Friday, August 29, 2008

caroline tagged me in BOLD!

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
Continue this game by sending it to other people.


Are you allowed to have a bf/gf? totally though they dislike it at times!but both sides approved!

Describe urself in one word. emotional

Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love? someone who really loves me cause i surely really love him too in return!

Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her? love no ler but huge major crush yes!

Does it feel good to love? no doubt bout it!try it yourself.

What do u like to eat? good delicious food!

What will you say to someone who's tactless? nothing..

Was there ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?nopexx..always have loved and always will love him willingly!

What' your opinion about someone who's jealous? nothing better to do with their life and they obviously can't accept the fact that other people is better than them!

What can you say about playboys/playgirls? their lost!love's a beautiful thing!KARMA will get to them one day!

[[ * PART 2 * ]]


Best place to cry? on minxx shoulders!

Who do you love the most?My B,my family and my good friends!

Tell us your dream last night? didn't dream anything.slept soundly next to him!:p

Ever hated someone so bad? yup b ut eventually forgave him!

The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard? a lie to my parents!

The last person you had a beer with? never had beer but if shandy considered then it was when i was 10 with grandma!

The last person you went to the movies with? minxx

The last person you talked on the cell phone with? minxx telling him i am not going class

The last person you hugged? Bb this morning before he left for coll!

The last person you yelled at? can't remeber but should be daddy

In the last week have you kissed someone? yup!u know who!

Danced crazy? just now in frint of the tv!i was crazy a lil!

Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry? cause he chose to trust her and not me!

If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be? life would be simpler!

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go? hawaii with my B?

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone? no..it's a really really bad thing to do!

Are you old fashioned? quite!

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back? tell them i do not love them back!

What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on? bb,minxx

Five facts About Me: emo,in love,short,petite,loud

Five things that scares me: hanibals,clowns,cockroach,lizard,the DARK!

Five of your favourite shows : shows arh? erm Gossip Girl, heroes, Grey's anatomy, Desperate Housewives and PRISON BREAK

Five Things I treasure in My Life: love,life,oygen,money and clothes!

Four "First Time" in My Life: First love,first cry,first break up,first kiss,first tooth


People I tag:
-emily
-Ju vin
-PHUA KAH JOE!
-daniel oon
-calvin yong
-aimi

with love enjoy these treat,
karlisyle lum

why?

i have outdone myself in being a scardy cat!i skipped class today.i only manage to make it till the bus stop after reading vin's message that she is sick.she had dengue fever last year during Spm.now the doctor said in two days time if her fever is still running then it's body check up time.Hope that she'll be okay!

i had no guts to face the both of them without vin plus he is supposedly travel back on the same bus with me today.i know i should be brave and face them but i am not ready.Thank God for my understanding,B.he said it's okay if i really don't feel like facing them so here i am in my room ranting again.i am suppose to be studyin...i'll do that soo after this.

now i realised i am so bless to have minxx in my life.Thanks,B for understanding me!

i'll shall stop ranting if not i'll start to emo again because everyone will be in avril's concert tonight!i'm so jealous!whilst ker having party with her coursemates!aaargh..

with love,
karlisyle lum

all i can do is just stay positive right?when you feel that there's no more hope,always remember there is surely at least one person there to catch u when u fall..maybe this fall,i'll have Jesus?

i really need God in my life!
but where is him?


-it only takes one to make you fall but it takes plenty to bring you up again!-

why is the past repeating?

i know i have my laws...but don't i deserve a chance to be look at my flairs instead of my flaws.the only person keeping me gooing on to college is my dear friend Vin/1the only keeping me happy with my life is my Dear beffie and my B,minxx.sometimes i feel that i am constantly misunderstand.i admit i have my fair shares of flaws but behind all those flaws,i have a good side too.why not look at it?

you made me wonder how bad i was until i deserved to be judge as a mean bitchy friend.seriously i may complain bout my friends behind their back sometimes but don't we all?but why am i the only one being judge? i am not one bitch biter!esp the type that u thought i am.just because she told you i am like that doesn't mean she's right.why couldn't you just trust me and know me by yourself?

