Tuesday, December 23, 2008

away again

i'll be leaving for kuantan tomorrow night and i shall leave my baby lapppie and focus on studying..exams after the hols..

well me and my BB gonna be back in kuantan so anyone?



until then,
merry christmas and happy new year people!
toodles..have a great finale of 08 aite!
love,
karlisyle lum!

Friday, December 19, 2008

paramore-my heart

hey,i apologised to people that reads this blog that i been away..have been really caught up with twilight books and shopping..i been slacking so much..these days it is almost predictable as to where to find me..i am either in one utama or at my b's place reading..i am finally down to the last book,breaking dawn..

i super love eclipse
but super duper love twilight and breaking dawn..
was quite disturbed by how new moon failed my interest..

i guess how proven the sayings are where:first is always a charm and saves the best for the last..seriously the first and last book was the best...

i been so drawn into fantasy that i wish someone will suck me back to reality..
i am still going strong with my b..i love him..

a love note for my b,
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
that I've fallen down
and I can't do this alone
Stay with me
this is what I need
Please
i am nothing now
and it's been so long
since I've heard a sound
the sound of my only hope
this timeI will be listening
This heart it beats
beats for only you
Oh this heart it beats beats for only you
my heart is yours
my heart is yours

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY 19 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY,B!luv ya!

boredom

with love,
karlisyle lum

Saturday, December 13, 2008

tagged by hui fern(bella's lullaby)

Instructions:
a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"> miley cyrus-7things

2. How would you describe yourself?> katy perry-i am still breathing

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?> one republic-say all i need

4. How do you feel today?> sum41-with me

5. What is your life's purpose?> jay chou-kai bu liao kou(what does this even mean?)

6. What is your motto?> flo rida ft will.iam-in the ayer

7. What do your friends think of you?> sixpence none the richer-kiss me(i know beth feels this way bout me)

8. What do you think of your parents?> secondhande serenade-stranger(yup sometimes i feel that i am always being misunderstood by them!)

9. What do you think about very often?> leona lewis-the best you never had

10. What is 2+2?> kenny g-endless love(yup i agree a family of 4 always is the most balance)

11. What do you think of your best friends?> secondhand serenade-maybe(lol)

12. What do you think of the person you like?> jay chou-love before time

13. What is your life?> neyo-go on girl(so true cause i am pushing myself daily to go through and be stronger!)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?> katy perry-hot and cold(seriously?)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?> neyo-closer(wakaka..so hit jackpot!)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?>shontelle-t shirt(so not true cause it'll be thanks for the memories by fall out boys-me and minxx first kiss song!)

17. What will they play at your funeral?> stacie orrico-strong enough(wow,people gonna cry their eys out then!)

18. What is your hobby/interest?> avril lavigne-innocence(?)

19. What is your biggest fear?>fall out boy-i don't care(yey!)

20. What is your biggest secret?> paramore-decode

21. What do you think of your friends?> neyo-miss independant(quite accurate)

22. What will you post this as?> cartes's burwell-bella's lullaby

it's quite an interesting and simple tag so,
I tag:
-caroline
-annabeth
-genise
-ju vin
-aimi

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

help

this is gonna be a super short post..as i am still unfamiliar with the new blogskin that i had my friend uploading for me..i don't know how to play around with it yet so all i have to do is ask her tomorrow at college then ny i'll edit back everything!


toodles,
with love,
karlisyle lum..


p.s..special thanks to GENISE who did this blogskin fo rme..love ya much!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

running away

i guess i have to kkep up with my promise..i knew i said i will not be emoing anymore..and let me mind you that this post is not really that emo..



something happen today..

i wonder if she will ever do the same if the person wasn't her but me..

i felt that despite the years of unhappiness she gave me,it was just a way of her showing me how to be better in life..

i finally saw today to what extent love can go..

i sw the tears and dissapointment in her eyes but yet she still defended abd protected..

she rather believes in lies that to know the truthful truth..

she rather force herself to accept what she has been against for her life..

she rather help than see lives being screwed up..





how many years left we have together till death separates us..

how many more years should i hold her against for all the sadness she brought into my life..

i finally learn today the true meaning of forgiveness..

is going against your will and accepting..



with love,

appreciate who and what you have in life before it is gone..
karlisyle lum:p

p.s:being positive in life brings about more meaning to live..:)

stole(just realised carol tag me once i was done with the post!)

well i pretty much stole this tag from beth since it is quite interesting and simple to do...so i am pretty much gonna end this week's posts with this tag..

p.s-the parents are here...

here it goes:
Instructions
**************************************************
Bold the statements that are true to you.Italicize the statements that you wish were true.( green )Leave the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.
**************************************************
I’m 170cm++ tall.

I don’t know what I want at the moment.

I’m not happy.

I hate my friends.

I hate my life.

I hate my grades.

He drives.

I’m bored of driving.

I have a white handbag.

I love dancing.

I go clubbing every week.

Shopping is bullshit.

I have a tattoo of a star !

I got my navel pierced.

I have friends that take drugs.

90% of my friends smoke.

I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up is rather nasty.

I am studying fashion.

I have a business running.

I hate cartoons.

I love chick flicks.

I hate someone.

I'm going out at least three times this week.

I have 10 Guess handbags.


I love my sister.

I buy CLEO every month.

My parents don’t know about my blog.

I have an iPod.

I don’t have faith in the current “one”.

My school mates know about my blog.

I wanted to be a fashion designer.

I love rock emo bands.

I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.

I’m a rebel.

I’m starting to ♥ wearing dresses.

I don’t believe in love.

High school’s filled with drama.

My parents have faith in me.

A blogger bitched about me before.


I have bought a pair of shoes this month.

I hate sports.

I heart Italian food.

I hate meeting new people.

I hate nail polish.

The mother bear gives me hugs.

People should start appreciating me.

High school was the worst time of my life.

I have red hair.

Mid Valley is my second home.


I have my own car.

I’m a guy.

I’m scared of my Biology exam.

I hate vacations.

We’ll last.

I believe in long distance relationships.

I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.

I’ve robbed an old lady.

I’m starting to like applying make-up.

I was a tomboy.

At times I think I still am a tomboy.

I love bitching about people behind their backs.

I still have a best friend.

I have a cat.

I hate surprise parties.

I hate planning parties.

I’m hot. (xD)

I’m a sinner.

I like attention.

I’ve got a DS light.I have a Wii.

I cannot live without musicVideo games are a waste of time.

I miss the father bear.

I love being in love.

I know how to cook.

I have 100% freedom.

Boys are assholes.

I hate Math.

I love horror films.

I love my brother.

I’m happy with what I have.

I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.

My old friends keep in touch with me.

I don’t read newspapers.

The news is such a waste of time.

Blogging is a waste of time.

I hate animals.

I've traveled to over 6 different countries.

I can’t live without make-up.

I'm satisfied.

I curse like a pirate.

I’m happy with my 11 year old car.

I hate people that are smart.

I love GREEN Apple Juice.

I can’t drink for nuts.

I’ve got a new phone.

I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.

I love swimming.

I haven’t worked out since March.

