnat and what is good for you...
doesn't mean if he make your heart flutters and he tells you he love you behind your bf back,he deserves a chance to be with you..
it is not even a fair fight for your bf...
he loved you and stayed by yourside all this while and you just dump him for a guy that showed up and he said a few sweet words..
maybe you are bored and need to spice up your life..
but repeatedly breaking up with him and going back to his arms at the end of the day is just plain unfair..
just because you know that he'll be there no matter what at the end waiting for you doesn't mean you should take him for granted like that..

that's all i can say..don't be such an arse..make up your mind..okay put it this way..imagine and put yourself in your other half shoes..how will it make you feel if he constantly leave you for another girl and gets back to you once he's done with the girl and misses you over and over again..you tell me...think again..what you are doing will eventually make him leave so make up your mind before he really LEAVES...

p.s-i am not responsible if anyone that reads this gets insulted or feels like i am directing this to them..i am just telling out how i feel about a live sitution i am seeing happening in life..

until then,
love thy neighbour and appreciate the ones you love,
with love,
karlisyle lum

it's funny how my life is..

2008-11-29T10:42:00.002+08:00

a bunch of irony..
that's how i would love to describe my life...it's funny how every single one of us looks at how life is...
someone told me life is about waiting so why bother being impatient when u are made to wait..
someone told me life doesn't know why it treats u the way it is treating so it's best to look at the positive side..
someone told me is a piece of white cloth that you need to scribble on..
someone told me life is about falling and picking up the pieces all over again until you succeed..
someone told me life sucks and then you die..

i admit that if you don't fit in..it's your fault for not trying harder..i think life has its plans already..like who u meet and keep as friends for the rest of your life..it is fate that brought friendships together..do you believe in this too?

i think life is always fluctuating with its ups and downs like a boat in the middle of thesea..
when the boat is hit by the waves,it is going through a phase of danger and obstacles..
whe theboat is trailing along a peaceful stream of water of the sea,it is working together with the flow of the sea water..

life is weird in its way but yet cool..
life comes in a package..happiness and sadness..
life has its yin and yang..

i am really sad that i have to be separated from my good friend that i made in college...it's funny howfate brought us together to be friends..it started with feelings that were impossible to be united and it ended with a beautiful friendship..

i am so gonna miss you,mr Terence Spencer Tan...

a heart that wasn't for me,
a life that wasn't for us,
love that wasn't meant to be
friendship is the only thing that will keep us together..

love,
karlisyle lum

read between the lines

2008-11-26T18:24:00.004+08:00

hey people,i'm back..not sure if this will last anymore..i mean with me being strong..i act like i don't hear them saying those things..i act like they are not evil glaring me..i'm gloing through so much right now..i am feeling so guilty for indulging into my mates blogs today instead of studying..but hey i really feel so tired..i sometimes wish that life would be simplier..i don't have to always work so hard to move to the next stage of my life..i am not blaming anyone..believe me..i understand the financial pressure my parents are in..i accept my fate..i don't blame them..they are already working their asses off to put food into our mouth..i swear in anywhere i am not complaining that my parents are not doing the best..in fact they are the best..although we are just middle class and i don't really have the luxury of choosing the college i wanna be in,yet you parents still give us a reasonable sum of allowance and a additional debit and credit card...thank you...

but it's just that sometimes i wonder if this burden i am carrying on my shoulders to succeed and to get a scholarship for my degree can be lifted upon..just wish life could be simpler..someone might come and offer to pay for my education..tha't's the best gift i can ever have..i mean for anyone kan?but anyway enough of this ranting..

and oh Ya BETH,i am so sorry for making you worried dear but i am trying to stay positive...the grass is always greener on the other side right?at least that is what i heard..

sometimes i wish that i could just reach into my heart and show him how much i love him...

first tag's up by caroline tsau again..this girl must really love me..:p

1. What’s your ambition?real ambition? well ain't gonna lie about it..i wanna be a fashion designer and own my own line of clothes but too bad i can't draw..

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?both also play an equally major part of my life.

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?i no longer think about this..cause death won't solve anything..

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?well i used to have alot..now i have insufficient..

5. How many babies you want?2

6. Favorite perfume/fragrance?the DKNY apple one.

7. What do you think will be your greatest downfall?giving up without trying.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?yup..that's what love is all about..it is forever.

9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)
1. loves me more that he loves himself.

2. honest about everything to me.

3. mekes me his priority in life.

4. street smart and wise in making decisions.

5. accept my flaws.

6. respects me

7. knows how to handle my tamper

8.knows me inside out.

9.a family type of guy.

10.cares for me

11what are your bad habits?nibbling my nails and shopping.

12 anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?sorry if u think that i get into your face all the time but if you can't accept me for who i am then beat it..i got a life to go on with.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?well said by caroline..onlycherishthose who cherish our friendship in return. there's a price for everything. which includes friendship.

14. What do you hate most in others?backstabbers and two face people..not being able to be true even to their ownself..

15. What do you crave for the most currently?chocolates

16. What features/quirks do you find totally sexy on a guy/girl?well his smile and his eyes.and a mole on the lips.

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.she is one good friend that i cherish.