why couldn't you trust your gut and instincts instead of listening to what she has to burn your mind about me.i defended you and fight with minxx countless of times just to defend our friendship.i risk my special relationship and love ones for you!what did you do in return?you thought that i did something that mean to you.

you want to make it up to me but he damages are already done.what is the point of apologising endless times?will it change anything?i got hurt that's it..end of the story..i feel so stupid and naive that guys actually can be best friends with me though i have a steady boyfriend.

can any guy out there just prove me wrong?make me believe that sometimes all you can see in a girl is a friendship.i never had a guy best friend..friends and good friends are outnumbered but there is no one particular guy that is able to foresee the fact that i am in a steady relationship and it will be a waste to get close to me.

people always tell me i am not a good friend therefore i dont have much true friends.they tell me i have attitude problems.but again tell me if i am that bad like you say about me,why do i have a 5years friendship with my best friend beffie?she can backe away anytime but why she didn't?because out of those flaws i have,she choose to look at the good side of me and she can prove that i am a good friend indeed.i am just not good in expressing my care to people.

okay judging from my past,i admit none of you will agree that i am capable to be a good friend but i was blunt and immature back then.should i be jjudge based on my past for now and the future?no because people do change!i let my guard down for u.i let you in my life.i trusted you and loved you as my friend and this is what i get?

i don't know how to tell you this face to face but things will never be the same for us.maybe friends but i am never letting you hurt me again!i have to shield my heart.if you trust her that much,why not just be friends with her and forget me.i know it was a one time mistake but maybe i just need time to heal!

p.s:i know this post i sound really emo but i am okay!i know i have you guys that care for me to carry on!(or not?)i know for one i have minxx and beffie and Vin but how long can i reky and burden them?.i have to pick up the pieces again.



-what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger-

with love,
karlisyle lum

Thursday, August 28, 2008

how am i suppose to

i just realise something about myself.i am a boring straight forward person.the title of my blogs don't seem to have any sense or element of suprise.the title says it all.

well,basically this post is to him and her.i know i toild you guys i am okay but how am i suppose to be entirely okay when i am suddenly told of about it.isit my fault for enjoying his company.i am no blaming her.all she did is she just wanted to protect his heart from getting broken.but in the first i never meant or had the intention to hurt him.you told me there's no middle way out..it's either i be with him or avoid him.the first choice is out of the question but the second...isit necessary?

how am i suppose to look him in the eye every morning and pretend to not know he is hurting for me?how am i suppose to act like everything is normal when i know you are constanly eyeing on me to stay away from hurting him.he called and asked me whether i am okay.i told him i am and i just wanna be friends.he agreed but how am i suppose to keep on befriending him when i know somehow some point of his life if things get worse and feelings get stronger,i will no hurt him?what if things becomes worst and i hurt both their feelings?

i can't be selfish.i take a stand.we will be friends but i'm afraid maybe we just can't be as close.i can't bare to hurt anyone.i am not in any postion to have the advantage to hurt anyone.i respect and love our friendship but if someone that cares for you thinks it is the best for me to stay away,maybe she knows what is best for you.

i am sorry.i am not angry and i am not holding any grudges against any of you.it's just that i don't know how to act like none of these happen when it did.i can't just live life pretending i was not told about this.i am sorry.maybe time will tell and our friendship will get better and we will be closer than we are now!


with apologetic love,
karlisyle lum

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

good HAIR day:p

the ugly side of me..my eyes:one big one small!

tees and jeans=the perfect recipe
my hair looks so ........?

trying to be sexy..wuit:p knock my head
down view
chubby face alert!


i am seriously screwing up with my life.i should be kicking it off with the books but i am inable to focus plus the sight of my blog header annoys me like hell.i seriously need to change it!i have exactly two days left to study for LAW,eCONS AND ACCOUNTS.i am only focusing to pass Econs and accouts whereas Law,if i fail,hopefully with style as in 35% rather than 0%.haha..if pass also,i think i'll get 40% only which is the borderline for a pass.seriously haven't got the right tuning in my brain that it is time to wake up and hit the books.don't feel like it because for one,i really miss my B minxx and the other i am so confused with my friends.