I think I’m fat.

I love my friends and family.
.
..
Tagging:
Kerryn Lum ern Hsing,my Twin
Kong sze Min,My B
and GENISE,My college babe.

with love,
karlisyle lum

Saturday, December 6, 2008

guess

i am feeling a lil grumpy..i wanna be happy for those people around me who can be so positive and so lucky to have so many good people around their life..but at the same time i can't help but feel a lil twinge of jealousy..

i am not being a bad person or what but it's just tht sometimes i can help but ponder and wonder why i can't get the exact good things in life?

but this year i learnt to be stronger..i don't show my emotions easily to people..i just rant it out here for my sake and people think i am not strong enough..i felt betrayed by two most closest people this year but yet i told myself to stay strong..i face with my problem and move on..

i no longer wanna dwell in the past where i'll only get hurt..i learnt that in this world never trust anyone 100% except yourself..the most important thing is accepting people..that's all..

so i know i been too amo and ungrateful towards my life this whole year..been complaining since the beggining of college..well guess what i am going to try to be more positive and share with you the happy times..

p.s:should i FINALLY get the SKINNY t BABY pink camera?

with love,
karlisyle lum..

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

edward cullen,be mine?

i am seriously crushing on him..feel so guitly towards min..i dreamt of edward cullen two nights in a row when i was sleeping next to min..felt so guilty..haha..but i really think he is so charming..the funniest thing was i kutuk him when i foirst saw him in E!..i told jie, why they chose someone so not good looking but at the end i was charmed by him too..but for now i am only enjoying him as edward cullen not as robert pattinson.
he somehow manage to look like chuck bass at certain angle in the movie...

i seriously don;t like to be dissapointed that is hwy somehow i always do things around..i watch the movie first and then only read..emily was dissapointed with the movie and jie also..guess it beats to read the novel first huh?

well some girls hated the show as they said that it was too u nrealistic but i somehow disagree cause aren't movies then only place where we can only place all our wildest imagination..falling in love with a vampire..that is not somewhat crazy to me..he is like human only thing is he craves for blood..but u can see how he himself finds it hard to accept himself as a vampire cause he looks at himelf as a monster..

i find the movie to be awesome and to everyone who is not so open minded about a ove should seriously watch it..i'm up for a second round of twilight so feel free to tag me along with u..

the moral of the story about love is that it has no barriers..we should not be ashame to show who we love even we are different..no matter how fiffernt we are,the fact is how different one can get from another..

like ie. if a black and a white falls in love,what is so different besides our culture and skin color/
someone from a rich and poor background?
someone who is known for his bad past and someone with good reputation?
someone who doesn't speak mandarin and someone who is mandarin educated?
someone who loves pink and someone who loves black?


love should not be diffrentiate by this means..love is such a beautiful and simple thing that was made complicated by us humans..love should be genuine and not be take account for any diffrences..we should accept and love them for who they are..

though my b and i grew up in differnt backgrounds and we might not even communicate in the same languages at home but isn't all this just a small hiccup that can be overcome?

i'll let Kong sze min be my edward cullen..i am satisfied at this point..he can drain every drip of blood in me for all i care..haha..i know so cheesy kan?


i wish to draw this closeto him and show him how much i love him..





i wish that he'll look me in the eye ans tell me how important i am in his life..hold me tight and never let go..
with loads and heaps of love,
karlisyle lum..
p.s..your edward cullen might be just round the corner..it's the spirit of giving month so take note!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

she says i need anger management and i agree so

well i guess the last post create a havoc but i akkready settke it with her and things are fine..
well i am at a point at my life where i feel like no one is really true to me..
i often wonder whether minxx will leave..

it feels like it s just a matter of time when everyone will leave me...
yes i am emo and insecure...
i admit it...
i never try to be positive in a negative situation..

i wish sometimes i can just read people's minds and know how they really feel..

i wish life could be so much simpler..

with love,
karlisyle

p.s apology again for that unwantd post yesterday..it was written out of anger..

anger managemt anyone?

Saturday, November 29, 2008

BEFFIE dear,u know what i mean!

damn benggang!really really really supre duper benggang!
why does she always have to do it to him?
she repeatedly does it and not have a single feeling of guilt?
treating him like a spare tyre...
i mean u think love is a game where u can off and on?
doesn't mean every guy that try to get you though you have a boyfriend is so brave and worthy of a chance to be with you..
if like that then what the F*** you want a steady realationship?
the worst thing is the other half does nothing but wait!aaargh.

i mean who am i to sibuk right?it's their life..
i know i'll be hated but the thing is something is wrong and i have to say it out..

what is the purpose if doing so?
attention?love?
love?if u tell me this is Love then i got nothing to say cause love is not an on and off game for you to play with..

love needs nurturing..
not when u feel like off-ing it u off it and the on it back once you are done playing with games..

if i were to take love the way you do..i would have dump my B a million times but why i didn't?
cause you have to make a stand in life and know aht you wnat and what is good for you...
doesn't mean if he make your heart flutters and he tells you he love you behind your bf back,he deserves a chance to be with you..
it is not even a fair fight for your bf...
he loved you and stayed by yourside all this while and you just dump him for a guy that showed up and he said a few sweet words..
maybe you are bored and need to spice up your life..
but repeatedly breaking up with him and going back to his arms at the end of the day is just plain unfair..
just because you know that he'll be there no matter what at the end waiting for you doesn't mean you should take him for granted like that..

that's all i can say..don't be such an arse..make up your mind..okay put it this way..imagine and put yourself in your other half shoes..how will it make you feel if he constantly leave you for another girl and gets back to you once he's done with the girl and misses you over and over again..you tell me...think again..what you are doing will eventually make him leave so make up your mind before he really LEAVES...

p.s-i am not responsible if anyone that reads this gets insulted or feels like i am directing this to them..i am just telling out how i feel about a live sitution i am seeing happening in life..


until then,
love thy neighbour and appreciate the ones you love,
with love,
karlisyle lum

it's funny how my life is..

a bunch of irony..
that's how i would love to describe my life...it's funny how every single one of us looks at how life is...
someone told me life is about waiting so why bother being impatient when u are made to wait..
someone told me life doesn't know why it treats u the way it is treating so it's best to look at the positive side..
someone told me is a piece of white cloth that you need to scribble on..
someone told me life is about falling and picking up the pieces all over again until you succeed..
someone told me life sucks and then you die..

i admit that if you don't fit in..it's your fault for not trying harder..i think life has its plans already..like who u meet and keep as friends for the rest of your life..it is fate that brought friendships together..do you believe in this too?

i think life is always fluctuating with its ups and downs like a boat in the middle of thesea..
when the boat is hit by the waves,it is going through a phase of danger and obstacles..
whe theboat is trailing along a peaceful stream of water of the sea,it is working together with the flow of the sea water..

life is weird in its way but yet cool..
life comes in a package..happiness and sadness..
life has its yin and yang..

i am really sad that i have to be separated from my good friend that i made in college...it's funny howfate brought us together to be friends..it started with feelings that were impossible to be united and it ended with a beautiful friendship..