18.What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?bought two tube dresses..one from forever 21!:)

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?hot sexy 28 wife and mama with loads of happiness and hopefully $ also!

20. Whats your guilty pleasure? (something you usually wouldn't admit out loud)staring at my B when he is fast asleep next to me in his arms.

i tag:

-emily

-ker

-my b,kong sze min!

-hui fern

-shwu teng

-aimi

The rules are:
1. You own a blog where you are going to post this to
2. You currently feel bored
3. You won't skip any question
4. You're Alive
5. You are going to send this to 5 friends to fill these up

Firstly describe the current you in 5 words:
happy.glutton.living life to the fullest.being loved.SCREWED up!

Five things you love about life:
being loved by minx.being accepted.having good friends.shopping.tv dramas.

5 Famous people you'd love to meet:
not to sure yet..will let u know if i have any in the future..

5 Movies you love:
NOTEBOOK.PRIDE AND PREJUDICE.THE CINDERELLA STORY.SAW.007.

5 professions you'd love to have:
DOCTOR.FASHION DESIGNER.BEING A MILLIONAIRE'S WIFE.SINGER.ACTRESS.

5 Best Authors:
YUP i too read randomly.

5 Inspirations:
life itself.myself.my parents.sucessful people.money.

5 Favourite stuff:
my clothes.my phone.my baby lappy.my future pink cybershot camera.my money in the bank..muahaha..

5 things you hate:1.People misunderstanding and misjudging.2.Being left out.Being rejected.Being dissapointed.3.To be lectured.4.Crowded places.5.Being push to do someting i don't want!

5 favourite places:
anywhere there is minxx.home where ker sleeps with me and kuantan.sg wang and one utama!

5 girls/guys you are currently liking:
guys.
meor.terence(gonna miss ya so much..no more heart to heart talks!.ash emmanuel.selvan(miss him.david.
note:my b minxx not in the list cause i LOVVVVEEE him..not like!:p

girls.
caroline.Kerryn.ju vin.siu fan and annabeth(i merajuk so i put u last too!)

.5 Favourite people to chat with:
my b.ker.beth(although she didn't put my name:(].terence.siu fan.

5 things you wana improve more about yourself:1.have more confidence. Stop having stage frights! AH.2.being less sophiscated.3.deal with problems and not run away.4.Not to be selfish and bad tempered.5.try to be more understanding.

5 Things you would take to a desserted Island:
B.my family.beth(then at least i'll die with the people i love)lots of good food and my hand sanitizer!

5 places you wana visit:New York,Hong Kong,london,home(kuantan)paris.

5 Things you really want:
a new handbag!the one beffie got from roxy!do u mind dear?haha.a new handphone.desperately want the new pink skinny T camera.new clothes.new brains and will power!

.5 Songs that make you cry the most:1.Avril's.

5 Most fashionable friends according to you:
-myself:p.my sisters.caroline.beffie.

5 people you love the most:B.Family.God.friends.people creating clothes.

5 impossible dreams:work hard and nothing will be impossible.

5 Dreams in the future:
rich and sucessful.married happily.a more relaxed life.provide good life to the ones i love.have my own puppy.

now send this to 5 people:
Gary.genise.aimi.ju vin.anyone.

with love,
karlisyle lum.

will be signing off again for this week..having moral exams next wednesday!

2008-11-17T13:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes i see past through all the good things and complain so much..i should be so blessed that i even receive blessings from mum and daddy for dating minxx..

thank you dad and mum!never realise how open you guys were..you guys even treated him to our family trip and considered him family!thank you parents!

with love,
miss you b!
karlisyle lum

Knicks and Knacks of My LIfe..<3

May I Please Have Your Attention Puh-Lease??

:)

havent done this in a while:)

According to you

it's so quiet here at night

why is Two is Better than One?

You took away part of me when you took my heart away~

satellite heart!:)

Nyonya ABC + Chicken rice ball=Good times:)

Sing to me a Love song:)

love toxic

i miss you

i touch dog poo twice and step on dog poo once

i need a new phone BADLY..

evacuate the dancefloor-cascada

titleless

what you doing this halloween?

i wish

do not kill me

Rain

call it whatever u want

bopbop

karma

self preservation

whisper to me these words

whwn i am most lost,i now know i have you

colbie cailat-battle

waking up in malaysia :p

sweet escape

finally

only hope

new moon

*....*

bored to death

worse things in life

time machine

came clean

hush hush

sadistic

to the both of us

be with you

the three letter word

this is why

a dose of this and that

the time has come

take a step back

another pinky baby to my addition!

come back to me

yet another 27th baby

the truth

time will tell

take my breath away

i wish time would stop

sweet memories

titleless

APRIL the second

APRIL the first

NEW york Deli with a guy name terence!!

life goes on...

Rest in Peace,rashid hidayat!

another pic-post

mood:naesous

you're still you

God,help me

hurting

beats

why am i here

dang

simple

blunt

wish the world would be better place

peek

lalalala

the past events..good times

tagged by mrs alex(genise)&terence

stupidity

lovegame

feel me

she says

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