i should have gone out the whole day today!i am having a frigging good hair day.haha..don't believe see the pictures yourself.yes i am PERASAN.so what?don't like isit?then don't need see lor.hehe..i don't wish to blog furthermore because i have to go try change my blog header and then seriously hit the books!or should i take a nap instead?kinda tired and fatique!wakaka


















with love,



karlisyle a.k.a mrs Kong






LAN....aargh

stupid LAN that we are made to take just because we are on a fully privatised college.if i frigging fail it,i have to pay rm1,000 to retake.Thank God ms Siti postponed the exam.it was suppose to be next week together with the rest of the other exaM.mR.sIVA ALREADY made himself clear that he ain't going to pass anyone in the class!what the heck is wrong with him?not that i'm sure my essay is of A quality but then really no passes?nevermind if everyone fails then mum and dad will not be able to say anything!yey!i memang kinda targeted to fail law or pass ngam ngam.LAW SERIOUSLY AIN'T MY fORTE u get it?

now i am more stress out about Lan because i don't want to frigging fail iit.oh Lord,please just let me pass it.KER oh ker wonder why u targeT a!aihxx..i didn't do too well in my presentation though ju wished me all the best!i lost my confidence!stage fright now!beffie exchange with me d!anyway i need a sweet escape..don't we all need it?should have bought tickets to Avril.really need the tension breaker to scream my heart out!to pour out all if this negative in me!guess it's too late since Avril is so frigging popular!aarghh plus i have to be in some sort of family camp that i am so 'looking forward' to!ya right!gonna miss you,B!

with love but much hatred to the internet connection,
karlisyle lum

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

supposedly

i am suppose to be studying but after a chapter on common law and equity,
i feel naseous
i feel so sleppy

haish...what to do arh with law?how to overcome the pain to gain?
this sunday till monday will be the family camp which i am quite dreaded to go because i'll be back in KUANTAN while minx will be in KL with his own family.plus i haev exam on the following days of the week.i have to rush back on Monday then exam terus!i am prepared to fail.though i know that i should not fail but i know i am going to fail.sigh...failure is part of sucess isn't it?

the internet connection is bloody iritating!am trying to change my header but i am so sure my internet will not let that happen.this weekend everyone will be so excited for the avril's concert while i will be stuck to some family bonding.no need to bond already.you made it perfectly clear 18 years ago who is your favourite daughter and i'm pretty sure i ain't in the list!

i just have to bear with the pain!you know what the say,"no pain,no gain!"

with love,
karlisyle

Monday, August 25, 2008

taggeeeddd by miss beffffiiieeee

RULES :
Only.Type.One.Word.
1. Where is your cell phone?
here
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?
MIN:)

3. Your hair?
+DRY

4. Your mother?
cooking
5. Your father?
disturbing
6. Your favorite thing?
pinky!

7. Your dream last night?
BETRAYAL

8. Your favorite drink?
changes

9. Your dream car?
limosin

10. Say something about life?
troubles!

11. Your ex?
happy

12. Your fear?
darkness


13.What do you want to be in 10 years?
Mommy!

14. Who did you hang out with last night?
B!


15. What you're not good at?
friendships
16. Muffins?
sweet!
17. When you DIE, u'd rather be CREMATED or BURIED?
burried
18 . Where you grew up?
kuantan
19. Last place you've been to?
times square
20. What are you wearing?
clothes
21 . Where are you?

room.

22. Your pet/s?
bubbles
23. Your computer?
pink
24. Your life.
umanageable
25. Your mood?
:(
26. Missing?
Bb!
27. What/Who are you thinking about right now?
just wanna see him ASAP!*don't care one word tak cukup!*
28. Your car?
minxx car!
29. Your work?
robot
30. Your summer?
in a beach faraway fron here
31. When was the last time you laughed?
when i'm with him!