i am so gonna miss you,mr Terence Spencer Tan...

a heart that wasn't for me,
a life that wasn't for us,
love that wasn't meant to be
friendship is the only thing that will keep us together..

love,
karlisyle lum

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

read between the lines

hey people,i'm back..not sure if this will last anymore..i mean with me being strong..i act like i don't hear them saying those things..i act like they are not evil glaring me..i'm gloing through so much right now..i am feeling so guilty for indulging into my mates blogs today instead of studying..but hey i really feel so tired..i sometimes wish that life would be simplier..i don't have to always work so hard to move to the next stage of my life..i am not blaming anyone..believe me..i understand the financial pressure my parents are in..i accept my fate..i don't blame them..they are already working their asses off to put food into our mouth..i swear in anywhere i am not complaining that my parents are not doing the best..in fact they are the best..although we are just middle class and i don't really have the luxury of choosing the college i wanna be in,yet you parents still give us a reasonable sum of allowance and a additional debit and credit card...thank you...

but it's just that sometimes i wonder if this burden i am carrying on my shoulders to succeed and to get a scholarship for my degree can be lifted upon..just wish life could be simpler..someone might come and offer to pay for my education..tha't's the best gift i can ever have..i mean for anyone kan?but anyway enough of this ranting..

and oh Ya BETH,i am so sorry for making you worried dear but i am trying to stay positive...the grass is always greener on the other side right?at least that is what i heard..


sometimes i wish that i could just reach into my heart and show him how much i love him...

first tag's up by caroline tsau again..this girl must really love me..:p

1. What’s your ambition?real ambition? well ain't gonna lie about it..i wanna be a fashion designer and own my own line of clothes but too bad i can't draw..

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?both also play an equally major part of my life.

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?i no longer think about this..cause death won't solve anything..

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?well i used to have alot..now i have insufficient..

5. How many babies you want?2

6. Favorite perfume/fragrance?the DKNY apple one.

7. What do you think will be your greatest downfall?giving up without trying.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?yup..that's what love is all about..it is forever.

9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)
1. loves me more that he loves himself.

2. honest about everything to me.

3. mekes me his priority in life.

4. street smart and wise in making decisions.

5. accept my flaws.

6. respects me

7. knows how to handle my tamper

8.knows me inside out.

9.a family type of guy.

10.cares for me

11what are your bad habits?nibbling my nails and shopping.

12 anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?sorry if u think that i get into your face all the time but if you can't accept me for who i am then beat it..i got a life to go on with.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?well said by caroline..onlycherishthose who cherish our friendship in return. there's a price for everything. which includes friendship.

14. What do you hate most in others?backstabbers and two face people..not being able to be true even to their ownself..

15. What do you crave for the most currently?chocolates

16. What features/quirks do you find totally sexy on a guy/girl?well his smile and his eyes.and a mole on the lips.

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.she is one good friend that i cherish.

18.What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?bought two tube dresses..one from forever 21!:)

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?hot sexy 28 wife and mama with loads of happiness and hopefully $ also!

20. Whats your guilty pleasure? (something you usually wouldn't admit out loud)staring at my B when he is fast asleep next to me in his arms.

i tag:

-emily

-ker

-my b,kong sze min!

-hui fern

-shwu teng

-aimi




























The rules are:
1. You own a blog where you are going to post this to
2. You currently feel bored
3. You won't skip any question
4. You're Alive
5. You are going to send this to 5 friends to fill these up

Firstly describe the current you in 5 words:
happy.glutton.living life to the fullest.being loved.SCREWED up!

Five things you love about life:
being loved by minx.being accepted.having good friends.shopping.tv dramas.

5 Famous people you'd love to meet:
not to sure yet..will let u know if i have any in the future..

5 Movies you love:
NOTEBOOK.PRIDE AND PREJUDICE.THE CINDERELLA STORY.SAW.007.

5 professions you'd love to have:
DOCTOR.FASHION DESIGNER.BEING A MILLIONAIRE'S WIFE.SINGER.ACTRESS.

5 Best Authors:
YUP i too read randomly.

5 Inspirations:
life itself.myself.my parents.sucessful people.money.

5 Favourite stuff:
my clothes.my phone.my baby lappy.my future pink cybershot camera.my money in the bank..muahaha..

5 things you hate:1.People misunderstanding and misjudging.2.Being left out.Being rejected.Being dissapointed.3.To be lectured.4.Crowded places.5.Being push to do someting i don't want!

5 favourite places:
anywhere there is minxx.home where ker sleeps with me and kuantan.sg wang and one utama!

5 girls/guys you are currently liking:
guys.
meor.terence(gonna miss ya so much..no more heart to heart talks!.ash emmanuel.selvan(miss him.david.
note:my b minxx not in the list cause i LOVVVVEEE him..not like!:p

girls.
caroline.Kerryn.ju vin.siu fan and annabeth(i merajuk so i put u last too!)

.5 Favourite people to chat with:
my b.ker.beth(although she didn't put my name:(].terence.siu fan.

5 things you wana improve more about yourself:1.have more confidence. Stop having stage frights! AH.2.being less sophiscated.3.deal with problems and not run away.4.Not to be selfish and bad tempered.5.try to be more understanding.

5 Things you would take to a desserted Island:
B.my family.beth(then at least i'll die with the people i love)lots of good food and my hand sanitizer!

5 places you wana visit:New York,Hong Kong,london,home(kuantan)paris.

5 Things you really want:
a new handbag!the one beffie got from roxy!do u mind dear?haha.a new handphone.desperately want the new pink skinny T camera.new clothes.new brains and will power!

.5 Songs that make you cry the most:1.Avril's.

5 Most fashionable friends according to you:
-myself:p.my sisters.caroline.beffie.

5 people you love the most:B.Family.God.friends.people creating clothes.

5 impossible dreams:work hard and nothing will be impossible.

5 Dreams in the future:
rich and sucessful.married happily.a more relaxed life.provide good life to the ones i love.have my own puppy.

now send this to 5 people:
Gary.genise.aimi.ju vin.anyone.

with love,
karlisyle lum.

will be signing off again for this week..having moral exams next wednesday!

Monday, November 17, 2008

sometimes i see past through all the good things and complain so much..i should be so blessed that i even receive blessings from mum and daddy for dating minxx..

thank you dad and mum!never realise how open you guys were..you guys even treated him to our family trip and considered him family!thank you parents!



with love,
miss you b!
karlisyle lum

time flies

sometimes when i wake up i find it so hard to belive that another day gone and it's the start of a brand new day..we went for langkawi already..nothing to look forward anymore this year..so fast it is going to be the end of 2008..i don't know whether i should be glad or otherwise..it feels like there are still so many things left to do..first of all definitely study more 2nd lose/shed these extra 5kg i gained in KL..haha..yes i know it's funny but i put on 5kg since i was in KL..chinese new year's round the corner so i have to speed up my diet!3rdly change to be a better GF..so many things left for 2008..on the other hand i am super looking forward to 2009 cause 2008 sucked so bad!i only had 20% of good times this year including the happy times in LAngkawi..nothing went well in 2008..

Goodnews:
Daddy:"even if your AIRASIA college offers you a scholarship,you won't stay and do your degree?"
ME:"but i'll only have 3 people as my uni mates cause no one does accounting degree in ATC.."
Mommy:"It's enough for her d one year there..give her experience real college/uni life!"
ME(talking inside myself):"Thank God she understands!what my mum meant is time for me to get a chance to experience campus life!"yey!

badnews:
i am not true to friends in college cause i feel like i have no one to trust there...i am always lying to them when i don't want to join them for activities..i open up to them already..believe me i have but maybe like what my Friend,Genise said:we just don't have the 'jodoh' TO BE FRIENDS..
-i am giving up my once in a lifetime opportunity to be the helper in DIC(DISTRICT INTERACT CONFERENCE) cause i really feel like i need to just lay low for the rest of the year and make less people annoyed or jealous..





THE SELF
[01] Real name: KARLISYLE LUM ERN AI...=)...

[02] Nickname:Sayang,Baby sayang,dear, kar,kari ayam,pink princess,ern ai,karlai,belinda,shorty,si kecil

[03] Married: soon hopefully..in 5 years time?

[04] Zodiac Sign: the twin sign:GEMINI.

[05] Gender: Totallly effin loving to be a girl.

[06] Age: 18 plus.

[07] High school: Sekolah Anda Belajar Sendiri(see the bold alphabet!)

[08]college:Advance Tertiary College(atc or better known as airaisa college!)

09] Height: 150cm..ain't embarassed to be short..

[10] Weight: soon to be 45kg again!

[11] Do you like yourself:i have a love-hate relationship with myself.

.[12] Piercings: a Pair..one on each side..all things in life come in pairs!

.[13] Right or left: total righty!.

[14] Are you a freak: depends.

[15] Hair: long!and hoping for it to only get llonger!

[16] Skin:fair skin with potholes face.

[17] Allergic: steam prawns.

[18] What are you doing now: doing this tag and planning to watch the sisterhood of traveeling pants next!

[19] What will you do 1 hour later: slacking..hate studying..

[20] What will you do 10 years later: i'll be one smoking hot mama with two kids hopefully..living happily with ny B!

THE FAMILY


[21] Live with : weekdays:Jie and Kerryn
weekend:min and his sis and grandma!

[22] Siblings(included you): 4

[23] Eldest: Kirsteen.[24] Youngest: My only baby sis, Katricia.

[25] Love/hate your family: Love em but suck at showinh it!

[26] You found your another half: well i am sure i found him laready but the only thing left is God's blessings!

[27] If yes, who is he/she:KONG SZE MIN

[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: don't have to answer this..the only flaw in min and me's r/ship is the countless times we fight!

[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 2 and hopefully to be the last one this time.

[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): well..once i guess..

[31] Anyone woo you before(0-10000): sure la..when u are young and decent looking sure got wolves that will come after!aduihxx...

[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: yes..surely..ain't no perfect person!

[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: flirt with another guy behind his back..telling him white lies in order to prevent a fight!

[34] Ever argue with your other half: too much..uncountable..sometimes 3 times a day!

35] You with your other half since: last year..a week before my birthday!a year and a half with him now!

[36] Reasons you love your other half: if there would be reasons for loving him,it would be endless..i love him because he makes me feel loved..being able to know how love feels like is the gretest thing anyone can have in life!

[38] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: he wooed the i wooed..

[39] Ever think of marry he/she: only every night:p.

THE FRIENDS

[40] Your first best friend: AZREEZA AZNA..my first friend in assunta.

[41] Your first enemy: some teacher in primary school

[42] The friend you love the most(1 only): well i ove all my friends but the most i guess ANNABETH LEE

[43] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): HATE IS A STRONG WORD!.

[44] Your most beautiful girl friend: well like kerryn say all pun cantik la!tapi according to the guys it should be caroline!

[45] Your most handsome boy friend:my B and now he has turn into my lover!

[46] The kind of girl you hate the most: two face lying bitches.

[47] The kind of boy you hate the most: the ones that are too concern about themselves and rather doiitch their gf!

[48] You fall in love with your close friend before: not really

[49] Your best friend is your ex-lover: yup..annabeth officially Dump me and ask me to fight for her!

[50] If your friend is backstabbing you: CRY!

[51] If your friend betray you: Cry!

[52] If your friend woo your lover: she's a real bitch then..i'll just find someone better..a friend like her are trash!

[53] If your friend fall in love with you: nothing wrong..if the magnets are attracting close,i'll take him!

[54] If you fall in love with your best friend: lagi best..they always say that husbands are ought to be your lifetime bestfriend!

[55] Are you a good student? okay?.

[56] You always done your homeworks/assignments: depends on mood and whether i know how to do it!.

[57] The teacher/tutor you love the most: haha..all of em are the same je..

[58] Always late to school/college: always too early!one of the early birds!

[59] You love your seniors: mutual feeling!.

[60] Seniors who you love the most: -

[61] Your classmates good/bad: depends on when.

[62] Excellent result classmate: not goona say cause everyone will get perasan cause all pun freakin kiasu!

[63] Laziest classmate: all of us in the slacker category!

[64] Smart people: those with brains and willingness to be hardworking

[65] Stupid people: act on stupidity.

[66] Good looking people: hollywood stars!

[67] Ugly people: too many to list-not ugly just not good looking!.
the following questions are crappy..ain't gonna answer them!

[68] Funny people:

.[69] Cute people:

.[70] Bad people:

.[71] Honest people:

[72] Acting people:

.[73] You are what kind of people: i know who i am and what i am..enough said!


THE PREFER

[74] Lip or eyes: lips..kisses are important!

[75] Hugs or kisses: Both.

[76] Shorter or taller: taller!

.[77] Hesitant or spontaneous: balance of both.

[78] Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms.

[79] Listener or Talker: again balance of both.

[80] Romantic or rich: Romantic.xD

[81] Good husband or good father: 50% fathere 50% husband!

THE FUTURE

[82] Age to get marry: by 26

.[83] Numbers of kid(s): 2

.[84] Career: not to sure yet!.

[85] Salary: if possible a minimum of 5 figure salary!

[86] Retirement age: when i have enough $ to travel the whole worls with B!.

[87] Properties value: the higher the better...

[88] Wishes: all my wishes come true...

THE VICTIMS:
no one.
Tags too crappy!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

deprived

i need somewhere to scream out all these
i need some room to cry
i need some air to breathe..
i neeed some friends that i can trust in college
i need my old highschool friends
i need love
i need attention
i need a hug
i need a shoulder to cry on to..
i need a ear to borrow
i need a pair of eyes to realise that i am depressed..


really all i really need is
understanding from my effing college mates..


i hate college
i am at a point of my life i wish i could turn the table and justt walk off from college

i am so tired of being push around here and there..
i am so tired of being taken granted of..

one verdict:
i want OUT of this fucking fucking intake of mine!

with grudge and tears,
karlisyle lum

this pretty much sums up how i am feeling today..maybe it's the PMS u'll say but hell it is not..i had enough of being toyed and push..i am no idiot..it's my time now...u'll see and you can suck back those filthy words of yours..