33. School?
okay

with love,
karlisyle lum

*a tough one!one word?aduihxx!*

a lil light shedded this way

first of all,

many apologies...
didn't know why i was so emo in the last post..

secondly,
i frigging need a new layout for this cranky baby bloggie of mine!

thirdly,
there's a whole long story on aabout why i have been really down*still am*


i never really felt belong in anyway i am.even in my own family because i am never close to anyone particularly in my family especially my mom.i used to be daddy's girl but now he also has given up on me.Sad but true my own parents misunderstands me.I admit i for one am not the type that take the initiative to show my parents i care that i am a part of the family but they should know that that's how i am.i am never good in expressing my love,i take time.

my parents think that the only person that i care in this world is my B,min but do they really know the truth?i do care for him the most but he is not the only one that i care.it only looks that way because min was the only one who took time to bare with me and learn that i take time to express how i feel.he was the only one who understands.sometimes actions mean more than words.everysince i came K.L,the only person that really knows me inside out is Min.Daddy said that he gave up a long time trying to talk to me,Maybe it is my fault but for one know is,my parents never made me feel really at home.i was always the outcast and the blacksheep.just because i am quiet at home doesn't mean i am that way.just because i am hot tempered at times doesn't mean you have the right to label me straight as the worst daughter.i have my flaws but behind those flaws there are more goodness than badness.

i wasn't too sure about blogging anymore because Min got offended the other day and he told me that he doesn't like me telling the whole blogworld about both our problems.Yes i admit i was selfish.Things wasn't too good for us since we were in K.L.we been suffering from communication breakdown.Finally,we spoke out and i hope that things will brighten up for us because i know this time it is real.i know you are the one.you're it.my now and future.trust me,me and him are just friends.i won't run from you,B okay?:)

the next subject,i don't really wish to point out as it might worsens things between us.i am so sorry to my dear friends.it may have seem like i have forgotten you but i read your blogs almost daily to keep in touch with your life.i really feel like i have been forgotten by you guys.i am sorry k?thanks to joe,hui fern,ker,aimi and ju vin for letting me know i am not forgotten by you guys!heartxx you guys!

i don't think there's anything left to say anymore so i'll just let you continue with the tag.
bfore that,
am DESPERATE for a new:
-blog skin for my baby bloggie here
-brain for my upcoming exam
-makeover!wanna learn how to make up,anyone wanna help?

with love,
karlisyle lum

Friday, August 22, 2008

camouflage

sometimes i think i am just pretending that there are people caring for me
sometimes i feel like i am so forgotten
sometimes i lie to myself i fit in well


the truth is
i am easily forgotten
i am just a blend to the wallpaper in their life
i am no where important in their life


p.s might be deleting this blog soon...find it so utterly useless..

with much sadness in her eyes,
karlisyle

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

love really does takes courage

i really have to agree with beffie
love can be so scary
mind you even if love is a beautiful thing
it has its fair share of cons

when being in love,you have to constantly worry about getting hurt
getting cheated or worst still cheating on the one you love

when i ask someone to define LOVE,
he just turn and look at me and the eye and said it cannot be be defined

if i was asked to define love,
i will just take a look into minxx eyes and tell him he is the full definition of love for me

there are times we will take the one we love for granted
always getting angry and jealous
scolding and ignoring for no reason at all

love is a word
but it is not consist of one thing only
it is a wholeload more

when in love,
one must enable to resist temptation to cheat and lie
one must resist to hate so much
one must resist its temper
ome must be ready to be patience and tolerant

with wholeload truck of love,
karlisyle lum

to my friend dalvin who sadly will not read this!

VIN,
i only started getting use to you bullying me and now you say u might be leaving
i hope that you will change your mind
but whatever it is
i will respect and bare with your decision!