Friday, November 7, 2008

goona end this week's post with this tag by miss CAROLINE again!:p

1. Your handphone model? Nokia 5610 eXPRESS mUSIC

2. A picture of it?can't draw for peanuts!

3. How many times did your phone get tortured by you?i didn't torture it but i just don't take good care of it!

4. Which part of your handphone you hate the most and why?i would have to say the middle musid slide pad..it always gets crack and i ahhve to send it for repair over and over again!

5. Like the most and why?the camera..3.2mgp..seriously one of the best camera built in in any nokia affordable phone!

6. If you're given a chance to change your phone colour, what would it be?no need to ask also all know wan ler..PINK!

7. What icon do you click the most?gallery and SMS

8. What else to change to become a perfect handphone?the colour of the phone to pink!and TOUCHSCREEN!

9. You need a handphone because I NEED to stay in contact with people and listen to the mp3 in the frigging bus!

10. . Who bought this phone for you?partly myself and partly daddy!

11. With the total amount of your handphone price, what could you buy other than phonesTONS of CLOTHES!!
12. Is your handphone model popular in the market?U BET...so common that i see 3 of us in the bus sometimes using the same phone!

13. Describe yourself as a smart handphone userya smart in drying up all of the credit and sleeping next to it everynight!

.14. How often do you charge your phone?everynight..i leave it to charge overnight summore.

15.Estimate, how long could your handphone survive?another couple of months before it needs to be sent to the phone hospital again!

16. Actually are you interested in phones?u can say so..i like changing phones if i have the dough.

17. Are you happy with you phone condition now?NOPE!bored with it!

18. Every morning, what is the first thing you do with your handphone?calling my BB to wale up!

19. Imagine someone takes your handphone away for 1 day. What would happen?haha..i would be super annoyed and bad mood!

20. No handphone no life. Agree or bullshit? well..i agree with it la..phone is necessary nowadays!

21. Tag 6 sexy fone users.KONG.....KERRYN..SHWU TENG..GARY..KERINA..NADIA YAYA

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

it's her BIRTHDAY!


i am back and i don't know what's wrong with my laptop...everything is underline all of a sudden..well i am not gonna let it affect this post of mine today..i am going to start off with something special for my dear 5 years best friend,annabeth lee and also a friend of mine since TAdika..

i don't know if you remember anot but we met during the last tadika concert we had..we were like 6 years old back then..we were not really close although we knew each other.until like we were 10 years old,we had thethe same circle of friends and from there we became good friends.i remember there was one point in my life where i was 10,i despise you for teasing me fat once in my autograph book(i know childish right?)anyhow up till 2002 we remain as good friends only.

Then,it happen...we got into the same highschool too and eventually we develop this sense of closeness and we drew nearer and nearer each day.i remember you were so popular in SABS and you were not ashamed of admiting me as your best friend..

Dear,do you remember the constant calls we make to each other house just to gossip and tell each other how we felt?do you remember your Dad got pissed at one point and lock the house phone top prevent you from making outgoing calls?

last resort,i collected cash from everyone that wanted to share to get you a handphone?cause i was so lonely without the daily routine calls..we got you a phone exactly like the one i was using back then..3315..i remeber so clearly your dark blue phone casing!

we were so close till form3..though throughout that years,we had misunderstandings but yet you were always my best friend..i remember most of the teachers in school kept saying..where there is annabeth,there is karlisyle..

Dear,i take this OPPORTUNITY to apologise to you for ditching you thos few years back..where i thought that Love was much better than our friendship..those countless of times you tell me you missed me but yet i still chose him over you..i am DEARLY really REALLY apologetic..i just want you to know that i was really childish back then..i shouldn't have done that to hurt you!

at least now,i got my feet back on the ground..whenever i am with you,i'll try to make full use of it because my life now is simply boring without you...

sounds so lesbo!wakaka..

Beffie is my pet name to u..i remember your giggle when i called you that!i really miss you here..you are the gretest friend anyone can have..you always try not to be judgemental towards others especially me...

you never left my life when i did that to you for love..you are the best..

i can't ever repay you for tthose times you borrowed to me to hear my woes..those times where i just wanted someone to listen and no say a thing..those times where i felt crappiest and you made me smile again..those times i was isolated,you were there for me every single day before i could pick up the pieces again..

those jolly good times when we went camping,interact conference..you following my family for church activities...the sleep over we had..when iw as alone and sad..you were there for me...

your family has also conr=tributed a part in my life especially your mom..she is the best person to gossip to cause she always know what to say at the right time..the times where she made me feel beautiful when i feel fat...

we are like SISTERS..though we are not...

the funniest fact about our friendship is..all my boyfriends like you first before me..haha..

the saddest part of our friendship was during your accident..i remeber i was all tucked into bed when your mum called me and tell me that you met an accident..i froze and was speechless for a sec..i wanted to rush there in my pyjamas but my mum and your mum,no use also..she asked me to get good rest to vist you tommorow..i remember being like a sakai i ran around the house with tears in my eyes..i was on the top pf my lungs that beth accident..my parents were so worried..that whole night our whole family prayed for you individually..i went inside my room..not knowing what to do cause i was so scared that i would have to lose you..kerryn came in and consoled me..the next morning at 7am i woke up and change my clothes...my mum was also so shock..having panda eyes i insist i wanna got to the hospital but ur mum said it's bit too early..so i went there at 8plus am...seeing you at that time,i wanted to cry..i don't know whether for joy that u are safe or because i saw you lying there so limb and weak and i was so helpless...but yet you stilll gave me a small laugh cause you were not allowed to giggle like usual due to the stitches!Thank God,it's over and you are safe!

Dear,i am no longer afraid to express this to you(since you are an adult d!18 mar!) but i don't want to lose you from my life...you are too good of a friend to be lose!you are practically the sister i never had...you go through everything with me..i miss growing up with you now that we are apart!but fear no cause i am going to try to keep this friendship of ours!

i LOVE you,Beffie!


a trip down memory lane:
remember this?your thanksgiving dinner!we camwhored so much!and we both look HOT!haha

1.sungai lembing..we climb up at hill and i almost died cause it was exhausting!
2.St.Thomas IU..i remember your dad was grounding you but yet because i kept persuading you,you came to teman me and the rest of us..
3.in the room at sungai lembing..you laughed so hard seeing this pic of your pig nose!haha

in my photo album..some memories we share!


1.in Physics tuition last year!nerdy you!
2.2005 SABS charity Dinner!
3.2004-NOOB!(sabs charity dinner!)
4.Ju vin's farewll lunch!


Next, A Tag From Her To Me!
1. Whats your ambition?
To be rich and sucessful in life..have kids and get married before 30..
2. How often do you think of commiting suicide?
erm i think thrice..had serious mum daughter problems!
3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
well let's put it this way..when i want the confidence,i won't have it..when i don't want i can be over confident at times!
4. How many babies you want?
2-perfect pair(a boy and a girl)
5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Duh,saw it in reality before!
6. What is your goal for this year?
not make enemies and make tons of friends and not screw up my life here in KL!
7. Do you believe in eternity love?
experiencing it now...with god and Minxx!
8. What do you say about your life now?
life pretty much sucks at this point..everything is not going on fine!
9. What feeling do you love most?
the joy of knowing that you have people that love and care for you!
10. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
wow you are asking to much beffie!well look at Kong sze min and tell me what you see in him..that's your answer!
11. Is there anything u wanna tell the ppl u hate?
Truce?
12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
well people say im not this kind cause i have a funny way of showing people how i care..i am not a good Keeping in touch friend but in my heart i remember every single soul that is my friend!
13. What does flying means to you?
Freedom!
14. What do you crave for the most currently?
Trust!
15. Where would ur ultimate vacation spot be?
anywhere in EUROPE!a romantic get away with him!
16. Describe the person who tagged u in 7 words.
i see true friendship in her eyes!(7 words!:p)
17. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
SHOPPING!
18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
old and droopy?COME ON...me:definitely hotter and older!haha!
19. What is your lucky number?
3 i think!
20. What is your favourite food?
wow too much to list
1but usualyy anthing sweet!
I shall tag:
-emily
-caroline
-hui fern
-gary

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

HSM

i'll try to update soon...
but for now all i gotta say is HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL was way better than HSM 2!
so for HSM lovers,get ur a ss out to the cinema.
it was seriously worth watching!
so people don't be lazy..
go watch it..

Troy was extremely sweet so whoever love fantasies,be sure bot to miss it!

QUOTED BY TROY:"my prom is whever you are"


until then,
with love,
toodles!

karlisyle lum

Sunday, October 26, 2008

seize

ignore the title..it has got nothing to do with the ost today..i don't know why the first thing i thought was the word seize..to much LAW maybe?

well here are 10 facts of my life happening now:
-1.will be watchin HSM3 today at TGC one utama at 6.30 pm with the sisters and minxx!
-2.am not really in a good mood nowadays!sorry B fpr being a mangsa!
-3.early morning i got an sms from the secretary of ATC rotaract to go for the interact conference on 21-23 nov.
-4.have exams after the holiday
-5.i am going for Aidan's(my nephew in law ) birthday bash at Centre Point McDonald!he's finally 2!
-6.i am at a point in my life where i feel like giving up everything and just be ignorant!
-7.i just came back from Melaka yesterday..
-8.MY bb has a blog alrerady!
-9 .i am still secretly worried about being with my B whole family.i feel left out at times
-10.i love BLOGSHOPPING!it's so fun!u should try it!


i gtg take a bath!

until then,
toodles!
karlisyle lum

Thursday, October 23, 2008

well today pretty much is an ordinary day except that my rents are coming later tonight or should is ay in the morning..they will only be reachin at 1am or 2...i don't know the real exact story of why are they comin so late but soon i'll know..



i am pretty upset about something..well it's kinda silly..really it is..i mean but i really need my freinds but mostly everyone is so dead in the blog world these days..here it goes..i am upset that my mum lost my birthday present to her..i got her a personalised..custom made if you can say..MUMMY keychain..there was a clay doll that was supposedly her..she accidentally drop it..she hung it on her phone..can't really blame her though cause u know la..it's small..but i am pretty upset..i feel like crying..stupid me right?i mean..i was really so excited about the present when i gave it to her..but now it's GONE..so is my heart..i feel so hurt..i know it is just a simple thing..



but well i never had a good relationship with her..NEVER..but yet i apologised to her the other day..and then i bought her that cute special gift for her birthday but yet she lost it..it seems like even fate do not wants us to be in good terms..why..



i feel so sad..but i know there's nothing that i can do..thanks for reading this..it helps me alot already that you guys express your concern by reading this!thanks!



with love,

karlisyle lum

tagged by her again!:) miss carol this for u!

1. Would you marry for money?
a definite Noooo...UNLESS we face real terrible bankruptcy but i am the cliche type..i belive in marrying for LOVE!

2. Have you had braces?
Nope..Thank God i didn't have to..but if i were to be having braces//i'll make it the next fashion acessory!wakaka..

.3. Could you live without a computer?
before 15,Yes..after that i'll definitely DIE!

4. If you could live in a different decade which would it be?
well it won't hurt to be back in the 70's or 80's..where the fashion was weird and people were brave in experimenting with looks!

5. Do you drink enough water?
well i think so cause i am quite particular about my body getting at least 1500ml a day!

6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take em off?
take em off!i was never one of those that learn to have the habit of bedroom slippers!i want to like they do in movies but nah...barefoot is okay in the house!

7. What are your favorite fruits?
wow..where to begin?i would be called fruit addict if there was such a term..
plum, peach, kiwi,pear,sunmelon,honeydew,longan,lychee,duku,manggis, watermelon, mangoes!!!, erm erm, grapes, starfruit,!dislike dragonfruit and durian!

8. What is your favorite place to visit?
anywhere that will plaster a smile on my face!

9. Are you photogenic?
well people do tend to tell me that i look better in pictures that reali life and also the other way round..so i don't know..it depend on the angle i take la!haha

10. Do you dream in color or black and white?
sometimes..wait..how did u know this?haunting me in my dreams?

11. Why do you take surveys?
wanna kill time and too bored!wanna have a reason not to hit the books!

. Do you drink alcohol?
not really a drinker..drink red wine?white wine also not that bad!

13. What is the most beautiful language?
erm..the language of LOVE?wakaka..

14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?
same with caroline..i also like to picture being kissed in the forehead just to let me know that i am safe in his arms!

15. WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset?
well if i would have to choose...sunset..cause it would be more romantic..watch sunrise with minxx and beffie before..wasn't that nice..have yet to see sunset!

16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrs old?
erm..unless the partner of my life is living till 100 too if not it will be so boring!

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?
was just thinking bout this in the bus today..well i would love to have one but then it's okay to not have one too..just not too big..cause sometimes flaws are perfection too..i mean we all can never be too perfect right?

18. What body part of the opposite sex is sexiest?carol for real the butt?haha..
for me would be the yes and a mole on the lips..his hand and arms..the way he caress my face with that hand of his and the way he holds on to me tightly!

19. When watching scary movies are the lights on or off?
too CHICKEN to watch horror movies!theer i said it!

20. Do you believe in magic?
not really..black magic are because of spirits?

21. Do you believe in ghosts?
i believe in their existence in this world but i rather not see one anymore!

22. Do you like to watch cartoons?
yeah!hell yeah!especially SOUTHPARK!thanks to my B for dragging me into it!

23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?
parents never really instilled that whole santa claus lie on me since young!just see it in cartoons!never believd it was real!

24. Do you write poems?
well i would like to think i do but unfortunately not all of us are shakespeare type!

25. Do you snore?
yup when i'm super tired.

26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides?
sides when he is next to me..front when my sinus is iritating me..front when i am dead tired

27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
terrier!whatever happens pun i want a terrier!

28. Are you basically a happy person?
nope..my mood always flactuates!

29. Are you tired?
yup..tired of life and exams!and pressure!aargh

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine?
only starbucks white coffee..isit b?