-why is life always like that/taking a while all of the treasures of my life?-

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

give me a reason to smile

don't get me wrong..i am happy with him..
i am just so stress with this robotic life
i have not been the old kiasu-hardqorking karlisyle
i lost it...
all i wanna do is graduate faster and just work...
i am so tired of facing the book and figuring out how to score..
shouldn't i be entitled to more happiness and fun in my life?

mum and dad thinks i play too much since i am in KL
yes i admit it
assestment is coming..
then comes along parent-teacher day
haish...

i am so stress...
3 essays waiting for me..
LAN presentation
moral studies folio
malysian studies exam

aaaargh.......

i miss those old good times...
those times where studies wasn't my priority..
no more screwing up karlisyle...

be like your two seniors who scored straight a's for a-levels..
i know u can do it...
i don't give a damn if u think i can't...
just because u can't doesn't mean i can't...

thanks for waking me up,terence
though u made me so stress..
he told me that mostly everyone studies constantly daily..
haish...


with love,
karlisyle lum

Monday, August 11, 2008

where i fell in love with you all over again..

last saturday and sunday...
as for the people who cares about me or have been reading my blog,you ought to notice that i have been very down these few days...this is because:
1.i and minxx have not been getting along well since we came to study in K.L
2.i am friend-sick*is there such word?*i really miss all my friends!






here are the pictures in GENTING that we manage to snapshot:
ducks..
hens/chickens..

poodle...damn cute!b,can i get one?
erm..what are these type of dogs called d arh?oMG...general knowledge getting poorer!
damn huge this dog!ain't kidding!that's why we took a far snapshot!
the female dogs!

before snow world...
minxx sisters and the guys insist on watching this..BEYOND...erm...some famous rocker band back in those days..
the crowd waiting for the stars to come out!
the poster!
the 988 fm DJ which was intresting and funny

here i present you the beyond members...some famous Hong Kong band..like i said...back in those days where you and i were still playing 'masak-masak'!


me drinking the barli that minxx insisted i have a few sips..
posing for minxx!
me with mummy agness...

daughter and mom in law!oops...

introducing the new addition to our family:
mr pinky!MY new baobei
front pose
semi-side pose
top pose
isn't he so adorable?minxx bought it for me!hehe..i manja with him mar!it was so cute!couldn't resist...i wanted to buy all 10 that was there!aargh...from LOvely lace..
my turn:








quoted by beffie:it is a must to be QAWAII!
my b driving us back:
muka PENAT!so kesian him but what to do...i drive to slow...even joe said 80 km on highway melampau!
sleepy b!i kiss you back!
i am so glad things are getting better between us..i admit that there were times in this past 2 months that i almost give up on our relationship..thanks for holding me on...i love you,b!
p.s:this is the first family trip i had that i didn't cry..
p.s2:sorry that i did not upload any snowworld pics but cameras were not allowed in!
with love,
karlisyle lum
-IT IS WHEN YOU HAVE LOST OR ALMOST LOST,THEN ONLY WE CAN APPRECIATE ITS BEAUTY!-






the past week..

last friday....
at YOSHINOYA in one utama...

we went there for dinner after buying his daddy's birthday pressie!


minxx sulking cause i was not in the pic with him..yeah that's his school uniform!
both our rice..mine with the dark sauce..
minxx set!it only costs rm 14.90++..worth it lar!delicious summore!






last thursday...

at the vegetarian shop since my friend Vin is vegetarian every thursday!

part of the economics family!


retarded karlisyle in between terence and ryan..

steve,lina,kavitha,dalvinder!
lok,sin hang,ash,terence
the vegetarian siu ngap...vegetarian duck
my favourite dish...vegetarian char siew!

vegetarian wan tan!










last wednesday....

purposely dressed up formally for my LAN presentation but then got postponed due to insufficient time...haish...


















TWO WEEKS AGO....