31. How do you take your coffee?
don't fancy coffee

32. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house?2

33. Do you get along with your parents?
depends

34. Do u smoke?
i hate the smell of cigarattes

35. Do you have a kitty?
nope!have too many dogs..

36. Have you ever had a birthday party?
erm duh..sure lah!

37. What do you do when you're sad?
Cry..

38. What do you need most now?
a reason to not go for class tomorrow and my B and my friends!

39. What song are you listening to now?
NEYO-together

40.what are you craving right now?
B's hugs and kisses!

I tag :
My b!
KERRYN LUM ERN HSING!
tan shwu teng
Emily!
hui fern
kerina
genise


i rest my case,
until then,
with love!
karlisyle lum

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

give it all

as for your informatipnj purposes,my B has started a blog of his own so please feel free to link him aitexx..i mean those of you that know him okay?

well today's pretty much just another ordinary day except for the migrain that is superbly killing my head and mood..i got lots of assignments awaiting me...i am so tired but yet i know i have to push myself today..i had so many big plans and dreams today...i wanna complete my LAW essay despite whatever happens..

well this post of mine today is sort of another rant of mine(they all are,huh?)so just click the X button if you are not interested..

lately i been thinking about human behaviours..because i am facing problem dealing with humans..i used to be so open and sociable..i used to be such a chatterbox..it's not that i am no longer one but it's just that i have slowed down my enthusiam of living life with talking..i sometimes find it rather relaxing being left alone and just not talk...just dwell inside my own thoughts..

well i better stop running out of the topic and go back to it..

humans are such complicated creatures created by God..well he did not made us this way but why did we humans did these to ourselves?turning ordelves in to such ugly creatures...at least the beast shows the truth..it eats its preys and ming;e with its own kind..

humans on the other hand..we act like we like the person but at the back we backbite them till they is nothing left for them to say..why can't we human be a lil more simple...the people that we hate we shall just avoid while keep the ones we love close to us..

i admit i myself find myself so difficult to be understand..it is because i made myself difficult to be understand..i put an armor shield around me to protect myself from falling into darkness..but why should i do that when falling is part of learning in life?

because i am scared..i can never know or guess what the other person is thinking of me..i am afraid of being judge..i hate being judge..i myself am a judgemental person so i know how scary one can get when judging..

until today i can never exactly read minxx mind and i can never intepret what exactly is in that mind of his..i am so afraid..being so close to him yet i still can't read his mind..

why are we so difficult to intepret?why sometimes we love to make something so simple so complicated?

i say i LOVE you,why can't i just do as i mean?
i say that i HATE you,why can't i do as i say?

why are we humans so silly and stupid?getting ourselves stressed up for nothing?why?

p.s:am not in an amo mood cause i know who truly loves me..

until then,
toodles..
stay happy..
the grass is always greener on the other side,
love u people!
karlisyle lum


monkey pig face..pouting as usual i wonder sometimes do we really see the world with both our eyes or rather just one?

reaching out

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

randomness

lost in the darkness for awhile,at last there was finnaly a light..a bright light that was shone towards me..the day has become brighter and positive..the grass is also greener on the other side..i shall not stick to being so pesimistic..there are so many things in life to long and wait for..i admit i for one am easily demotivated...logging in to my blog adn seeing that there are no new comments make me feel it is not worthwhile blogging..but at the end of the day i know the truth...the satisfaction of blogging is not for others but oneself..

i shall proceed on the pictures..i wanna promote some of the things that i have bought..well why not share it with u beloved people right?

first up,
this ccake is bought from ZEN..midvalley..yes me and my B have the habit of trying new food at new shop every weekend if we have the dough to pay...haha..the cake was haven..it's name is the chocolate marshmallow..seriously for chocolate lovers,go out there and get yourself a slice.only rm6.50 per slice..ZEN currently only have three outlets(i think)

some history facts about ZEN..it is a mini SECRET RECIPE..but it specialises more on desserts like creme buele,raspberry cheese pudding..alot of other types!



secondly i wanna show u shoppers that it don't matter if u don't have time to go out and shop..there's another alternative..blogshopping..Terence was so amazed at the word blogshopping!wakaka..i bet some of u know about this already!i'm kinda into it these days..i am still waiting for my 3 statement tees!wakaka..
this is the pretty pretty bag that i just got yesterday..purchased it from the internet..the blog web i'll give later..i feel guilty for causing so much trouble and hassle to her just to get this bag!well i don't know what u guys think about it but i am so lovin it..esp the detail on the bag..there are just simply pretty..i got it for rm40..quite reasonable for a bag this size..mulyipupose bag..handbag and schoolbag!




well,there are tons more of other pretty bags at the blog so feel free to go visit and have a look:www.wonder-bags.blogspot.com...feel free to look through aitexx?
until then,
stay tune to my blog!
i'll be back!
toodles!
karlisyle lum


Thursday, October 16, 2008

something more

i know that my post these few days were utterly boring and not worthy of any of your precious time..i deeply expressed my regrets to inform you that Yes,this is Me..
i don't know why i have become so subjected to emo-ing..
someone that i really care about told me that maybe i am being too paranoid and insecure..you see i told her that i really don't feel welcome in college..i feel so lonely with 40 other people in the class...everyone don't seem to believe i have that problem cause i talk to anyone in class except for a few of them..but i truly can't seem to find one friend who i can truly click and be myself..i don't have anyone to camwhore..yet alone i don't even have the guts to camwhore because they will have something to say about it

SHE messaged me and tell me that i need to open up..she open up my eyes..i ask myself why am i supressing myself?why do i contemplate with wearing what i want just cause i am afarid of expressing myself...Yes,i love dressing up and i am a fashion addict..srew me over or whatsoever..i can't change...i can't help it if you don't like the way i dress but i dress according to my high sense of fashion..

things have been really BAD this past few weeks...and i have taken my feelings out on this bloggie..sad but true when i am sad i am free to express how i feel..i don't care if u don't leave a comment or something in this blog..what i am sad is..sad but yes it is true..when i am really sad,everyone immediately abandon my blog and i'll not hear a word from anyone..maybe i am just an easily forgooten person..

well who isn't right?we are Humans and we are subject to failures and weaknesses..maybe so happen that i am not good at keeping friends that is why i am often abandoned during the worst time in my life..i admit i deserve being forgotten...i am one of those who sees a friend in MSN but often not take an initiative to chat up that friend because i am often too busy or too tired..

i want a change and it has to start with the guy i hurt most..he has been the subject of my anger,tears and weaknesses...i wanna change..i truly want to..but let me take a step at a time!

secondly to all my best friend..u know who you are because u are my one and only BFF i'll have in life..i am so sorry to bother you when i am down..i am sorry that i don't ask you how u r instead i jump into conclusion that u will always be in a fine state..

thirdly to my good friends..you also know who you are..i am so sorry that i am constantly saying out about how you betray me..i should focus on the happy times you gave me..