AT THE CHICKEN RICE SHop

b reading the menu!the special merdeka set
the rattan chicken that holds the fork and spoon for the guest!
me stealing some snapshots a while
Ahaa..
our food...it was DELICIOUS..we ordered the special merdeka celebration set for two...had their ayam sos satay that was nice and had their grilled chicken..quite reasonable also the price..rm39.90++




Wednesday, August 6, 2008

F.Y.I

SOME bullshits you guys ought to know about:
1.if someone ever told you that let go of your loved ones and if they really are meant to be for you,they will come back eventually...
-why bother having a relationship then?my as well i just wait for someone until he comes to get married and before that have some jolly times!so it's crappy...

nothing can be suceeded without a single effort put into place...


2.girls are into money
-just because we are havy spenders but that doesn't mean we are ome gold diggers..
to be pampered once in a while with your showered gifts are fine but don't overdo it...as if you can buy me that easily...i am not to be bought but to be earned!


3.public transport is GOOD..
-if you have never tasted our Malaysia's KTM or rapid KL busses before especially on peak times,don't you dare come and tell me what you think of our Malaysia's public transport!









*ALERT*
1.i am so not JEALOUS of my sister having a richer boyfriend than me...please get it into your skull...i am not be satisfied with MONEY...*my dad's thinks i'm jealous!*wtf?!
-i have the BEST boyfriend for me already!i am not going to compare him to anyone just cause of wealth status!he treats me well enough financially!so why should i bother getting all FIRED up about his wealth issue?

i am going to repeat myself once and for all...

do not FARKING...FARKING comapre me with any of my sisters...and do NOT farking think my boyfriend is incapable of making me happy!
*now i'm PURELY pissed!*

money does not buy happiness...i know how cliche it is but at least i know i'm not that to be bought by money...as for you guys who are gold diggers,i have nothing to say except at least treat him better lar since you are already FREAKING taking all his money!

my mood:purely pissed...
like what my LAW lecturer said...
people will always get fired up when they are accused of something that is not true!



-the rights of silence does not apply to me!i shall fight and deny to the end of any FREAKIN ridicolous accusation!-

*i am perfectly happy with my B for now!*

with tantrums,
karlisyle lum

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

just wanna..........................................

i shall just be stronger to fight this war..
i shall believe in myself
i shall tell myself i am better than this
i shall just get use to getting misunderstood all the time
i shall just cry silently*how is it silent when i am ranting it here now?*
i shall muster up all my strength to live life the way i WANT..














why am i always being told to do the exact opposite of what i really wanted to do in the first place?

with emo0ness,
karlisyle lum


-i shall be gone from this fake pretending life i have and have a great comeback or should i not?-

Monday, August 4, 2008

TAGGED by EMILY and MATILDA and KERRYN!!

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 2.33pm
Name: KARLISYLE LUM ERN AI
Sisters: 3
Brothers: none
Shoe size: 4-5
Height: easy wan...5ft!
Where do you live: currently in Kota Damansara,PJ
Favourite drinks: erm...lots but i'll have to go with world cup!
Favourite breakfast: anything that minxx cook when he comes over
Have you ever been on a plane: yup
Swam in the ocean: yupxx but had never done it again...don't really enjpy getting sticky body!
Fallen asleep in school: yupxx and got embarassed as i was class monitor!
Broken someone's heart: definitely!gotten mine hurt as well!
Fell off your chair: yes and i hate it when people think it's so funny!
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: i always make people wait all night long for my call because i'm sulking or whatso ever
Saved e-mails: rarely
What is your room like: pink and messy!
What's right beside you: my handbag.,some papers and my new pinky!
What is the last thing you ate: kai si hor fun for breakfast and golden sandwich for lunch...a bar of snickers for snack
Ever had chicken pox: yup..had it same time witrh Kirst!got new barbie's and soft toys!
Sore throat: most of the time!strepsils are my best friend!
Stitches: nooo.
Broken nose: nope
Do you believe in love at first sight: yupxx but it rarely happens!love is not that simple!it needs nurturing!
Like picnics: not really.but depends who is it with!
Who was the last person you danced with: with minxx in my room!slow dance!
Last made you smile: at Genting with minxx
You last yelled at: minxx for making ,me feel so torn!
Today did you:

Talk to someone you like: nope...talked to my b ny!someone i love!
Kissed anyone: not yet but i'll be seeing minxx later!oops
Get sick: just a lil flu!
Talked to an ex: nope...
Miss someone: yes and i am still missing him..but i miss my friends who are on break now!
Best feeling in the world: when i am lying next to him!
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yes...used to be bear bear minxx now is pinky!my new piggy!
Who do you really hate:people who judge me before giving me a chance!
What time is it now: 2.44pm

Randoms :
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: yes
Q: Do you have any siblings: yupxx
Q: Do you want children: yes..a perfect pair!
Q: Do you smile often: nowadays..
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: it depends!
Q: Are your toenails painted: no...can never find the time!
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: no one else!mine is comfy enough...just missing my b essence!
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: white with mickey printing!
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday: watching SHAOLIN GIRL and it was dissapointing!.
Q: I can't wait till: i am free from studying studying !
Q: When did you cry last: erm..last thursday night!
Q: Are you a friendly person: erm..should be..
Q: Do you have any pets: not here in PJ but in Kuantan

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: at bandar utama eating lunch and studying for his exam tomorrow!
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? :yes!he will always mean something!
Do you sleep with the TV on?: nopexx
What are you doing right now? : this SUPER SUPER long tag!
Have you ever crawled through a window?: not that i can remember of any!
Can you handle the truth? : sometimes..can be fragile at times!
Are you closer to your mother or father?: ...............used to be daddy's girl!
Who was the last person you cried in front of? :who else?
How many people can you say you've really loved?: plenty but not really good in expressing love to em!
Do you eat healthy? : trying to..
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: yup..
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?yes many times!
How often do you go to church?very rarely!two months once?or less than that?hahaha

If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? my B and my BBF beffie!
Are you loud or quiet most of the time? loud!
Are you confident? : ocassionally!


5 things I was doing 10 years ago..(1998)-
-studying
-definitely not doing this tag
-having fun!
-hating guys
-playing!

5 things on my to-do list today:
-update my blog
-change beffie link*or should i not since she didn't inform me though i am her BBF!ISH*
-read my law notes for tomoorow's class
-do my accounts homework finish
-pasar malam with minxx later

5 snacks I enjoy:
-chips(chachos)
-mcflurry
-kebab king
-snickers
-sweets


5 people I tag:
anyone but me!

skinned alive

the first thing i'm gonna rant here is....
i miss you,b!
i really miss you,b!
now i really really miss you,b!

last saturday me and minxx were going through one of those bad times couples usually have...
somehow i feel it's the breaking point to a whole new level of our relationship
he unfortunately became the victim of my tears!

last saturday after dinner at YUEN'S,i suddenly felt like crying and telling him how i really feel about us
so i waited till we were back in the apartment
i told him everything i feel..
at first he..no...we both took it calmly but after that he told me about how he feel..
tehn i suddennly got F****ED up for no reason
i made him angry and just as about he was about to leave,i hug him and cried!
i cried all night long..telling him how much i need him and love him..


then i eventually fell asleep and he cried silently!
he feels bad for making me feel so suffocated!

on sunday we had yummy food!
i'll post the pics...
we had the chicken rice shop chicken rice for lunch..
dinner we had a&w combination with the waffle shop classic waffles!
the waffles are AH-MAzzzing!
but the place is CURSED for me and minxx!
we had our next fight there!
a silly fight actually!
a fight that started because of ice cream!
long story..

what's important is i'm happy with him now!
i love him...
i don't know whether fate is oURS because no one can really be that sure of it...
but i know for one that i'll fight on on my llast drop of strength tpoo fight for the fire we have!
the special bond we share..

i don't know why i'm having backache!
might be going GENTING this week to celebrate 2nd daddy's birthday!
the other mr KONG in my life!

i miss him
i miss the old times
i miss the sweet romantic times

p.s i still haven't found the portal of discovery towards eternal happiness!
Until then,i'm just gonna have to preteNd i'm HAPPY!


with love,
karlisyle lum