fourthly my twin sis..i am happy that we are getting closer ever since we have deported to KL from our fav KUANTAN...thanks for helping me out and hearing me out...thanks for accompanying me at night at times where i am so lonely

fifthly..okay i am just crapping about the sequence with the LY thing..it must be habit i am getting on..to all the people in the past i have had misunderstandings with...HARE and Dinish are two to name...i declare TRUCE between us?shall we?i apologise..i was childish back then..why not let us move forward and leave the grudges back to where it was and not carry it on?

whoever is reading this,you might not want to accept my apology now...but at least i know i did the right thing by taking a step first...by apologisisng..i am not expecting anything back so it is up to your consience to do what you thing is right...


until then,
toodles..
take care..i'll try to be back with good news!
with love
karlisyle lum


some pictures of me(as usual:p)





p.s:carol:i still can't get the neo imaging word off though i did as you told!anyway more pics will be coming..so how bout this batch?okay tak?hehe!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

something more

hey people...
i am here ranting again..
it's raining again..
about to rain..
i can hear the thunders..


i solemnly sit in front of my lappy
trying very best to find a better topic to blog about
but all over again i have nothing to blog except this perfectly sucky life of mine..

all day my head was fill with the song Goodbye To You by michelle Branch
i sometimes why are there so many goodbyes in life
sometimes i wonder why life and death have to be so distinctly separated
the worst ever separation is by life and death


when one's life is taken away from you
you are left alone to battle this world..
you constantly tell yourself that the person will be watching you from afar..
but how will we really know that the person is there watching us


i feel like life suddenly has lose its meaning
i am always drifted to somewhere far with my own thoughts
i am constanly drown in this own thoughts of mine
i wonder is there someone out there that can truly understand me?
why is it so diificult to read other minds and let mine be read

i sometimes wish that life could be way simpler than this
i really hope that things will turn better overnight
i really look forward to a new beginning..

open my eyes to let me see all the colours in life
let me smell the fresh scent of life
taste all the wonderful flavours of life
open my ears to let me hear all the beautiful serene tunes
let me feel all the delicate things in life..


signing off with love,
karlisyle lum

Monday, October 13, 2008

finally a pic

hey there people finally manage to upload one pathethic picture in this blog of mine..my lappie has a serious hard problematic case..i don't know where it went wrong..

well i guess my absence from the blogsphere is so totally irrelevant to anyone therefore i doubt this post will be even read..i am so crappy right now..

life's not FAIR but again when has life ever been fair?well i guess life's a game..only thing is my life is full of losses..all the time..

it's FUNNY how life is..sometimes people just emo and talk about their life in their blogs,we humans love snooping out on their blogs as we love to butt in every once and then..people read every single word that is written in their post..from the first till the last..but when i do it,people seem to think i am overdoing it for attention...WTF...right?but life's like that...you can never have the whole world loving you..

i have not been myself lately..i am not exaggerating it for attention..it is true...even my college mates are concerned about my behavourial change..i ahve become less prominent and active in class..i rather keep quiet and mind my own businesss..the truth is i don't feel like i fit in everywhere anymore sometimes even in my own family..

i admit i am not good at keeping touch with my friends and i deserve all this but it's just that sometimes i don't want to appear to clingy and dependant..i know everyone is moving on with their next stage of life happily except me..

i wonder sometimes why isit me only facing this difficulty of adapting to this change?the transational change from a school kid to a college grown up..i feel like i have to act so independant all the time..plastering a fake smile on my face is a daily routine...

i am not seeking pity or attention..i just needed a place where i can voice all of this out..i don't belong anymore..even to him i feel like that sometimes..maybe it's just a bad phase i'm going through...lord,help me through again!

with love,
karlisyle lum




sometimes i look myself in the mirror and ask myself where all of the sadness in my eyes came from..

Monday, October 6, 2008

i wish you were the one

sometimes when we FALL,WE can COUNT on the one who loves us most
sometimes i wish that REALITIES WILL Be more like FANTASIES
sometimes i prefer to dwell in lies rather than the truth
sometimes i feel lonely when i am not alone
sometimes i wish i was just a shadow in the dark
sometimes i just want to be understand and understand
sometimes i just want someone to hold me tight
sometimes i secretly hope that someone will be willing to take the fall for me


confessions of a broken hearted..
my broken heart,
karlisyle lum

i'm doing that thing u do

i don't know where this will be heading but what thing i'm sure is i am such a failure..so much for my 5hours study plans

God sometimes i really wish that i could be somewhere far far away from all this distractions while studying..yes,i USED to have good self-control(how the heck u think i manage to lose 30kg then?)
don't knowwhether it is just me or not but i seem to be facing major picture uploading problem.

i am doing that thing that u called is as EMO0ING...i miss him heaps but yet i have tow ait for another 4 frigging days till i can be in his arms..sometimes i really wonder am i not cut out for this dating study thing..it seems to be really getting into my head and emotions..i don't feel like studying at all these days(maybe it is too long of a holiday for my brains)

i seriously have nothing to talk about..God not only am i lazy but also useless...there seem to be not much of a topic for me to talk about..

i hate college life at this point of time..i hate waking up early
i hate the fact that every syllabus is getting tougher
i ahte the thought of anyone being better than me

God,can i just skip this studying part of my life and just work?

when will i meet the ends of this studying process?aaargh..


till then,
with not so much of love,
toodles
karlisyle lum

Friday, September 26, 2008

tagged by my dearest BEFFIE!

Tag.

1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself.

2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things / habits / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.

3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tag and list their names.

4. No tags back!

so let's get started with this 15 things that i can't help myself with:
1.i love nibbling my fingernails when i have nothing to do with my hands

2.i love playing with my hair whilst finding split ends and frizzy strands.

3.i stare in the mirror everyday just to tell myself i am PRETTY.(WAKAKA)

4.i have the habit of picturing the future when i am stoning.

5.sometimes when someone is emo-ing to me,i'll just nod my head without listening(i am a super bad listener!)

6.i get really really super scary and rude when i am ask to wait for more than 20 minutes!

7.i like thinking what negative things will happen to me.

8.i sometimes picture how sweet can min and people be to me if i ever have leukimia or cancer.(but it's not that i want it to happen k?)

9.i sometimes wish that i could have more guy fans!(wakaka)ya..maybe growing up with beffie made me wonder how it feels to be in her shoes!

10.i love listening to acoustic songs and picture that i am performing that song on stage for some grand event!(who knows maybe i will for my prom!:p)

11.i like to wonder the ifs in life..eg if i was still single or stuff like that!

12.when i am in a place full of foreign faces,i feel so out that sometimes i pretend that i have something to do with my handphone!-i know i am lame!

13.i am super manja around some guys because i get to get em to help me!when i am too lazy to do my own chores!

14.when i am talking,i am always over expressive and sometimes i over-exaggerate too!(kena kantoi a few times d!)

15.last but not least,i have this obsession of keeping useless stuff because i have grew feelings to those belongings of mine!


AND I TAG :
-my dear twin sis
-Ju vIn!
-emily
-Darwin choy!(though we are not freinds!this so random!
-jie yin!(old tadika mate!)
-hui fern!
-ho eva!
-may jean!
-matilda
-ikram!

until then
enjoy reading my exposed habits!
with love,
toodles!
karlisyle lum